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Greetings tumber enjoyers

It's been a while lmao

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Reblog to claim your OG Lovejoy fan ticket

LETS GOOOOOO

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Day 87 of crying over how we got robbed of that deleted Entrapdak scene in the finale because:

1) "It's okay, you're free now. You can be whoever you wanna be."

( 1.5) Plus her little grip on his arm while she's saying this^)

2) Entrapta holding Hordak's face, used to mirror and contrast the way Prime did with him.

3) A proper Entrapdak reunion !!!! (even though the one in the end of the finale is still really damn cute)

4) t h e h a n d h o l d .

5) Entrapta's little smile and sparkles when Hordak frees her (and the smile and ear-droop that he gives her in return).

6) Entrapta squishing Hordak's face when she says "come on".

7) The way Entrapta uses her hair to grab Hordak's face and gently guide him back to face her when he starts panicking over shooting Prime.

8) The way Entrapta screams Hordak's name when he starts getting possesed.

9) The horror and Entrapta's face and the way she steps back when she realizes he's being possesed by Prime.

10) "You will share the fate of your precious Etherians". I just think this line is very interesting and neat.

11) "Most unloved and unworthy among my brothers."

12) In general, I just feel like the addition of this scene could've given a really good closure to Hordak's character and solidified the fact that his arc was one of reclaiming his personhood and freedom ("It's okay, you're free now"), and not one of "redemption".

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decided to draw bunch of the dsmp cause why not

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Damn Hordak, always dropping his stuff. Oh well, finders keepers, losers weepers.

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UGLY SOBBING-

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i love you science girl

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double trouble is the chaotic neutral character i needed in my life i love them so much u don’t understand <3 <3

did a cute redraw of dt but tumblr killed the quality so click for hq 

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All my lov is still for this tax evader

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The AO3 Tag of the Day is: The most sacred and intimate of relationships

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Wait- I want a ghost roommate now-

A little story about ghosts, and roommates, and getting to know each other.

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fucking love hordak as a character because like. he’s big evil scary alien man who manages to scare the shit out of catra and shadow weaver until he goes simp mode for entrapta and then it is IMPOSSIBLE to take him seriously

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And they where lab partners

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I’ve spoken before about why I find Hordak’s abuse more tragic and poignant than Catra’s (and Adora’s). And now I’m going to speak about it some more from a very specific angle. Because I am having Emotions over it. So buckle up.

At the start of the show, Catra and Shadow Weaver’s relationship involves a great deal of fear. 

Catra, despite a bit of back-talk and general impertinence, is clearly a child terrified of her abusive “mother.” We see this when Shadow Weaver is ordering her to retrieve Adora. We see it when Catra witnesses her summon her shadow spies. We hear hints of it when Catra accuses Adora of leaving her all the way back in the second episode of the series.

We see it in flashbacks, watching a very young Catra experience the trauma of Shadow Weaver’s cruel punishment.

All of these moments are terrible showcases of vulgar child abuse: emotional, physical, responsible for permanent damage to Catra’s psyche. They distress me, and I’ve certainly cried during many of them, but you know what?

Catra moves past this fear. 

Catra moves past this fear, steadily building upon her initial impertinence and snark, and graduates to anger. She gets angry at Shadow Weaver, and she uses that anger to fight back.

Oh, it doesn’t fix her problems, of course. She still feels the despair of Shadow Weaver’s lack of love. She still commences her awful downward spiral into villainy and abusive friendships and self-isolation. She still remains the poster child of the abuse cycle theme this show portrays so well. 

But for a moment, there is progress. There is a seizure of agency, an expression of her right to live free of the control and the terror her abuser has subjected her to. Despite all of the other issues plaguing her, this awful fear that has kept Catra paralyzed is dealt with and finally eliminated. 

Now, friend and neighbors, let us contrast this with Hordak’s progression.

When we first meet Hordak, he does not give any indication of fear. Rather, he appears a mysterious, untouchable figure who holds all of the power in his situation. We eventually learn that this is not the case, but even then, we don’t see fear, persay (save for a brief moment when he wakes up, disoriented, from his syncopal event). We see frustration, despair, rage, grief, awkward affection… but no legitimate fear.

When he initially speaks of Horde Prime, it is with pride and reverence and a hope for proving himself. And while, come season four, there is definitely evidence of anxiety over Prime’s imminent arrival (which can be correctly interpreted as a prelude to the coming terror), it does not yet manifest as clear, obvious fear. And once the Horde starts winning, this anxiety is replaced with that hope, that pride and confident esteem in his Brother’s glory.  

Hordak keeps up this pretense even as he is being “collected” by Prime. He keeps it up until the very moment he cannot. And then?

Oh, friends and neighbors, then it all falls apart.

Unlike Catra, who transitions from vulnerable fear to empowered fury, Hordak, upon coming face to face with Prime, collapses into terror. And I can’t stand it.

you are about to witness a grown woman having significant emotions over Hordak; should this distress you, please look away now

It is viscerally painful to watch this man who was, up until this very moment, the bane of all of Etheria swiftly descend into all-encompassing fear. To hear his voice turn desperate and panicked, to see his eyes go wide as he realizes too late the mortal danger he is in.

When Prime takes his face in his hands, violating his mind and reading his most private thoughts, Hordak starts to shake. He starts to shake and oh, friends and neighbors, it is so heart-wrenching to witness someone so supposedly dangerous and intimidating tremble with terror like a panicked child.

There is never any anger. Neither indignation, nor righteous fury. There is never any seizure of agency, any furious attempt to fight back. There is only terror: chilling and absolute and nauseatingly desperate. There is only Hordak, alone and injured and pleading and shaking with fear as his Brother brutally grabs him by the face and prepares to destroy him.

And that’s the difference.

Catra fails to better herself, yes. She continues on her downward spiral, and that is hard to watch… but despite her pain, she isn’t afraid. She fights her old fear, and she wins. She embraces anger, embraces a fury over what happened to her, and she uses that to beat Shadow Weaver. Even if everything else goes to hell, she at least manages to take control and combat her fear of her abuser.

For Hordak, there is no such triumph. There is never even any placing of blame on Prime, forget assertion of righteous anger. Rather, there is only fear. Once faced with his abuser, Hordak just… falls apart. Despite his age, his strength, his thirty-plus years away from the original Horde, he breaks down. All of his layers of control and dominance disintegrate before our eyes, and the man once portrayed as untouchable ends up capable only of cowering before someone so much bigger and crueler than himself.

He’s just… so miserably afraid, and it’s such a shocking, sickening thing to see. Especially when juxtaposed with watching Catra, a comparative child, taking control and fighting back.

It underlines how vicious Prime is, to frighten Hordak so severely. And it emphasizes how utterly helpless Hordak is before him in a way Catra, before Shadow Weaver, was not: how he can’t run, can’t fight, can’t negotiate. How he can only cower and plead and shake with terror as Horde Prime violates him and, ultimately, takes his self away.

That’s the difference, and it makes me weep for him so much more. 

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Cake @madoozish

ranboo & his various cakes … he has a brand !!!!

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How are y’all simping over Catra when

These

Guys

EXIST??