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like everyone else who's read the manga, of course I now have the senshi in my head telling me to eat right. but mine is

me: man I would love to make that spaghetti I like, but we're out of mushrooms

senshi: go get some

me: but there's nothing else I need right now, it's not efficient to go all the way to the supermarket just for that

senshi: then go find some! go in the woods

me:

senshi: go in the woods

#dungeon meshi

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Chilchuck the short king

#i have been watching this every day and thinking about it nonstop for the past week #dungeon meshi

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thinkin bout the time @fivetail told @veggieblt about my Palawa Joko thing.

Here is the @ everyone that got sent to over 400 people

#couple of em read it and left nice comments so! 👍 pollo

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so tired of people acting like 'wizard', 'sorcerer', 'warlock', 'druid' are different things.... just say you do magic and go

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we as humans really do have this developmental attachment to The Horrors In The Depths don't we

we want to go down there. we're curious. we need to know. we'll come out better for it

but there's always Something there. Things aren't normal. You leave what you know behind. Creatures are different. People are different. There's religion down there, demons. There's beasts that want you dead. Your dead sister is down there. The side of yourself that you hate is down there. There are sins down there nobody wants known. There's jealousy. There's sex. You'll go mad. You'll starve. You'll change.

But you'll go down there anyway.

#yes this is a Dungeon Meshi Thought but only because it's putting into perspective a lot of other fiction #just off the top of my head #the diablo series. lord of the rings. minecraft. baldur's gate. legend of zelda. gw2. undertale. elder scrolls. you know. every roguelike. #1/4 of all horror movies probably #oh early final fantasy was very RPGcore like this #we bury things. we bury them and then go looking forthem again as if we didnt put them there

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the only thing in our new apartment so far

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okay magic boy get it

#genshin impact #i think i hauvve covid

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I'm comparing the Dungeon Meshi manga to episodes I just watched and now I gotta capital-p Post about this one episode (spoilers past Episode 12)

So this part is an emotional side-step from the central throughline so far - Laios and Marcille got Falin back successfully and reunited, and they got that payoff from the very beginning where they thought it would be impossible. But Chilchuck is very much a part of these layers of development, so after that dragon finally dies, we stop for a second - Laios and Marcille are recovering, Falin has disappeared again - how does Chilchuck feel at that point?

It's the perfect stage to insert that because he didn't really share in that sense of victory in the same way as Laios and Marcille recovering someone extremely close to them. And that's on purpose because he keeps everyone at arms' length. As soon as that arc hits its end and Falin is recovered, there's at last space to ask - why is Chilchuck even here.

He's asking himself that through the chapter. Now that they've lost the person they intended to save, he regrets agreeing to come.

And starts shouldering responsibility for everything ending up this way. We saw that when he got stuck in the mimic room before - he refuses to let himself ask for help, or he'll try to take burdens alone to lessen relying on others. The original Touden Party was six people, and when Laios insisted on going back underground they were two, and he knew they would die, and figured maybe, maybe if they were one more, with his skillset, maybe they'd have a chance. He couldn't let them walk back down just to die.

And he's going back to that mindset - their lives are on me. He thinks he could have prevented this if he'd chosen differently. Essentially, the walk alongside the orc woman is him working through a guilt spiral.

He sees a second chance to correct that mistake of joining the party. He wants them out now, before they die. The orc asks him how they defeated a dragon and, in explaining it, he reminds himself of all the risky, ridiculous things they had to do, and he isn't satisfied with just getting lucky. Laios got his foot bitten off, on purpose! This proves to him that if they go any further they will not survive. And he hints at this dissatisfaction a couple chapters later, wishing his teammates prioritised things other than winning at all costs...

Like, obviously. The point of this chapter is Chilchuck pretending to be a self-serving coward. To the point where others react with disdain, even disgust, towards him because he wants to lie to Marcille and Laios to ensure they turn back. He's desperate to get out of a hopeless situation by any means necessary, and will destroy his standing in the group in a blink if it means nobody else dies. He has to go on a stupid mental health walk for his stupid mental health and talk through his little bout of panic and doubt.

'You called me a coward so don't be surprised when I act accordingly'

He needs someone very blunt to tell him 'dude you're not being a coward for wanting your friends to get out of hell alive. you're a coward for making excuses instead of honestly telling them your concern is genuine' and he BSODs about it. He needs to rant and externalise that frustration over their recklessness at a third party. He needs to scream that they are idiots because he's the only one for which the ends don't justify the means and he can't keep losing his mind over everyone's safety. Down to a point, the orc praises their ability to survive the explosion from the dragon's fuel sac, and it only justifies Chilchuck - Falin didn't even know she could cast the spell that stopped them all being killed, and they cannot continue getting lucky like this.

Anyway. The reason I stopped to think about it was this part-

Where he recovers Laios's monster-infused sword. The thing that made their situation in the dragon fight go from bad to worse, that he swore at Laios for in every language he knew. The most angry we'd seen him. And now he calmly picks it up and praises it for being the only one of them smart enough to make a run for it.

He's projecting, obviously. He's internalising the label of 'coward' and changing himself to fit it. And, look at him, he's so tired of this. It's evidence of his sheer exhaustion that his anger immediately disappears and he actually gives it a compliment. Him and Laios's sword, the group cowards, the only one who agrees with him.

Then, because he had a walk before getting into the argument, he's organised his feelings and drops all the walls and pretense and just says it.

There's a rule of writing where you contrast your high energy sequences with parts that are slow and mundane, to make the difference more apparent. I think that's why I like this bit so much. The fight against the dragon is long, and the emotional stakes are enormous. Right after that we have the bath scene with Falin and Marcille, and Laios ruffling Falin's hair, and this part that pauses everything to explore the stuff that Chilchuck finally needs to say. And it's wrapped in this neat little solemn journey to pick up their supplies and remember how it felt when all five of them had a meal around a real dinner table at last.

And because he doesn't resort to individualistic trickery, because he explains his point as a duty of care rather than pitting himself against the others, he gets backed up. Senshi agrees that they don't have the supplies to continue, and the orc lady mentions her brethren will return later and can give them support, all of which together breaks down Laios's singleminded devotion to his cause.

Personally I think the manga's better suited to comic timing, but in the anime you can get fleshed out little moments, like Laios's face journey as he realises the other three are making a good case for their survival.

This was my favourite part so far, and I like how both Chilchuck-centric episodes have separated him from the others. Because he won't reveal anything he's thinking otherwise. lmao

#dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi spoilers #long post #yeah im sorry dungeon meshi good i'm posting through it

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you stupid fucking idiot i can’t believe you died and got resurrected and are now safely in my arms again. I’ll kill you

#ah it's like that. i understand everything now. #yeah i didn't realise i have done this like. five times? #kleo n dregg (building off their original incarnations) #peridot n chalcedony #canach n commander #fez n scaramouche #ch[REDACTED] and [REDACTED] #that's right fucko's i'll do it again

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"i want you to become the next 'king' of the house. yet, you seem to have different ideas." "i'm not saying i have all the answers, but doing so will only bring us further away from being a real family!"

#genshin impact #freminet don't!!!!! #the spinning wheel of parental disappointment

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YOUR FAV GW2 VOICELINE GO

#look at this guy! #look at the sinews on those legs! #HNNUGHNN (horniest crotch grab noise you've ever heard in your life) #gw2 #forgot to tell mr north how much i appreciated that specifically

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thank god i was notified

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guy whose only relationship experience is divorce: getting a lot of divorce vibes from this conversa

he is so drunk girl at a party "you should dump your boyfriend" coded.

#dungeon meshi #yes i know he's not literally divorced but the epic divorceman energy is off the charts

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THIS WAS TO ME LMAO

i didn't even SEE the react because I was busy taking a bug outside while this was happening 💟

Oh my god I was fully about to kms my friend was telling me about her OC and I went to heart react but my fucking phone froze and I started tapping the screen to get it working again and when I logged into my DMs on the computer I'd accidentally "😒" reacted to her messages?? 😭

#i like how my name is a complete mystery length #chatlog

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how soon can i make a dungeon meshi oc without anyone getting mad

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one day i'll go to a different map but today is not the day

#gw2 #beautiful! i'm like this whenever i gotta go to auric basin for aynthing

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#i will cry