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Martin: *does anything for Jon, ever*

Jon's default three responses:

#oh my god #described #q

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ok. years have passed and we've had some distance, so i'm finally gonna take the leap of faith that tma fandom is finally ready to hear me on this. let's talk about tannins.

161 was the first tma episode i heard on early release, and i felt the bit where martin declines wine and cites tannins was pretty obvious in its implications. cool, got it, say no more.

imagine my surprise when i was one of maybe three people i saw read between the lines there, in a fandom famous for red stringing--a fandom that immediately caught the much less obvious thread of ignition sources in the same episode. i'll spell it out: alcohol is an issue for martin.

maybe it just felt obvious because addiction is a pet issue for me--as it is for jonny, who has said everything he writes is filtered through a lens of addiction. i don't know if that's due to his own experience or a loved one's, and i won't speculate; i also don't know if martin personally struggled with drinking or just avoids it for fear he would, but alcohol would fit what we know of his family. his dad walking out and his mum spiralling into bitter wallowing and verbal abuse? i'd bet one or both of them drank, yeah.

on a basic level martin tries to decline alcohol, and that alone should have raised eyebrows given what we know of martin and, again, a fandom that dissects everything. we already knew martin "K" blackwood lied about his personal life and his family in particular, especially pre-canon, which is when this flashback took place. i was shocked that everyone took his flimsy excuse at face value with no further questions.

and the excuse is flimsy. martin turns down wine by--nervously--exclaiming tannins are "a proven headache trigger!" which sounds like trivia from a magazine cover and not the words of someone who actually has headaches--and it hasn't come up before or since. jon, confused, points out that tea, a drink martin consumes to a degree that is memetic both in- and out-of-universe, also contains tannins, and martin squawks a panicked, "what?!"

if tannins are enough of a concern for martin that he knew they're in wine and so avoids it, why didn't he know they're in his drink of choice? why does he still drink tea at the time of canon, and why doesn't he struggle with constant headaches from consuming 'a proven headache trigger' day in and day out? why, indeed, would someone avoid wine and not tea?

when sasha insists martin drink he caves and agrees to 'just a drop'. i imagine him pouring it in a plant, which admittedly he could have done if tannins really were the issue. i will say that i, for one, would be less likely to falsely agree to something that makes me physically ill than to a private issue that i'd rather not be pressed on any further. this scene also establishes martin's birthday was an ice cream party instead of the more traditional visit to a pub.

also, this scene was in the first episode of the final season, as one of three flashbacks that could have been to any pre-canon event in the archives. prime narrative real estate. not really time one would waste on establishing the important character context that martin has... headaches. which never comes up before or after, even regarding the week he spent in spiral town. but you know what is pretty crucial character background...?

it felt like a no-brainer, and yet all i saw was h/c fluff about jon attending to martin's headaches. and i hate feeling bitter about disability representation. i want folks with chronic headaches to feel seen and have fluffy escapist fantasies. i don't want to be mad about people portraying a character with a disability. but, guys? you got the wrong disability. jonny sent a clear message, and it went over fandom's head.

#oh this is so real ?? ive always hcd mart as having this sort of issue more latently #hence that art i did of him pouring spirits in a coffee mug during s4. but like #this is so valid and good i dig it #martinblogging

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im normal. except about that one thing. Oh and that other thing. and that third thing. and also that fourth smaller but still present thing.

#tmagp vague

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[ID: Three digital drawings of Teddy Vaughn from The Magnus Protocol on a gray background. He is a fat, bald, black man with dark brown skin and a lot of body hair and a goatee and small mustache. In the two largest images he is wearing small gold hoop earrings, a dark blue sweater, a gold button-down with the sleeves rolled up and the collar unbuttoned, brown slacks, blue socks, brown oxford shoes, and a gold watch. On the right is a full body drawing of him doing a little dance and whistling, and on the bottom left is a chest-up drawing of him lifting up a glass of beer with a pinky raised saying "cheers" but written as "cheeahhs~" and making an exaggeratedly posh expression with one brow raised and his eyes rolling back a bit.

In the upper left is a doodle of him wearing a dull yellow button-down, gold necktie, and gold and brown argyle vest as well as his earrings, looking back tearfully at Colin, who is a skinny white guy with a blonde ponytail and mustache and glasses, and who is also looking tearfully at Teddy. There is a little broken heart between them. end ID]

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teddy sillies cuz i like this guy. i ended up doing multiple from that poll. also i think colin and teddy maybe had a thing that ended when teddy left, they're silly guys

#TEDDYYYYYYY #also this is the second time im seeing mention of colin/teddy. hope this doesn’t awaken anything in me #tmagp #described #q

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The Amazing Devil truly knocked it out of the park with Fair in terms of love songs i mean its got everything. Domesticity, deep adoration, confessions of love when youre sure no one else can hear, a that's what she said joke, yogurt, genuinely dont think there's a more romantic song on the face of the earth

#it’s also just extremely real #cause u make me laugh when im actually really fuckin cross at u for something……. wow yeah. true

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wehhhhh my name is lelan and i hate it when saint does some recreational tulpamancy wehhhhhh

unironically have listened to mr bonzo more than once on purpose separate from the podcast and won’t apologise

#bestie im sorry but you would be AT my stag party #and he wants to play so jot that down 😤

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unironically have listened to mr bonzo more than once on purpose separate from the podcast and won’t apologise

#it’s genuinely good music well written. srry. but i am not

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So Gertrude and Agnes huh. Them huh. God. Oh heck. Oh my god

#augh #described #q

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jonathan. he spent his life escaping from spinning knife tortures and immediately tripping and falling into new spinning knife tortures. he was forcibly moisturized for a month. he hated his coworkers. his coworkers were his only friends. the only person he knew who didn't make a threat or attempt on his life was his ex girlfriend. my dearest chew toy, jonathan. my pile of wet laundry, jonathan. my darling collection of trauma symptoms in sweater vest from the year 1982, jonathan. my most miserable little addict, jonathan. voted "london's most hated man" every year of his life, including when he lived in bournemouth and was a child, jonathan. most realistic bi ace rep I've ever seen.

#i love this post sm #jonblogging #q

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you ever see a character and go "wow, this character is so nuanced and morally gray! their actions and morals don't always align! they're complicated and make bad decisions and behave painfully realistically! I hate them and love them at the same time and that's on purpose! they're so cool! .... fan content is going to misinterpret them completely, isn't it."

#****** ********* #****** *******

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P.S. please leave this in the tags, I'm curious how wrong y'all are.

#i assume like at least 2k…… famous pal……….

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this bit of back and forth interests me, because the emphasis on "accidentally" and martin's desire to keep an eye on jon while he's handling knives implies that martin thinks jon hurt himself that badly on purpose, but his tone isn't particularly soft and concerned, it's more casual and direct.

it's a good insight into their dynamic at this point: martin's definitely being caring but he's not soft about it, like how he almost threw jon out of the archives when he tried to come back to work early. he's stressed as hell, from jon's own words martin seems to care more about jon's recovery than anything else he's meant to be doing, but he's not just hovering in doorways anxiously offering tea like he does when he's worried about other interpersonal issues, he's deploying minor bastard tactics such as "I will deposit you outside of this building myself if you don't get more rest" and "I am attaching myself to your lunch breaks so I can supervise your access to sharp objects." and the bastard tactics seem to be what jon responds to; he brushes off any "calm down and relax" admonishments but if martin declares that they're going for lunch together then he will actually take a break and eat a meal.

#AUGH #id in alt

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2.5 minutes of Martin Blackwood diabolically plotting against Jonathan Sims. Spoilers through 106.

(Or: a supercut of times when Martin’s crush was visible from space to literally everyone except the person whose job it is to Know Things.)

#SCREAM #described #audio #q

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[id: two images of a white six week old kitten chewing on cardboard. end id.]

look at my infant child

#bean tag #cats

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doomed voyage

#ough he…… #described #jonblogging #q

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i was today years old when I found out these are toes -> 💅

#unreality

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i've been thinking it could be fun to start spreading lies on the internet