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Teammate: *scores a goal* Robbo: Let me love you! 💕

#lfc

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my parents were never divorced btw. if you even care

#🥰🥰 #gerlonso

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#i feel.......burntout #again #or maybe its the same #idk #fuck it im fine

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I cant focus on anything it makes me wanna cry

#the second i need to think ablut things #i have a mini breakdown #im just existing barely and its not fun #but why are desicions so hard #and then i panic #cus idk why #its frustrating

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Dominik at the press conference today 📸

#cutie #dom #lfc

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Mood

#oh look a mood

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pookiest

#lfc #im tagging things like im ever here :D #cody gakpo

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Mo Salah at the training session today 📸

#loving mo salah is my favourite thing about life #mo salah #lfc

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this will haunt me forever until the day i die btw

Simon Hughes, Ring of Fire // BBC Football Focus

#excuse meeeeeeeeeee

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"I have a migraine" - boring

"I am plagued by unspeakable horrors" - accurate

#every single day #for weeks #and a days rest maybe #and then its back #its so fun out here

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#i cant feel anything 😊 #like nothing #i mean its fine cus least this way i dont feel the bad shit #so id rather feel nothing always then feel one more ounce of bad 😝 #its giving when i was in group therapy and every session after being asked our week #id just go idk i cant feel anything #and then i got removed from the group for individual therapy #was mute for months #so that wasnt a great plan #anyway point was..... #what was the point #omg why the fuck is it snowing #hate that #go away dude 😒 🤮 #pretty sure i overuse emojis but like how will u read my tone #people who dont use emojis .... why #be better #i cant read the tone of ur text its making me anxious 🙃

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For some fucked up reason I thought kloppo would stay forever, which hardly ever happens...... call me miss delusional

#😊 #ykno what im so numb i cant feel anything #love that for me ✌️

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Dad™️

#and then u leave them but we're not talking about it cus bullshit

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can’t wait to get hotter and more insane next year

#defo more insane 🙌🙌🤣 #im bored driving people crazy elsewhere so ill do it here #hi im back 😅😁

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I'm exhausted but what is sleep when my brain doesn't shut the fuck up

#like absolutely nothing of importance is going on up there #but there are a 50 million thoughts all at the time #and they never stop #and then im zoned the fuck out #and getting yelled at to come back to earth #and also i forgot to do that one thing I've been asked about 50 times in a row #but i seriously just forgot #bc i got distracted #like wtf #how i do i go to do one thing and then just do completely other #my brain needs to chill #how am i supposed to anything #it cant do anything but get severly oberwhelmed w every single tiny sound #and light and situation for no reason #like whyyyyyyyyyyyyy

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❤️❤️❤️

🥰🥰💜

#thank you 💙 #ive calmed down now 😅

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Why does no one ever take u seriously, I've been living in this body for 25 yrs I kno what I'm feeling and experincing and when things are wrong, I don't want attention, fuck Idec about myself that much but I'm not making shit up, why am i screaming into the goddamn void

#why am i fighting for my own voice to be heard #just for others to do say 'i dont think' #u dont fucking kno me #weve had a 20min convo #thats not the full fucking story #think what u want #but im still valid #just blame my depression on everything its cool #its cool #also if was healthy enough to exercise GUESS WHAT I FUCKING WOULD #I WOULD I WOULD DO EVERYTHING I CURRENTLY CANT #AND THE LAST THING I WOULD BE DOING IS CALLING YOUUUU #'u have to help yourself' oh really u deal w 24hrs of absolute agony #and lets see how far u get #and then tell me i need to goddamn exercise #im so angry i wanna cry #the cure to depression is exercise and Pilates but u cant do that if ur physically ill so die #and i didnt even call for this #i called something else entirely and got this lecture #what a waste of time