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Harry Potter - Halloween 1981 (No Traitors)

You know what, I cannot stop thinking about it, so I will make everyone who reads this think about it as well.

What if Peter Pettigrew was not the spy? What if it was someone else / there was no spy at all? Sirius' plan goes the same way - Peter is the real Secret Keeper and Sirius is the decoy. BUT Sirius also 'disappears' to keep James and Lily's location safe. Peter is hiding in plain sight because he isn't the Secret Keeper right? Like he has no justification to provide to the OotP so he does whatever is the needful for the Order.

Obviously Voldemort knows that if James were to choose a Secret Keeper, it would be Sirius. But he can't find Sirius either. So what does he do? He takes Peter. Logically speaking, if anyone were to know where Sirius is, in case of emergencies, it is Peter. So he has Peter kidnapped, and tries to get him to reveal Sirius' location so he can get to the Potters. Peter either reveals the location under torture and is then killed / he is simply killed for refusing to reveal the info, automatically breaking the Fidelus Charm keeping the Potters' safe.

In the second situation, Voldy would find that thinking of their location ain't so fuzzy anymore and he would be able to get people to find them.

In both situations, the rest of the story goes as per canon - Jily die, spell rebounds on Voldy, who also dies. Everyone still thinks Sirius is the Secret Keeper but he isn't. He thinks Peter betrayed them but is unable to find him - so no street explodes, killing twelve people. He, is however, still arrested on account of being a Death Eater, betraying James and Lily, possibly assisting the murder of Peter Pettigrew. (I believe Peter's body will eventually be found - or he would simply be assumed dead)

Peter's dead. James and Lily are dead. There is no one alive who can corroborate Sirius' story.

Considering Wormtail would never be seen with the Weasleys, it is easy to say that Sirius would never even consider escaping. Remus would stay wherever he was, and never actually come to Hogwarts to teach, because we all know he was only offered the job because of Sirius' escape. Nevermind that he was actually a great teacher.

I don't think Sirius can ever be proved innocent, unless some Death Eater or Voldemort mentions that he never joined. Which I highly doubt they'd do or even bring up.

A possible variation on the tale we all know, but with no traitors. And it still ends up in tragedy.

To be frank, I do think this is what would have happened. Since Peter is not in hiding, it is easy to get to him. If they have to put him in hiding, they have to justify that to Dumbledore, and they were planning on keeping it a secret from everyone - the perfect set up.

I mean, I haven't read the books in a while so there may be some details that could cause the story to end up differently but idk.

#harry potter #halloween 1981 #peter pettigrew #sirius black #james potter #lily evans #voldemort #albus dumbledore #wormtail #padfoot #prongs #moony #remus lupin

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It has occurred to me that Love Story by Taylor Swift really does fit the Prongsfoot vibe.

Doomed love story, that seems to have a happy ending, but we all know is a tragedy. But also, let's be real, Prongsfoot is leagues above Romeo and Juliet.

Anyway, back to the topic.

Young lovers, meeting, despite disapproval from one or more sets of parents, falling in love, being utterly obsessed with each other, etc. It is 100% Prongsfoot. James and Sirius couldn't be apart for one hour in detention so they made magical mirrors. Sirius runs away to James' house, over everyone else's. Sirius "It’s been fourteen years. And still a day doesn't go by I don’t miss your dad" Black. Like, I can imagine Sirius taking poison once he finds out James is dead, if he didn't already know James was murdered and goes out to avenge him instead.

And of course, the classic Romeo and Juliet ending - they both end up dead.

#prongsfoot #prongs #padfoot #james potter #sirius black #taylor swift #love story #taylor swift love story

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Sometimes Jily in Halloween 1981 hits really hard. They were only 21.

LIKE??? I AM TWENTY ONE. These things got married and had a kid by this time and also died for said kid. Like can you imagine how scared they were?

When I first read the books, I was much younger and 21 seemed like a reasonable grown up age. It is not. You are very much barely an adult at 21.

AND LET'S NOT FORGET THEM BEING MURDERED IN THEIR OWN HOME - A PLACE OF SAFETY AND SHELTER AND THEY LOST EVERYTHING THERE

I don't want to think about a 19-year old Lily discovering she's pregnant - like Harry was 1 when they died. Means it had been more than a year since he was born and considering we know his birthday and Jily's birthdays too, it is safe to say Lily was 19 (almost 20) when she found out she was pregnant. A teenager.

I don't want to think about them being terrified upon discovering it because who wants to bring a baby to the world in times of war?

James and Lily were raising a baby when being kids themselves.

The movies did us a disservice by casting them older. Young Jily just hits so hard.

#james potter #lily evans #jily #halloween 1981 #rip james potter #rip lily evans #james potter deserved better #lily evans deserved better #october is jily month #jily deserved to live their lives #not die as kids

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The Marauders were 100% geeks. Every fic I have seen makes them these cool people who everyone likes/is friends with. I agree they were probably friends with everyone but cool? I don't think so.

Sirius, probably, could be classified as cool. But only if it was him alone. Sirius, with his three best friends? Geek.

James, Sirius and Peter probably become the youngest ever animagi - and that shit isn't easy. They then go on to plot an unplottable area for fun. Sign it with NICKNAMES. Like these kids would have done a lot of research to do this. Heck, forget geeks. If they'd been left alone, they would have probably gone along the side of scientists.

I said scientists, and not mad scientists, because, in my honest opinion, all scientists are mad.

BUT ALSO IMAGINE THE AMOUNT OF RESEARCH THEY HAD TO DO - THEY HAD TO HAVE LIKE CHAOTIC NOTES OF EVERYTHING AND THEN HAD TO ORGANIZE IT TO MAKE SENSE OF THE INFO AND THEN EVENTUALLY FIGURED OUT STUFF. IN THIS ESSAY I WILL -

#james potter #sirius black #remus lupin #peter pettigrew #marauders #animagi #marauder's map #marauders map #is marauders map even a thing? #i thought it was marauder's map #as in a marauder's map #but anyway #moony #wormtail #padfoot #and prongs #moony wormtail padfoot and prongs

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Hello fellow Coco fans!

I had a question. Multiple actually but this one has been sitting in my head for a long time.

If Hector had actually been forgotten - if Miguel had been a little too late, and Coco had forgotten, only to start remembering after through their song, would Hector still remain at the Land of the Dead? For there would have existed a time when no one in the Land of the Living remembered his existence, which is enough to disappear from the Land of the Dead. But, if he was remembered after, would he come back? Would that be possible?

#pixar coco #coco #hector rivera #coco rivera #miguel rivera #land of the dead #land of the living #hector is forgotten #but remembered again #hector rivera deserved better #coco rivera deserved better

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Anime Recommendations Please?

Hello everyone! I have recently ventured into the world of anime (and by that I mean I have watched a grand total of 1). So if any of you have any good recommendations, please let me know?

Thanks in advance!

In hindsight I have phrased this as if I am writing an email. I duly apologize for the inconvenience caused.

#anime #recommendations #anime recommendations

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When I was a kid, I once tried to fake injuring my ankle because I didn’t feel like exercising in school that day. I normally had no problem with it so my teachers instantly believed me and were very concerned. Except, this was the first hour of the day, and they were worried about me having to “suffer” the entire day in that stupid ankle. They asked me to take off my shoes and socks so they could apply some spray and what not. 

I WAS MENTALLY FREAKING OUT. I didn’t expect that much concern. I was so sure they’d figure out there was no injury because I didn’t injure myself. In my panic I forgot that I told them that my right ankle hurt and instead pointed at my left one for the spray. 

And, well.

My ankle was actually swollen. Pretty badly. My shoes had actually been a size too small, so I did always have some feet pain, but this time they ended up acting as a brace for my ankle for the entire time I’d been there. Apparently when I was playing badminton the previous evening, I’d moved my foot the wrong way. I remember hearing a pop, I remember ignoring it, I remember not feeling any pain until then. The teachers didn’t notice me freaking out and they were all wondering why I even came to school, though I insisted on staying for the rest of the day. Not that there was anyone at home to take me back at that moment, and both my parents’ workplaces was also pretty far away. My class teacher, who apparently lived very close to my house, ended up taking me home with her at the end of the day, because I couldn’t climb the school bus. 

It happened more than a decade ago, and I still require regular ankle massages to keep the swelling down. I have binders for both my ankles because somewhere along the way, with the years of putting more pressure on my right ankle, it decided to become a replica of my left ankle. Years of orthopaedics have yielded no results other than the fact that I managed to trigger a birth defect. That my sprain healed, but there had always been an intrinsic defect in both my ankles. That they would have to do surgery, to break my ankle bones, because the whole reason I am suffering is that they didn’t break, which my family doesn’t agree with, as it is not an exactly a life saving thing. Plus, I can’t afford to take the time off from my studies required for this surgery.

Here’s the thing though. A thing I 100% would not recommend, because I have a very crippling FOMO and always have the habit of assuming everyone doesn’t actually like me and are just pretending to if I keep making a fuss of my issues. 

I try so hard to not let it stop me from doing things that everyone else does. I see people playing football, and I want to as well. And I will go join them. My school’s annual sports meet? I am going to participate. In the relay race, in the running race, because I used to be the fastest and now I am the second fastest in my house team. The annual sports meet was the worst, because it began with 10 laps around the football ground, followed by the races and a basketball tournament. All in the same day. I came home, I sat down. I couldn’t get up. I needed my mom and dad to half carry me to bed because I could not walk. My ankles were balloons. I didn’t go to school for a week. 

In my wish to be left out, I ignored my body’s pleas for help. For a damn long time. The week I couldn’t move was like a wake-up call. I quit my karate classes, I quit all my sports. I did ankle exercises regularly to strengthen my ankle (they don’t work but I do them anyway). I am still doing my best to stop crossing my ankles.

So, my point is, listen to your body. It knows what is going on. Better than you ever will. Your physical health is very very important, because you can’t do shit if you’re dead. Mental health is very very important, but bad physical health eventually leads to bad mental health too. Listen to your body. Look out for its cries for help. God knows, we ignore them quite often in our day to day lives, for various silly little things. We shouldn’t let our bodies feel as ignored as we have been. 

#health #please take care of yourselves #i know i know nobody #but please if you see this #listen to your bodies #listen to your pain #physical health is important #mental health is important #HEALTH is important #stay safe #stay healthy

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HELP I AM CONFUSED

How do you write a letter of recommendation? Also why are you supposed to draft your own letter of recommendation? Like do you sit and think good qualities about yourself? 

Also what is the format? Google has been very unhelpful with this

#lor #letter of recommendation #help please

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VENTI MY BELOVED

YOU HAVE FINALLY COME HOME

#venti #barbatos #anemo archon #venti my beloved #thank you #for coming to me #now I don't have to wait 10 years to see your face in game #i can just see you anytime #happy #genshin #genshin 3.1 update #windborne bard #god of wine #god of songs #god of bards #GOD OF FREEDOM #venti is best boy

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This account had its first anniversary yesterday! And I completely missed it! 

RIP

#tumblr birthday #tumblr milestone

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So, I played Banquo in a play once. They had tried to make us record all the dialogues before so that they could simply play them and all. But we were kids, so of course it did not exactly come out perfect. They told us they weren’t using that and we’d be given mics instead.

Flash forward to the 3 minutes before the play and there are mics being given to the witches, Macbeth, Lady Macbeth. I watched them go on stage and I kept asking the teachers for a mic but they just said that I don’t need one. Me being an idiot, didn’t realise that the mics were only used for the dialogues which hadn’t recorded, went on stage and yelled out my dialogues while also hearing my own voice from a speaker. The first few rows of the audience were extremely concerned. 

That moment of confusion when I heard my voice from the speakers gives me nightmares to this day.

#why #what did i do to deserve this #i died of #embarrasment #shame

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Huh, so my Chat Noir leaving theory is coming true in Kuro Neko rather than Hack-San.

I am crying, bye

My Theory for Hack-San

Okay, so while I have not watched this episode yet, I have been spoiled for pretty much the whole thing (my fault). 

So, we all know the ending scene right? Where Ladybug says she would never abandon Chat Noir? Well, what if it is the opposite? What if Chat Noir abandons Ladybug? Unintentionally, of course, but leaves her nonetheless. And because she doesn’t know who he is, she’d essentially lose him forever too.

Like yeah, Ladybug leaving would be tragic for Chat Noir, but has anyone thought about Chat Noir leaving? For reasons he cannot control? Like Ladybug, maybe he just didn’t have the time to warn her and he’s. Just. Gone. Forever.

#kuro neko #catwalker #chat noir #ladybug #chat noir deserves better #honestly lb's attitude in the trailer was so shit #i was so mad at her

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Hi, yes. Chaos triplets need to be seen.

They just wanted to test the limit of Julieta's healing powers... and Alma's nerves

#julieta madrigal #pepa madrigal #bruno madrigal #alma madrigal #madrigal triplets #CHAOS TRIPLETS #flirting with death #and winning #comic #they be so cute #i can't

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Lol I think it has been removed now

Guys? Watching gay porn? WHAT?

For context, look at the likes

#pepa madrigal #encanto #disney encanto #what the hell #i can't #it was funny though

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Guys? Watching gay porn? WHAT?

For context, look at the likes

#encanto #disney encanto #pepa madrigal #likes #what

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Let’s talk Coco again

Coco is one of those films that genuinely makes me feel like the world we’re witnessing has existed for a while. I don’t even know how. It is a story that has happened, is happening and will continue happening even after we stop seeing it. It makes me feel like I am looking into a window, seeing people’s lives as they were.

And the whole concept of legacy. Being remembered is one of the most basic human urges. (And I feel like I have written this before, but I will write it again). We all strive to leave our mark on this world. To be remembered beyond our infinitesimal time in this world. Because what is the lifespan of 70-80 years compared to the billions of years the planet has existed for? And will continue to exist for?

But we still want to say that we were here. That we lived here once. And we live on through our stories. The ones people tell of us. It is the very reason we have the urge to be liked. To be loved. 

And Coco? It puts a new layer of depth into this urge. That being remembered is not just an urge. Leaving your mark on this world is not just an urge, it is what allows you to live beyond your existence in the mortal world. That as long as people talk about you, you still live on - in their hearts, in their minds. And that is so powerful.

But the legacy is as important for the living as it is for the dead. Death causes pain. A void in your heart that cannot be filled. It punches you hard and the pain stays. It lingers. Over time, it lessens in intensity. Hurts a little less. But never truly stops. But it isn’t until after watching Coco that I realised why everyone wants you to talk about grief.

One of my friends died young. She was only eleven. Her death hit all of us hard. To this day, I have a birthday present she gave me. I can still picture her slippers outside her house, the mole on her chin. But, in the end, I was a kid too. The overall picture of her face keeps eluding my memory. No matter how much I want to hold on and remember it. There aren’t many pictures of us at all. In fact, in the many years it has been since her death, I only found one picture which contains her. It was a picture my mom took of me and it just so happened to feature her in the background. Seeing that picture hit hard. I have aged. I have changed. She wouldn’t have been much older than the girl in the picture when she died. 

I happened to watch Coco a few days after I found the picture. And I cried. Hard. The idea that she might still be alive in another world hit hard. That she could fade away if people don’t talk about her after her death hit hard. I never spoke much of her before, but now all of my current friends know of her existence. Know of her personality. Of her stupidly short life. And it makes me feel so much better - just knowing she isn’t going to be forgotten any time soon. That I got to introduce her to some amazing people. 

The more I talk about her, the more I remember some random bits and pieces - memories that would have otherwise been lost to time. And I LOVE it. The more I talk about her (not my grief or her death. But about her. Who she was, as a person), the more alive she becomes. The more I am able to picture her face in my mind without the need for a photograph.

And people who are grieving? They really really need that. It could be so easy to bottle up your feelings and move on, but honestly? Remembering your loved ones is the best feeling ever. 

My mom tells me stories about her dad. And she tears up each time. But she still says them. She is still sad, but talking about him makes her happy as well. Sad that he is gone, but happy that he lived. And he died a whole year before I was born. 

It is bittersweet as hell, but talk about your loved ones. (When you’re ready of course). Celebrate their lives. They had only one, and you were fortunate enough to be a part of it, no matter how small the time. It was real. It was a happy time. And it meant something to you. Remember them. Make them more real. Tell their stories. Share your memories. 

#coco #mama coco #hector rivera #legacy #pixar coco #the concept of a legacy #remembering people #who aren't around anymore #it is painful yes #but it genuinely helps #makes your time together more precious #and grief tends to block out a lot of memories #it is the best way to forget #but the more you talk about someone #the more memories that get unlocked #like a game #and you get bittersweet #but hey #they lived for x years #such a small number #in the great cosmos #and you got to meet them during those x years #and you got to love them in those x years #don't let those moments die with you #spread the love

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GUYS GUYS

So like, Alma and Pedro from Encanto were a young couple who got married and had children. Pedro was torn from the family due to his untimely death. The knowledge of his death and the trauma it put Alma through caused her to have a tight grip on everything left behind and everything they gained. Unknowingly putting excess pressure on her descendants to follow a certain path - perfection, and to reject things that didn’t meet that perfection. She still loved those - like come on, Pepa has a very volatile gift and Bruno has a very negative one. Mirabel doesn’t have one at all. There is no denying that she does love all three of them, but because they do not meet that set standard, the way she speaks to them is different compared to the rest. She didn’t want to go through the same situation of losing everything. So she does everything possible to prevent it from happening again.

Imelda and Hector from Coco were a young couple who got married and had a child. Hector was torn from the family due to his untimely death. Lack of knowledge of his death caused her to spurn the very thing she assumed Hector left them for - music. Unknowingly, she put a lot of pressure on her descendants to follow the path she set out for them - away from music. I say unknowingly because I don’t think anyone before Miguel ever outright told her that they loved music and didn’t want this lifestyle? Idk. She still loved music, but hated the trauma it brought back. The pain of her husband choosing something over them. So she did everything possible to prevent it from happening again.

The beginnings of their stories are eerily similar. With the unintentional departure of their husbands from their lives, and them becoming single parents, they both chose to do everything in their power to prevent it from happening again. Very understandable. 

In fact, it isn’t until Imelda faces the reality of her husband possibly dying AGAIN that she starts letting go. She lets go of her hatred of music - something she kept alive for nearly a century - in order to protect his photo. But she’s still got conditions. That unconditional blessing comes when it is the situation of her having to choose between both Miguel and Hector dying (in different ways) or just Hector dying (because they didn’t know if Coco’s memory could be brought back. She had seen her daughter having memory issues already). And she lets Miguel go with absolutely no conditions. Because she’s let go of the past. There isn’t any need for conditions anymore. (And yay Coco remembers, but like this was Imelda’s reality until Coco’s memory came back)

Alma starts letting go when faced with the same situation of losing her home. Her home is gone. Again. But THIS TIME, all of her family members are alive. They are fine. (Not emotionally fine, but she does go Mirabel hunting and finds and brings her back). It isn’t the end of her world. They are still alive and kicking. They are fine. And for the first time, I think she realised that losing her home =/= losing her family. She was left alone to lead a town the first time. This time, she isn’t. She faced the reality of her family possibly dying again and came out better for it. Sure, her home was gone and she was going to miss it. But like she says, they are her miracle. Her casita was built not just as a shelter, but protection for her and the triplets. For them. Because they survived. They are her miracle. They have always been. Her trauma took form though and prevented her from realising it.

As I have finished typing all this, I kinda forgot what point I wanted to make. Ugh.

I am super sorry.

WAIT. Okay. I wanted to say that both Imelda and Alma did have similar beginnings and similar ways of thinking that ultimately needed to be changed in order for their family to heal. Ultimately though, they cannot be blamed for the way their minds shaped up. They were young women who had the world watching them (albeit for different reasons) and children to raise and feed. They adapted the mindset they needed to pull through, to survive that ordeal. The world wasn’t kind to them, but they’ll be damned if they let their descendants go through the same bs they did. It was a necessary mindset. Their issues stem from the fact that they were unable to let it go. Which was because they had trauma from the foundation of those mindsets. And letting go of something they thought brought security to their family is HARD. But they still try at the end of their movies. Because their love for their families is greater than anything. Change doesn’t come overnight. But it starts with intent. Which both of these woman have a lot of.

ANYWAY, let us celebrate these strong, traumatized women finally starting to get over their trauma. That is all. (I kinda forgot the point again, but I am too lazy to try and remember it now)

#coco #pixar coco #imelda rivera #hector rivera #coco rivera #miguel rivera #encanto #disney encanto #alma madrigal #pedro madrigal #madrigal triplets #pepa madrigal #bruno madrigal #mirabel madrigal #i forgot what i was saying as i was saying it #TWICE #i am sorry #but i am too lazy to try and remember now #coco needed her papa #and imagine madrigal triplets with pedro #their dads loved them so so much #i cannot #these kids were LOVED #their parents were ready to take on the world #for them #<3<3<3 #imelda rivera deserved better #alma madrigal deserved better #hector rivera and pedro madrigal deserve to live #shame on their murderers