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#in a fight? maybe #in not a fight? i ain't givin' up #HOLY FUCK IT'S POLL TIME

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proposed thursday addition for 2020

#it's maneater monday

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The Mirandas lobbied HARD in Puerto Rico for adoption of a shitty U.S. oversight board for the national budget (La Junta) as well as convincing Monsanto to buy up private farmland in the wake of Hurricane Maria ie they helped sell Puerto Rico by piecemeal to the U.S. in the name of "helping Puerto Ricans"

It really pisses me off watching white liberals talk about Puerto Rico as "Lost potential democrat votes" and not thinking about the people who fuckin live there. Puerto Rico doesn't need fucking statehood! It needs liberation! Go to hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Hey so you guys know "alternative" is literally a marketing demographic developed for commercial radio, right? So many people use that phrase as though it's a real thing with any kind of actual cultural legacy that I want to be sure you all know it's meaningless. It has no ethos or human history. It's a marketing demographic reforged into an identity to be sold to you so you can buy some semblance of gratification through consumption. It's a word that sounds edgy to make people feel punk-rock-adjacent without needing to actually be involved in any kind of subversion at all. You are being sold the fantasy of rebellion as a discrete packaged unit, and it's only "alternative" in the way a waitress asks "is Pepsi okay?" You really should develop an identity based on what you do instead of what you consume.

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someone working on this comic is really good at tarot. i normally read the 5 of swords as a repetition, being caught in a toxic cycle because of your beliefs. but traditionally this guy is only holding 3 swords.

the fact that it's 4 changes the meaning of the card.

all the cards are connected and tell a story. simplifying it way down, the 3 of swords is about betrayal, the 4 of swords is about isolation, and the 5 of swords is like getting your lick back after the betrayal. but it never goes how you expect it to. because the two swords left behind are your intuition and good sense. and then you start the cycle over until you learn the lesson.

the guy on the card holding 4 swords emphasizes the self-betrayal that's happening. because the 4 of swords is about being alone. the one sword on the ground is a new idea or way of doing things, but he'd rather be alone. anyway (from speed force 2023 #5)

#interesting! #dc comics #nimue inwudu

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When public services are affordable and convenient, people will always choose those resources. They are not supposed to be a capitalistic profit-seeking initiative, they are developed for the benefit of the people, for a better life, just as government resources should be used. (tweet)

#public transit

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there's an app called "No Thanks" that scans barcodes and tells you whether a company supports israel or not if anyone is interested! it should be available on most app stores!

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sometimes my friends send me good reels

(op)

#work work

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Dealing With Executive Dysfunction - A Masterpost

The “getting it done in an unconventional way” method.

The “it’s not cheating to do it the easy way” method.

The “fuck what you’re supposed to do” method.

The “get stuff done while you wait” method.

The “you don’t have to do everything at once” method.

The “it doesn’t have to be permanent to be helpful” method.

The “break the task into smaller steps” method.

The “treat yourself like a pet” method.

The “it doesn’t have to be all or nothing” method.

The “put on a persona” method.

The “act like you’re filming a tutorial” method.

The “you don’t have to do it perfectly” method.

The “wait for a trigger” method.

The “do it for your future self” method.

The “might as well” method.

The “when self discipline doesn’t cut it” method.

The “taking care of yourself to take care of your pet” method.

The “make it easy” method.

The “junebugging” method.

The “just show up” method.

The “accept when you need help” method.

The “make it into a game” method.

The “everything worth doing is worth doing poorly” method.

The “trick yourself” method.

The “break it into even smaller steps” method.

The “let go of should” method.

The “your body is an animal you have to take care of” method.

The “fork theory” method.

The “effectivity over aesthetics” method.

#adhd #autism

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anti-doxing resources for activists

via Twitter (please rt if you are active there!)

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Haruhi fujioka really is the character ever. Going by any pronouns in 2006. Big beautiful brown eyes like a baby cow. Constant deadpan delivery. Getting bitches constantly. Reacts to romantic advances with a thousand-yard goldfish stare. Perfect flawless protagonist 10/10

#oran koko hosuto kurabu #oran high school host club #haruhi fujioka #anime

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I finally get to post this because they got it! This was a gift for a friend who likes Columbo.

Shoutout and thanks to @kidkinobi on Pixilart for the picture of Columbo I transcribed square by square into a cross stitch pattern by eyeballing the colors. They had no socials I could tag.

#ooooooo #columbo

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i watched one (1) video on how to draw hands that changed my life forever. like. i can suddenly draw hands again

these were all drawn without reference btw. i can just. Understand Hands now (for the most part, im sure theres definitely inaccuracies). im a little baffled

#art ref

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ate

#the thing is. she IS right #miss allison is the madonna of our time #even the people who don't like her (me included) still listen to every release #because you HAVE to have an opinion #otherwise YOU'RE the weirdo #fuckin' hell #music #courtney love #taylor swift

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Speaking of therapy, I say, as though we're old friends, and you're not a stranger trapped in this metaphorical elevator with me and you can hear the suspension wires starting to fray.

I've been doing a lot of work recently that's focused on imposter syndrome and the feeling that no matter how well or how much I do, I'm not good enough. That I'm somehow tricking everyone into thinking my work is actually good.

Some days it's a minor niggle in my head that I can gentle and soothe with logic and affirmations. Or smother, depending on the mood. Other times it's loud and all-consuming and the mental anguish it causes me is so real I can feel it twitching in my muscles. This desperate fight-or-flight instinct with nowhere to go and nothing to fight but myself.

Anyway, because I'm several types of Mentally Unwell™, I was switching between workshop sheets ahead of next week. Filling in different forms. (Trying to get a good grade in therapy) And I got my "recognize your harmful ADHD coping mechanisms" worksheet mixed in with the "you're not actually lying to people, you just feel like you are because your brain is full of weasels" worksheet, and seeing them side by side made something go topsy turvy in my head, and I just had to sit and breathe for a couple of minutes until the urge to scream passed. Because it clicked, it all suddenly clicked.

The reason the imposter syndrome workshops and therapy sessions aren't sticking was because I do routinely trick people into thinking I'm someone I'm not.

Because I'm masking my ADHD for their convenience.

I've always known there was something wrong with me. My neurotypical peers made it abundantly clear I didn't fit in or was failing in some way I couldn't see nor remedy, no matter how hard I tried.

So I compressed myself into a workaholic box of hyper-competence in the hopes they'd stop noticing the flaws and exploit like me instead. And then subsequently lived with the daily fear that if they looked too close, they'd realize I'm a monumental fuck up with enough personal baggage to block the Suez Canal.

If you ever need someone to burn themselves to ashes for your comfort and convenience, I'm your gal.

Or I used to. Until I had a bit of a breakdown, and the rubber band holding my brain together snapped and pinged off into the stratosphere, never to be seen again.

Unfortunately, the trauma of living like that didn't also fuck off and instead left a gaping maw where my personality ought to be, so now I get to deal with that aftermath.

And it's that aftermath that's affecting the imposter syndrome shit. Because yes, I am hyper-competent and good at what I do-- but it doesn't feel real because that is how I mask.

And the truly frustrating thing is I am good at what I do. I am not pretending. I worked hard to be good at this. It just feels like I'm dicking around because 90% of my personality turns out to be trauma masquerading as humor in a trenchcoat, and having people genuinely like something weird I'm doing is so foreign my brain has decided it's just another form of masking.

I'm pretending to be a good author so people will think I'm a good author, and my brain thinks we are in Danger of being found out. We are in Danger, and writing is Dangerous because then people will know I'm Weird and not whatever palatable version I've presented myself as for their NT sensibilities.

Like the neurotic vampire with a raging praise kink wasn't an obvious giveaway.

Anyway. I got nothing else. Thanks for listening.

I'm going to go be very normal in another room and not stare into the abyss of my own soul for a bit.

#well shit #adhd

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#thank gnome it's friday

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#happy friday tumblr