randomkidsure

[randomkidsure]

The deference in my tumblr lay out vs my twitter layout is really something

[randomkidsure]

tw // ed, ana

does anyone ever feel like theyre faking having an eating disorder cuz im overweight and eat normal most of the time but i just relapse in short bursts

[randomkidsure]

Thinspo I really like

[randomkidsure]

The concept of somebody not hating themselves is just so confusing to me

[randomkidsure]

I've been talking to some of my online friends about meeting up, and now we're sorting out like actual plans and that fucking terrifies me, some of them know about my Ed and I don't want them to think I'm faking or some shit

[randomkidsure]

I feel like I'm faking this disorder, I don't know why just imposter syndrome. Ana has taken everything from me but I feel like everybody else has it worse

#ftm ed #ed ftm #ftm ana

[randomkidsure]

I either can’t remember what happened an hour ago or I’m reliving the horrors from five years ago and there’s no in between.

[randomkidsure]

It's so weird to me that some people actually like how they look

[randomkidsure]

I feel bad lying to my friends about recovery, like there like "take care of yourself, you can do it" but I have no intention of actually making any effort on myself at all

[randomkidsure]

Me: I think I'm restrictong so well I bet I've lost weight

My scale: haha you wish

Literally I've gained a kg tf

#ftm ed #ftm ana #skinnnny #not pr0 anything #trans ana #getting skiny #anorexik #ed ftm #an0r3xia #male ana

[randomkidsure]

Ultimate Binge Prevention

10. Drink a glass of water : binging will make you gain weight

9. Grab a piece of gum : binging will make your body and face bloat

8. Get out of the kitchen : it will take you double the amount of time to get to your goal weight

7. Drink more water : your clothes will become tighter

6. Go for a walk : you will regret binging in the morning

5. Watch a TV show : wearing a bathing suit will be so much harder

4. Draw yourself at your goal weight : you will feel greasy

3. Do a YouTube workout : binging ruins your teeth and skin

2. Write down the reasons you want to lose weight : you will feel guilty

1. Drink a hot tea : control yourself for future you

[randomkidsure]

🌸fast food ana-tips🌸

disclaimer: not pro anything but I support those struggling with eds

✨We all know that eating at a fast food restaurant with an ed can be a nightmare so I’ve compiled some tips and lower calorie options to help you guys. keep in mind I live in Australia so I found all the info for US restaurants online✨

General tips

Get your food in a take-away bag, and don’t take it all out of the bag. if you lay your meal out it might draw attention to the fact that you’re not eating as much as your friends or family. If you just reach into the bag, the people your with will see your bag of food and you eating and will not suspect anything.

Opt for 0 cal drinks. Most cups in fast food restaurants aren’t see-through so no-one will be able to tell the difference between a coke and a coke zero or a water and a sprite. they’ll just see you drinking a soft drink and ‘someone with an eating disorder wouldn’t drink a soft drink’

google the menu and calories before you leave. This way you will be able to plan better and not accidentally go over your calorie limit

Plan around it. If you know that you’re going to a fast food restaurant save up your calories and get a burger. If people see you eat a burger they won’t suspect anything, after all, ‘an anorexic girl wouldn’t eat a burger’

Ask for your burger without cheese. A piece of cheese from most fast food restaurants is around 60cal and getting rid of it lowers the calories a bit. And it’s so easy to make excuses about it too, ‘the cheese here tastes weird, it makes me feel sick ect. 

When choosing meat go with chicken, that will bring down the calories in whatever your getting

Get an ice-cream. If you don’t want anyone to suspect anything get an ice-cream cone. most soft serve cones are about 200 cal (less than a burger or nuggets) and no one will suspect anything because ‘someone with an anorexia wouldn’t eat ice-cream’

McDonalds

under 200

4 piece McNuggets – 190 calories | Premium Caesar Salad with Grilled Chicken – 190 calories | Fruit ‘n Yogurt Parfait – 150 calories | One 2 oz Hashbrown – 150 calories | Premium Bacon Ranch Salad w/o Chicken – 140 calories | Premium Southwestern Salad w/o Chicken – 140 calories | Kids Fries – 100 calories | Premium Caesar Salad w/o Chicken – 90 calories | Side Salad – 20 calories | Apple Slices – 15 calories

Taco Bell

Drinks

16oz brisk iced tea and lemonade - 80 cals | all diet drink and sobe lifewater - 0 cals | brisk drinks are safe | All other 16oz drinks are about 200-220 cals

Burritos/bowls

Chilli Cheese Burrito - 370 | Bean Burrito - 370 | Catina bowl veggie - 510 cals | the average on the Catina options is 600-700 cals

Fresco

Fresco chicken soft taco - 140 cals | Fresco crunchy taco - 150 cals | Fresco grilled steak soft taco - 150 cals | Fresco soft taco - 160 cals

Cheesy nachos - 280 cals

DONT get a salad they’re around 600-800 cals

Tacos

Fresco chicken soft taco - 140 cals | Fresco crunchy taco - 150 cals | Chicken soft taco - 160 cals | Cool ranch doritos loco taco - 160 cals | Crunchy taco - 170 cals | Fiery doritos loco taco - 170 cals | Nacho cheese doritos loco taco - 170 cals | Soft taco beef - 190 cals

Burger King

4 chicken nuggets – 190 | Strawberry Sundae – 190 | Sweet Potato Curly fries small- 170 | Kids Oatmeal – 170 | Soft Serve cone – 160 | Soft serve cup – 140 | Original Quaker Oatmeal – 140 | Onion Rings Value – 150 | Apple slices – 30

 Wendy’s

Apple Pecan Chicken Salad half size – 170 | 4 chicken nuggets – 160 | Strawberry Yogurt – 160 | Caesars Salad Side – 90 | Garden Side Salad – 25]

💕feel free to add your own tips!💕

[randomkidsure]

All my joy has been drained from my recently, like I don't enjoy anything I used to. Whenever I play sports all I can think about is how bad I am, I haven't finished a drawing in months, I have really interesting papers I don't think I'll ever turn in. I can't even play stardew valley, it's just I don't want to live in this bleak work anymore everything is so boring

[randomkidsure]

I just had netball traials and I want to cry, I've been playing netball for 5 years now and I did shit today, it was like all my life revolved around for awhile and now I will probably have to play in a shit team in a shitty grade

[randomkidsure]

One of my goals is to fit nicely into men's jeans, like there all low rise so I need a flat stomach and my thighs have to be thin to fit into them

[randomkidsure]

At this point it's like my mother and even some of my friends are encouraging me to get worse, they make half my safe food some of my worst fear foods

#ftm ed #ftm ana #ed ftm #skinnnny #not pr0 anything #trans ana #getting skiny #anorexik #an0r3xia #male ana

[randomkidsure]

I'm so glad the birthdays in my house are spaced out, like we had one last night and the next one isn't until May and after that it's not till October