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Obligatory "I'm not dead" I have been thinking about my page here and how it is basically a journal not really meant for other people to read but it turns out I was very depressed and did not know it was even as bad as it was. I thought it was normal to think about suicide daily. I'm sure I'm repeating myself here. My old job as a custodian is over. And my boss was very emotionally abusive. So I think that's why I was so mean and bitter here before. Taking it out on the non existent audience.

I want to be more genuine on here now.

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Yo, pass the aux.

You better not play trash.

*me. A man of class*

#Youtube

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All these memes about future history teachers having a hard time explaining 2020. Guys, no one is going to care about this year. 2013 was a “bad” year to. And no one cares about it. Same with 2016. Y’all are some self absorbed mother fuckers.

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I feel like my long turn memory is fading. I’m in my 20’s and I don’t remember any of my elementary school teachers names. Every one I have talked to remembers there teachers names. It scares me

#memory

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I don’t like working with females.

Not cus of why you think. As a boy any girl you work with can say a couple of words and wreck my career and even any chance of having a job.

So I I say anything they don’t like or make them upset in anyway they could have the motivation to fuck up my life.

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I can’t have caffeine. I get so dependent on it so fast it burns me out in like one month. I don’t know how people drink it all the time.

I feel like I can do anything and I fell so fast I do so good in any game I’m playing. Then I try to recreate that feeling the next day and it kinda works. But then it gets so bad I’m not even myself with out a butt ton of caffeine. And I’m so tired and groggy all the time.

I’ll probably be having it maybe once a month. As a treat.

#caffein

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I have a hard time watching live action shows. A lot of them are very poorly written and or extremely cringy and my second hand embarrassment is to much and I have to stop watching.

I also have a hard time sitting still for so long. I’m very fidgety. I really like fidget spinners but the meme kinda made them unusable in public. So I have my desk toys.

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I told my coworkers I have posted on tumblr about them. Only cus I don’t think they would ever take the effort to actually find me. Or that they would think this blog is me. Cus I don’t talk about what I’m interested in much.

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We were painting a room and I dripped alittle bit. I then ultra instinct caught the drop with my nice work shoes.

#ultra instinct

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My coworkers saw the bird too. They thought it was dead. They said it’s probably a good thing cus it may have been the equivalent of bird hitler.

I saw a baby burb at work today. It was on the ground looking miserable. Hoping it’s gone when I go in tomorrow. Either mama burb come and helps or gets eaten by a coyote. I just don’t want to shovel up dead baby burb.

#burd hitler

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When I was a kid I use to daydream about the sobe lizard as a anthro girl in a nurse out fit and she would come and steal me away.

This also extended to “ the spider queen” as I have always thought of her. Coming and taking me away cus I was special or something.

I don’t know if it’s true for all furries but I was born in to it or something exposed me too young to remember.

#furries

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Did anyone else ever hear about bloody mary and then do it with there friends but nothing happened but you still feel scared to look at merriers in the dark 10+ years later cus maybe that bitch is playing the long game and I’m not taking any fucking chance with that spooky shit.

#bloody mary

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Sensitive teeth + cold water = pain

Sensitive teeth + cold water + retainers = strongth

#teeth #night water

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I was telling my wife about why I don’t like doing bishop interviews ( basically my religious confessionals ) and she said it sounds like I was getting mild panic attacks in the interviews. Yay

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I tend to complain when I open my mouth. It’s not cus I’m negative. It’s cus if it’s all running smoothly then there’s nothing to be said.

#personal

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If a tv or radio is on I am like forced to listen to it. I can’t not pay attention to it. And I’ll comment on what is being said in the ad or something and no one else gets that I’m talking about the blasted thing that they turned on.

#cant passively listen to anything #brain wont stop

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Really like a lot of stuff but I can’t talk about any of it because all the other people who are obsessed with it are really cringy or have such a bad public perception. Like let’s start with a softer one. Gaming, can’t talk about it at work. Every one is a old fuck and thinks it’s a waste of time. The younger kids don’t talk about games with me cus I’m apart of the “adult” group. This is what I would like to talk about the most it’s hard to talk about it with people who don’t care and I can’t get them to tell me about their interest soooo no conversation happens there. Also I don’t want to be labeled as a “gamer” cus that’s fucking horrible. And the older generations say it thinking it’s a cool hip thing.

Furries, they are seen as sexual deviants cus that’s all the news says about them and that’s the loudest part of the community so it’s easy to say that’s how they all are. There’s freaks in every fandom, club, or audience. Like sports fans going nuts over games. People have been FUCKING BEHEADED cus they were not happy their team lost or some other shitty excuse. BuT tHaTs FiNe CuS sPoRtS. Also furries can be awkward and cringy as all fuck. I just like bears. And I really like art. Pretty art is so so nice on the eyes. Furries draw a lot! So that’s how I got there.

Fucking Homestuck. A lot of people have had bad experiences with them. And hate them. So why put myself in with a hated group. The fans are bad. I don’t like how they act. But I do like the story. And gosh try explaining it. It’s not possible.

Miku, no one knows her. That is, people who are not online. And that’s who I interact with.

NO ONE READS! I WORK AT A SCHOOL! AND NO ONE READS! Sure teachers read the shity books that they force the kids to read. But no one reads for enjoyment. I could talk about books forever. I’m not going to talk about crap like Harry Potter or Fablehaven. Teen books kill my soul. Such cheap stories. I love Wheel of Time and Stormlight Archive. Sci-fi is awesome too. That’s actually how I met my wife. In a sci-fi/fantasy class. Love her.

I don’t watch a lot of tv/movies. No one understands it. Cus they’re so into it they can’t see how lazy it is but our civilization says it’s ok. So it’s ok. Right. I’m not saying it’s not. I just. Can’t. It’s hard for me to sit through a show. I watch some anime but very few.

I think I’m also just an opinionated prick. I do expect others to just agree with me. Cus I’m the main character of course. But everyone is their main character. If I offended you in this I don’t really give a damn. Tell me why though cus I’m not afraid of my views being tested.

#gaming #furry #homestuck #books #unpopular opinion #rant #reading #hatsune miku #generation gap