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#that's riht

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My favorite type of scam is where someone makes an account impersonating a famous person on social media, and then just goes into DMs and asks for money while also saying a "catchphrase" in a weird attempt to make themselves look legit

#how many of these were rihanna b4 she came back #tea and biscuits ✌️🇬🇧

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Linda Ganus - La Vie En Rose, 2022

#yes absolutely lets go #ABOUT

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Congrats to the Aerin stans!!!

#they all look so hot.......... shouldi replay book 1................ #its 4 aerin tho only fr lbr. #am i willing 2 dedicate the time #blades #blades 2 #just wanna freak out w yall again

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#LETS FUCKING G(R)OOO(W)!! #reminder

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Have you ever wondered whatever came of Most Wanted 2? Are you a fan of Queen B or Blades of Light and Shadow? Been wanting to ask our writers any lingering, burning Choices questions? You’re in luck! Chelsa and Andrew, the writers of Queen B and Blades of Light and Shadow (and more!), will be taking YOUR questions and answering as many as they can on StoryLoom! If you’ve got lore questions, this is your moment to shine.

To participate, go to Choices Secrets Revealed (link below) > Create an account > Click Ch. 1 > Post your questions in the comment section for Chelsa and Andrew to respond! More details to come 👀

Choices Secrets Revealed: https://storyloom.com/stories/1b1a7ec0-9341-45b4-9c51-716894c3ba03

#the way this is their first tumblr post in 8 years is so funny #they really said can yall shut up now 😪 #also what is exactly is storyloom do u gotta pay to play idgi #like u have assets so its customisable but is there a storyline already written?? someone pls explain #but fr the fact that tumblr was the only platform that held pb accountable for their shit while simultaneously probably the most passionate #like we've been doing edits/asset mining/writing like this since the beginning just out of pure love for these stories/pb's work #then they go and make a whole new app cashing in on these exact ideas after treating us like dirt for like 6 years then abandoning us lmaoo #very companycore of them #lbr i really couldnt care less anymore lmao but it does leave a bitter taste in the way they treat their fans

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Christian Jodin - Hot Heart, 2021

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I think it's an unrecognized practice to allow yourself to outgrow and shed versions of yourself that were more socially successful than who you want or need to be now. Not every new chapter is bigger and bolder and hotter, I think that's a very modern social media "glow up" mindset and doesn't actually have any room for what real transformation looks like. Sometimes we change exactly as we need to and it's not what anyone else was hoping for and that's part of it being important and true.

#what the fuck this was made for me..... #this shit about needing to be prodigies #and yeah people talk about the inevitable burnout #but like... no one talks about the aftermath of feeling like ur not enough when u cant go back to that level of 'success' #even though u know it wasn't mentally or physically sustainable #so u kind of just sit there now in the middle of healing like... what am I building towards. am i healing so I can get back to that stage?? #is that the future im supposed to want? #bc that's what society defines as success??? #also that level of success still feels like it means nothing bc of imposter syndrome #yeah anyway its the childhood trauma speaking it always is #sigh #reminder

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i love you purple i love you lavender i love you lilac i love you wisteria i love you violet i love you mauve i love you periwinkle i love you amethyst i love you

#ITS TRUE ITS TRUE ITS MY FAVOURTE FUCKING COL OUR!!!!!!! #literal dopamine hit when i see violet/amethyst #something about it somehow solidifies the fact that im alive #its so beautiful its like realising the presence of life/nature #and it has to be that specific middle to blue shade too otherwise its an eyesore if it veers too red someone explain why #about

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when you go from a bad situation into a better one you may collapse exhausted and unsure what to do and full of grief, you may need time to regain the ability to do things as yourself or motivated by anything other than terror, you may need time to process or mourn or fall apart in ways you could not before,

and people may use this as proof that the old situation was better for you, proof that you need to go back, and it is not proof that it was better for you or proof that you need to go back

#reminder #tw: abuse #tw: trauma #omfuckinggod #no wonder why last year was so fucking tumultuous emotionally and physically despite being physically safe in a new home #like on a cellular level i was on constant flight/flight/freeze but i didnt think much of it being my default mode anyway #but for whatever reason it was just EXCEPTIONALLY heightened past the point of usual numbness #and physically existing in my body was literally torture #now it makes sense its just my body processing all the trauma it was never able to in the old environments #and i was even harder on myself bc this is i was like this is the reason youve been holding on for for years!! this new environment!! #why cant u enjoy it?? why do u still feel like ur world is completely fucking ending !!!! why are you physically triggered by absolutely fu #SIDENOTE noisy ass fuck of upstairs neighbor is def going to hell. IM MAKING SURE OF IT EVERY FUCKING CIRCLE #who the FUCK thinks its ok to throw dumbbells n shit on the floor 11pm-6am every day. DIE. its literally NEVER silent even during the day #getting triggered now is like u dont wanna die anymore but the pain in ur body makes u want to die. god. snyway. #things are getting better for sure but bruh feeling safe? allowing urself to even BEGIN to physically or mentally relax is just as hard #recovery is even harder bc ur forced to really come face to face to what u went through and process it #and that means reliving the trauma over and over and over again #moments of safety and vulnerability are so unfamiliar that your mind and body write it off as unsafe bc ur so used to abuse #they think anything other than hyper vigilance is 'bad' #so breaking out of those toxic thought patterns and/or really putting yourself out there is twice as hard for fear of rejection #bc you actually have the traumatic experience/evidence to back up those fears #anyway i wish someone had told my that recovery can be just as traumatic and that what im going through is completely normal earlier #so i could go easier on myself #been set in survival mode since i was 6 years old #anyway im immensely proud of myself i love you girl #we're going to be okay #anyway thank u for this post #UPDATE: the night of reblogging this post allowed myself vulnerability for 1 hour then proceeded to have a 4.5 hour long panic attack #and everything feels terrible waking up today i want it all to end bye

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https://www.instagram.com/p/CwnS-euNhNK/

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https://www.instagram.com/p/CeY8Q9YBwio/

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Self improvement is great but ultimately? you have to accept your self. Yes you can eat better, exercise more, read more, set boundaries, love your self, but it all comes down to this. Some days you won’t have the energy to do any of these things. And you’ll look in the mirror and think that this is not enough. That’s a lie. The biggest love for self is to live slowly. To rest. To really rest. Have a nap. Eat what makes you feel good. Read if you want to. Embrace yourself and accept that you cannot and will not be ever be perfect. Accept that you are good enough. You don’t need to keep busy all the time. you don’t need to go out all the time and post on instagram. You don’t need to journal if you don’t want to. You don’t need to make art if you don’t want to. Breathe, give yourself grace and compassion. Give yourself the love and tenderness you so badly need. Be gentle with yourself. You are trying and it is good enough. You are good enough.

#reminder

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my fav recent books were Crimes of Passion, Wake the Dead, Murder at Homecoming, Laws of Attraction, and Guinevere! There are honestly plenty of other pretty chill books that came out over the past few years or so, but these would be the 5 I'd start with

thanks sm for the recs!!!

ive read all of them except for guinevere, super loved wake the dead even if the cast was a little boring yikes but the storyline totally made up for it.

loved the beginning of crimes of passion and def appreciated the writers talents but i did feel it fell into a lull somewhere in the middle maybe bc i just dont feel anything for tristan?? im so tired of surface level snarky overconfident characters tbh its kind of exhausting to read now lmao.

like ok them and the mc dont like each other from the get go but like write some unique dialogue or dynamic or sth.. like when enemies 2 lovers are written really well u really be sitting there like,,, . i need a minute.....

i remember it picked up somewhere near the end though, super cool fight/ending scene in the greenhouse glass window area or wherever it was lol

was hooked to murder at homecoming for a few chapters but i put it down and now i can't pick it back up bc i don't feel too much for the cast either, love the premise but i cant trudge through more filler

love laws of attraction!!! on ch 9 of book 2 now but its hard to pick up again after leaving it for too long lol. def went through a phase where i was either waiting for the next chapter/binging chapters in one go, has open heart energy w the 1 case a chapter thing but also an overarching story that keeps u hooked, plus love the mc

idk a good book to me is a unique premise but also interesting characters that u care about u know?? re it lives in the woods, endless summer.. they dont make em like that anymore 🤧 love hacks also didnt have much of a plot but i was ride or die for those guys 😭

opened the app again for blades and just saw the most heinous book covers how did we fall this far u guys

are there any books that u guys feel balance a good cast (friends, lis) and good plot?

#playchoices #ask

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book 2 of blades starts off with a recap of events of book 1

i know but i dont remember anything at all lmaooo, wondering if someones made a short summary or run through that covers all the basics!

#its been three years i dont remember a thing 😂 #playchoices #blades of light and shadow #blades #ask #all i remember is sitting at the aerin table w like 2 other people #that one line threep said about snacks tho was like unlocking a core memory like that cat was IT

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wait can anyone provide a summary of what happens in blades 1?

#blades of light and shadow #playchoices #choices stories you play #pixelberry #choices game #im tryna play but i dont have the energy to redo book 1

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#ABOUT #omg