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If I could please just get myself back to this I will be happy with my body 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

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i will never understand why more people in their 80s don't commit felonies. you reach that age and surely there's something illegal you always wanted to do but didn't bc Consequences

dammit, GO FORTH GRANNIES!!! rob an armored car! hold up that bank! tunnel your way into fort knox! what are they gonna do, sentence you to 20 years? good fuckin luck with that

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you know what’s really fun and in style right now? being kind and making others feel loved and valued

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"descended into madness" um actually i climbed here? yeah it was a pretty steep journey. yeah the air's pretty thin up here. i think im getting altitude sickness. pretty dizzy actually

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me: *loses two pounds a day*

me: can u like….. go faster

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Nowadays I'm just straight up like "Yo I got an eating disorder" 🤣

Something occurred to me when I talk about it it out loud I can't say "I have anorexia"

I always say something like "I have unusual/disordered" habits or "I'm if of those people that has trouble eating"

It guess it just sounds so harsh to me, that name. It almost hurts to hear the word some days

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I'm back bitchesssss

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I want to run away to how things used to feel, before the world caved in.

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I miss my legs so fkn much

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So I've gained a bit, I weight like 52kg instead of 47 now. Idk what that is in pounds.

I feel bloated and panicky and I want to lose the weight again and go back

#ana #mia #not pro anything just using tags #in recovery #please get help for yourself

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Fucked up my own Twitter handle in this post and it took me sp long to realise, love that for me 😅

Anyway here's my actual profile if you wanna give me a follow:

Just got Twitter if anyone feels like searching @trainwreckmind and giving me a follow I'm gon a try to figure out how to use the app

#ed blog #ana #mia #whoops #not pro anything just using tags #follow me on twitter xox

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Update, doctor wants me to gain 8kg!?!?!?!? 😳😰

#weight issues #trainwreck #ana #mia #not pro anything just using tags #anorexiia #bulimiia #Osfed

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The idea of having to gain 2kg is driving me Insane and I've low-key decided I kinda just don't want to so I won't 🤷🏻‍♀️

#ed blog #ana #mia #not pro just using tags #please recover and get help #dont be like me

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Just got Twitter if anyone feels like searching @trainwreckmind and giving me a follow I'm gon a try to figure out how to use the app

#ed blog #just got twitter #ana #mia #not pro anything just using tags #please recover and get help

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Just found out I'm 4kg (8.8lbs) underweight and I'm really not sure what to do with that info. Thought I was a healthy weight these past months but apparently I've been using an extremely outdated height for myself (I was like 11-12 when I was that tall don't even ask how I fucked that up)

My partner wants to meet and the middle and for me to gain 2kg (4.4lbs) but I'm so scared if I start gaining weight I won't stop, and also my throat is sore from whatever I'm sick with, eating is legitimately difficult right now. I know that seems like an excuse but I can't even move my head without my entire right side of my throat aching 😔

#ed blog #ana #mia #underweight #not pro anything just using tags #please recover and get help #trainwreck mental health

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Context for this post in case anyone's been in a similar position

So this morning my boyfriend and I were going through my camera roll and I realised he was seeing so many photos of me in the bathroom in weird positions, sexual positions, body check positions, and it probably looked really odd...

Do the sexual looking ones that never get sent to him make him worry that I'm sending them elsewhere? Did he worry when he saw ones of me wrapping my hands around my waist or legs to see how much skinnier I'm getting?

What do you even do when people see your camera roll and there's just fucked shit there

Yeah, sex is good,

But have you ever tried taking seemingly uncontrollable amounts of photos of your body in all sort of positions just so you know what you like from every possible angle and which bits you need to hide to look okay?

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Yeah, sex is good,

But have you ever tried taking seemingly uncontrollable amounts of photos of your body in all sort of positions just so you know what you like from every possible angle and which bits you need to hide to look okay?

#edblog #ana #mia #not pro anything just using tags #this sucks i promise #please recover and get help