riverathefirst

[riverathefirst]

love is the sick puppy i fostered for a day and not a minute more because she didn’t survive the disease. love is knowing that her last day on earth was full of warmth, cuddles, milk, and a comfy bed. love is believing that fate wanted her to appear on the road to which i walk home everyday. love is believing that the universe puts opportunities in front of you to be kind. love is believing there’s always someone who appreciates your kindness. love is recognising love. love is love.

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[riverathefirst]

na wahaan kuchh mila na yahaan.

par akhir pata toh chala pyaar karna kya hota hai

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[riverathefirst]

when my mother says she wants to run away

my father looks at me with a dejected face

says he’s too tired now,

i imagine an empty house.

when they make good on their promise

i sleep still, very still

weeping in my bed as they leave.

what made them forget their child?

the reason for this empty house,

me.

[riverathefirst]

from “how did you first meet” to “who will leave first?”, i find myself a knot about to unravel with the force of my parents’ pull

[riverathefirst]

my brother in fanfiction, you chose to open the bag why are you surprised the dove is dead? 

[riverathefirst]

JULY 24,2022

hindi text translation: “one day we will get divorced because of you”

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[riverathefirst]

from “how did you first meet” to “who will leave first?”, i find myself a knot about to unravel with the force of my parents’ pull

[riverathefirst]

when my mother says she wants to run away

my father looks at me with a dejected face

says he’s too tired now,

i imagine an empty house.

when they make good on their promise

i sleep still, very still

weeping in my bed as they leave.

what made them forget their child?

the reason for this empty house,

me.

[riverathefirst]

The year is 2184, average earth temperature has doubled, only a few million people remain on earth. A green-movement managed to travel back to 2022. What are they doing?

assassinating jeff bezos

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[riverathefirst]

what if love experienced is nothing like love imagined?

[riverathefirst]

sometimes i feel so hopeless; like there’s not enough regret in the world to make me change my ways.

[riverathefirst]

returning somewhere you made all of your happiest memories and seeing it changed and run over with people feels like someone broke a lock, kicked down the door and made themselves an unwelcome guest in your heart.

[riverathefirst]

“what’s it like seeing your home trampled by people who hurt you.”

i felt like a nation invaded.

[riverathefirst]

“why do you write down everything that happens in your life ever?” cause i’m gonna make an oscar-winning movie about it sit the fuck down.

[riverathefirst]

the carrot and the beetroot were never the same

the carrot aflame, the beet marooned

sweet and crisp, while the other bleeds rouge

acrid though it’s taste and beautiful the hue

i should still shun it and the carrot i’ll choose.

[riverathefirst]

how do u mourn for people long lost? i think i forgot.

[riverathefirst]

no bc i just read the most thigh-pressing, lip biting, hair-pulling, gasping-for-air benedict cumberbatch smut that was 25 CHAPTERS LONG???? AND ITS STILL ONGOING???? WHAT A TIME TO BE ALIVE.