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hello >:D it's definitely been some time hasn't it >:(( I wanted to give a mini update, as I'm going to be moving to a new blog (I never thought I'd do this as I'm quite sentimental) as a new leaf sort of thing, I've enjoyed my mini journey here and the support I got too, it was so lovely <33

But I think I'm leaving it behind as the memories of what happened this year outside of writing and my mum's health sort of seem a bit bittersweet so, I've created a new writing blog. and this time I'll pace myself a bit more too.

here is my new blog thingmajiggy here @justwolosers

but again thank you so much too, I'll definitely carry over some unfinished works I think onto this new blog but um yes, thank you again, big big virtual hugs <33

#gender neutral y/n #gender neutral character #gender neutral reader #qtipcottonbuds

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BLES YOUR SOUL U U U I U. U UNU U

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yesterday I saw across the spiderverse and oh my good god it was gorgeous, the animation the storyline qoskwo

the ideas I have currently 🕴🏼 even for crossover fanfictions. Its somewhat got me out of my burnout a little bit.

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had someone tell me that a friend I made who happened to be an introvert as well as gay, was one of the good ones, and then proceeded to say it was a Dave chapelle reference and I'm not sure how to feel about having a near enough heart attack

#one kf the good ones #this that uncle ruckus energy he was channeling #am j one kf the good ones #thafs whaf i asked #this js worse rhan the time i got called a nigwhite #IN RPIDE MONTH TOO

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🙏🏼we'll support you in whatever y'wanna do! And also send me your new blog if you do make it 🔫

thank u stonks <33 u r so sweet genuinely

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hello again <33 I'm not sure if I'll be back yet but I'm thinking of starting over with another blog, I'm not sure yet though, still sitting on it. And also just pacing myself with writing in the future. I haven't written in some time but I might start up again soon

I hope you're all doing groovy beans too and staying hydrated, eating well etc and also Happy Pride Month <33

hello - i’ll try to keep this short really, so i don’t ramble too much - i’ve been a part-time carer for my mother since i was sixteen (and become a full-time carer since i turned eighteen) after the recent development of early-onset dementia which runs on my grandmother’s side. and i’ve learnt to adapt to that and work with it, as I don’t have the funds to support my mother with a nurse or the potential of a care home. 

first week of february was amazing, i was writing through my said requests for the first week and my mother was experiencing stomach pains, bleeding from (we’ll call it the back passage) and my mother has a history of piles and ibs so we just put it down to that, and it got progressively worse that week and now my mother is in and out of appointments for several other conditions that she has, on top of the possibility and likelihood of stage 2 bowel cancer. it’s not an excuse, but more of an explanation and if anything. 

it’s strange talking about it because usually i don’t like mixing my personal life with my writing nonsense, it’s two separate things - but now i have to, because i owe it you guys which you deserve to hear about. my mother has already begun to forget me, and i’m okay with it to some extent, but the possibility of the cancer makes me wish i had more time. i thought i had more time anyway.

but that being said, i’m genuinely sorry - if anything, i’m sure there other wonderful writers who’ll be able to take on those requests as well, and you deserve to have them completed <33 and thank you for being patient regardless, it means an awful lot. i’m thinking with writing and being active on here i’ll take a break (it’s hard to talk, and i don’t like to keep people waiting either, people don’t wait forever) for how long i can’t say but, i’ll hopefully be back soon. i’ll set a limit of two months maybe. but i wish you all the best, and to have a wonderful time in the meanwhile. thank you again too <33

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hello - i'll try to keep this short really, so i don't ramble too much - i've been a part-time carer for my mother since i was sixteen (and become a full-time carer since i turned eighteen) after the recent development of early-onset dementia which runs on my grandmother's side. and i've learnt to adapt to that and work with it, as I don't have the funds to support my mother with a nurse or the potential of a care home. 

first week of february was amazing, i was writing through my said requests for the first week and my mother was experiencing stomach pains, bleeding from (we'll call it the back passage) and my mother has a history of piles and ibs so we just put it down to that, and it got progressively worse that week and now my mother is in and out of appointments for several other conditions that she has, on top of the possibility and likelihood of stage 2 bowel cancer. it's not an excuse, but more of an explanation and if anything. 

it's strange talking about it because usually i don't like mixing my personal life with my writing nonsense, it's two separate things - but now i have to, because i owe it you guys which you deserve to hear about. my mother has already begun to forget me, and i'm okay with it to some extent, but the possibility of the cancer makes me wish i had more time. i thought i had more time anyway.

but that being said, i'm genuinely sorry - if anything, i'm sure there other wonderful writers who'll be able to take on those requests as well, and you deserve to have them completed <33 and thank you for being patient regardless, it means an awful lot. i'm thinking with writing and being active on here i'll take a break (it’s hard to talk, and i don’t like to keep people waiting either, people don’t wait forever) for how long i can't say but, i'll hopefully be back soon. i'll set a limit of two months maybe. but i wish you all the best, and to have a wonderful time in the meanwhile. thank you again too <33

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𝙁𝙀𝘽𝙐𝙒𝙃𝙐𝙈𝙋 ‘𝗢𝟭 ; 𝙒𝙄𝙏𝙃 𝙍𝙀𝙑𝙀𝙉𝘼𝙉𝙏  [TOUCH STARVED]

a submitted request from a03 <33 think this could’ve been better really. my take on it 🕴🏼

warnings ;; angst, possible mild language, mentions of gore and injury, pre-relationship, technically assisted murder/suicide, not too sure etc.

by qtipcottonbuds 2023. do not repost.

𝗥𝗘𝗩𝗘𝗡𝗔𝗡𝗧 𝗫 𝗚𝗡!𝗥𝗘𝗔𝗗𝗘𝗥;

Revenant can be gentle, is what he tells himself. He is more than capable of being gentle. Yet, the hiss he lets out over the comms is anything but - a harsh dismissal, that he’ll deal with it. The majority of the time, regardless of his randomised teammates within the games, take the bait immediately. He is more than capable (and he hates it). Ash more often than not looks at him blankly, milky white receptors unfaltering, but it's a look of concern, pity. He hates that too; he’s glad he’s not stuck with her this time. Too little questions and too much noise. 

He knows you're staring at him, up from where you’re slumped into his chest. The reddish HUD infographic is ever present in the corner of his eye, picking up your heart rate, erratic and jerky. It used to unsettle him, the automated monitoring of a steady heartbeat, only to be snuffed out within seconds. It wasn’t so much of the visuals that bothered him, but the soft, rhythmic beeping - not loud, but audible enough if you took the time to focus and tune into it.

He isn’t sure though, when this started to happen. To become a habit. You’d never admitted openly that you feared death - you didn’t relish in it either. It was something to be done, a natural stage of the life cycle; but the Apex Games would force your hand. Kill or be killed. But, he found himself actively seeking you out, observant on who had been eliminated. Most Legends would draw out the kill, often tapping into repressed parts of themselves. And Revenant understood that, more than anyone. If emotion was fueling the motive, it made it all the more satisfactory. This was a blood sport for money, though. Not grudges. 

A hand curls around his wrist (receptors whirring at the sensation, because he is not used to kindness, not then, and not now, even as-) carelessly, no real regard and too soft for the given situation, yet you’re staring up at him, smiling weakly, bloody teeth and all.

“...You’ll be quick, right? Like, like last time…?” The words are forced, rattling around and out with harsh wheezes.

You’d probably caught onto his gaze occasionally flickering over to your watch, the expiration timer decreasing by the second.

He doesn’t answer immediately. He doesn’t have to, there’s no obligation - and there’s a weight on the tip of his synthetic tongue, uncomfortably heavy; he’ll do it anyway. You deserve that.

So he settles for a short nod. 

You beam at him, weakly rubbing a thumb, albeit coated in drying blood, over his wrist. A silent thank you.

Lanky fingers, metallic and cylindrical, graze across your wrinkled shirt, matted with fresh blood. He then places his palm flat against your ribcage, just short of where your heart is, waiting. Alive - even if it’s for a little bit longer. The thrum of the muscle is there, muted, struggling to supply blood to where it was needed most. Revenant found something about that awfully endearing, and at times, times like this, he wishes he were human. Flesh against flesh.

You don't stop him either, even as you wince against the slight pressure. Instead you smile warmly, sometimes unknowingly, as you watch on. Watch him. You’d mentioned in passing, that he made death a little easier to handle, especially if it was that quick. 

He prefers not to look at you during your final moments.

Even as cradling your jaw, staring at you with milky white receptors, blinking, before harshly jerking your jaw to the side - the weight of your head crumpling in his grasp

His hand trails up towards your jaw, cradling it with limited tenderness given his capacity, vacant eyes glancing at the weak rising and falling of your ribcage before harshly jerking your head to the side - everything else reducing to static - the weight of your head crumpling in his grasp.

A part of him questions if it’s fitting to punish himself like this.

#febuwhump #febuwhump 2023 #febuwhump 01 #apex legends angst #apex legends fanfic #apex legends #apex revenant #revenant x reader #revenant x gender neutral reader #revenant x male reader #revenant x female reader #gender neutral character #gender neutral reader #gender neutral y/n #gender neutral insert

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"do you want a therapist?".

I don't think I can talk anymore about it than I already have xoxo. if I do I'm just going to reopen Pandora's box I think

I'm so busy OH BALLS

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I'm so busy OH BALLS

#so many appointments AND AND #I GOT PIERCINGS DONE RIGHT #AND I DIDNT KNOW ABOUT IT AFFECTING ME DONATING BLOOD >:(( #Wanna see my blood in a lil tiny tube go wee #but i csn wait four months #HOORAY #also bought roller skates oh wowsers #i dont know if im going to write #gonna try bit #lost my crrativr flair sobs

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eating spaghetti and cleaning my piercings <33

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ON WHICH GAME STONKS

IDK how far this post will go but if anyone has a larvesta can they trade with me? ☹☹☹

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I am going to write this fic if it kills me

#Spotify

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has anyone else listening to lil yatchy's new album because whatever he did in Poland HOO BOY

#it really reminds me of tama impala and the first track on thr album specifically does somewhat remind me of the gig in the sky #and also the isolation album i think its called by tame impala i cant remember #but its uh uh the one with the disneyland gets #GATES #mwah

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𝙁𝙀𝘽𝙐𝙒𝙃𝙐𝙈𝙋 𝟮𝟬𝟮𝟯.

SIDENOTE - credited post here + just a reminder, it is first come first serve and you have a maximum of 3 day slots you can choose from <3 and if a day has been taken, you can substitute it for another !!

MULTI CHAPTER ;;

ALT 5 // TIME LOOP WITH BAKUGOU,,

(05.02.23) CHAP 1 -

(12.02.23) CHAP 2 -

(19.02.23) CHAP 3 -

(26.02.23) CHAP 4 -

SINGLE FICS ;;

DAY ONE // TOUCHSTARVED

WITH REVENANT (REQUESTED)

DAY TWO // FLINCHING

WITH GHOSTFACE (REQUESTED)

DAY THREE // MUZZLED

WITH

DAY FOUR // KNIFE TO THE THROAT

WITH

DAY FIVE // “THAT’S GONNA SCAR."

WITH MIRAGE (REQUESTED)

DAY SIX // SECRET’S REVEALED

WITH

DAY SEVEN // MADE TO WATCH

WITH SUN (REQUESTED)

DAY EIGHT // PANIC

WITH

DAY NINE // VOICE LOSS

WITH

DAY TEN // DIFFICULTY BREATHING

WITH

DAY ELEVEN // FEVER

WITH BAKUGOU (REQUESTED)

DAY TWELVE // “CAN YOU HEAR ME?”

WITH SUN + MOON

DAY THIRTEEN // FORCED TO HURT A LOVED ONE

WITH

DAY FOURTEEN // CAPTIVITY

WITH

DAY FIFTEEN // SELF-SACRIFICE

WITH LEGION (REQUESTED)

DAY SIXTEEN // SEMI-CONSCIOUS

WITH

DAY SEVENTEEN // SILENT TEARS

WITH HAWKS (REQUESTED)

DAY EIGHTEEN // CAN’T STAY AWAKE

WITH

DAY NINETEEN // “YOU DESERVE THIS.”

WITH GHOSTFACE (REQUESTED)

DAY TWENTY // KNIFE WOUND

WITH

DAY TWENTYONE // SHACKLED

WITH

DAY TWENTYTWO // CAN’T SCREAM

WITH

DAY TWENTYTHREE // “YOU’LL HAVE TO GO THROUGH ME.”

WITH MAMMON (REQUESTED)

DAY TWENTYFOUR // BLOODY CLOTHES

WITH SEBASTIAN (REQUESTED)

DAY TWENTYFIVE // ASSUMED DEAD

WITH LUCIFER (REQUESTED)

DAY TWENTYSIX // FORCED TO CHOOSE

WITH

DAY TWENTYSEVEN // SURVIVOR’S GUILT

WITH

DAY TWENTYEIGHT // “YOU’RE SAFE NOW.”

WITH MOON (REQUESTED)

#febuwhump #febuwhump 2023 #gender neutral character #gender neutral reader #gender neutral y/n #gender neutral insert #angst #angst fic #tw gore #tw death #nsfw #x reader #x male reader #x female reader #apex legends

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writers will be like "here's my current wip! can't wait to share more :)" and then you never hear about it again

#guys ill do it i orom #ILL FINISH EVERYTHINT #i say this and then my mental health goes balls but it is whageva we are going to do this

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what if I did febuwhump. And ignore all my responsibilities 🤩‼️

#Okah but im thuning on thus #becayse #uhuh #it looks fun