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Why are we not talking about the fact that Jean was also a sassy little shit to the FBI? The entire bureau of federal investigations was not prepared to handle this particular pair of nineteen year olds

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The realization that Jean and Andrew are/were both number three might break me after the parallels between them in tsc

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Jeremy repressed his problems so well we couldn't even get anything from his own fucking povs. Boy doesn't even think about them

#neil: we know everything about him but nothing about anyone else #jeremy: we know nothing about him but everything about everyone else #the sunshine court #tsc #jeremy knox #aftg #all for the game

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I can appreciate the aftg fandom for what it is.

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jeremey is the polar opposite neil. Neil will spend pages upon pages internally describing his insane traumas while whole days pass in book time.

meanwhile Jeremy is like “i am experiencing trauma beyond belief. Check out this cardboard dog i got cuz my parents won’t let me have a real one :)”

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Getting Jean's perspective of Neil has casually reminded me that Neil really was out here in tfc acting like Andrew was insane for thinking he was a mole for the Ravens.

Like the man was so offended that Andrew would assume that, even though he spent every moment before that being completely fucking feral, having a literal shrine to Kevin and Riko in his bag at all times along with $250,000 in what amounts to cash, knew french well enough to not only yell at Kevin with no context, but say something that got Kevin to throw him against a wall in retaliation....

This is the man who had the audacity to act like Andrew's assumption that he was hired by the Moriyamas was completely unreasonable.

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so sorry to nicky but if i had witnessed neil’s ability to convince andrew to do things, andrew’s violent reaction when neil went missing and then the whole entire scene in the hotel room, my immediate assumption about andreil’s relationship would not be that they were hate-fucking. like that is the most in-love-with-each-other behavior i have ever seen

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big thank you to jeremy knox for finally verbalizing what we’ve been thinking for an actual decade now

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I don’t know if you all realize how often I think about @02511213942 ‘s art and specifically the “Aaron and Neil were friends first” lol. Neil brought snacks for the study session

(I do know there’s a fic about the topic out there as well but I.. don’t read fic much so 025’s was my intro the au train of thought and I fell in love with it. Andrew’s throwback memory is their art from the above linked post and the whole thing is worth seeing again even if you’ve already seen it 😂💕)

Anyway Aaron, new counterargument: what if Neil brought Andrew a little treat tho

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'i would prefer if you didn't call me by my last name' see this is what i mean like yk who else would say something like that? our resident wesninski but jeremy didn't even acknowledge this for a SECOND in his pov bro is pretending to be an unbothered king so bad i want to sit in his brain for a while

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Neil Josten, Nathaniel Wesninski, Neil Abram Josten.

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neil "that's not my problem" josten constantly playing hero, improving everyone's life and doing so in the most cunty and chaotic way 🙄

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Love wins!

Your mafia owner doesn't care if you have a boyfriend!

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Jean Moreau be like Neil Josten was supposed to be my best friend and I consider that loss to be one of the worst things that ever happened to me. He's one of the select few who I trust to take me and my problems seriously and make good on his promises to me. Unfortunately he is also the fucking antichrist and everything he does is calibrated to spike my blood pressure.

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twinyards

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I have a lot of feelings about the rise of he would not fucking say that attitudes in fandom spaces and the paralysing effect it can have on creators. As a writer i think it’s important to just write what feels true to you and not what you think others will “approve” of. Like even as a reader i have enjoyed a variety of different characterisations that all work because the writer makes them work for a particular story. And a fic that’s written out of character to some will be in character to others. Writing fic is not your job you’re not being paid it’s your hobby please. Make them as close to canon as possible. Make them completely different. Who cares! Have fun! Have so much fun! There is an audience for every kind of fic and every kind of character interpretation i promise

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"I will love them enough that it changes the narrative" but it's Nicky's love for the twins finally giving them a stable home where they could heal, Jean's love for Kevin giving him the chance to escape Evermore, the twins' love for each other saving them from their abusers, the foxes' love for Neil making him into a real person, Andrew's love for Neil giving him something to build a life around outside his promises, Renee's love for Jean saving his life, Jean's love for Elodie convincing him that he doesn't deserve everything that happened to him—