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I Love participating in research studies but research studies don’t love having me participate in them. I wanna be a little lab rat but every single one is like “Requirements: Be not psychotic.” Like shit man, I would if I could! Please let me participate! I promise I’ll be a good psychotic :(

#schizo spectrum #schizoaffective #schizoposting #actually schizoaffective #actually hallucinating #psychosis #psychotic #psychotic spectrum #schizophrenia #schizophrenic disorder #mental health #mental illness #psychology

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yeah I have sex

Schizophrenia

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#schizo spectrum #schizoaffective #schizoposting #actually schizoaffective #actually hallucinating #I made this post a million years ago but I was drunk at the time and I chose to misspell psychosis??? #schizophrenia was sitting right there dude #schizophrenic disorder #schizophrenia

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Anyone else have some sort of psychotic disorder but not autism, yet get mistaken for having autism a lot, or am I just alone in that boat?

#schizo spectrum #schizoaffective #schizoposting #actually schizoaffective #actually hallucinating #psychosis #psychotic spectrum #actually psychotic #psychotic

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the boss makes a dollar, I make a dime. that’s why I hallucinate on company time.

#schizo spectrum #schizoaffective #schizoposting #actually schizoaffective #hallucinations #actually hallucinating

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When you’re in a job interview and the hiring manager is talking about how the company strives to have an environment that uplifts mental health and supports those with mental health struggles and you’re just sitting there thinking “What if I just said ‘I’m schizophrenic’ right now, what if I just said ‘Well that’s a huge relief because if you hire me, I will hallucinate my entire shift.’ Hahaha! Anyway.”

#schizo spectrum #schizoaffective #schizoposting #actually schizoaffective #schizophrenic disorder #schizophrenia spectrum #actually hallucinating #hallucinations

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I can’t tell anyone in my life about it. And I don’t want to. But I still want to say it. I have been thinking about ending my life constantly. I am passively suicidal. I want something horrible to happen to me. I will not act on this, but I wanted to put the words into the world. That’s all I needed. Don’t worry about that. Thanks.

#tw suidice #death tw #suicide mention #tw vent #actually schizoaffective #schizoaffective #schizoafucktive #tw death #tw death mention #tw self loathing #trigger warning #passive suicidality #schizoposting #ventcore #schizo spectrum

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Was driving, stopped at a red light, my brain reset, and I went “oh I almost forgot to turn off the car!” and then just ,,, proceeded to park my car in the road at a red light.

Thank goodness this is the longest red light ever invented and I was able to say “Hey :) what the fuck am I doing :)” and turn it Back On. But I really just forgot where I was and what I was doing.

#schizo spectrum #schizoaffective #schizoposting #actually schizoaffective #brainrot #brain reset

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I have waited a long time for this moment, and it finally happened! I always knew it would be on a day that is connected to 8, I knew it would be at a significant 8 related moment. And it was! 04/04 and it was at 22:22!! Can you even believe it!! I knew that this was a sign for me. I don’t want to go into too many details, but it was meant for me, and I just had to wait for the signal! And it happened just as planned, oh, I’m ecstatic!

Really, it all means that the waiting paid off, and my moment for action came and went, and we are now on the correct timeline again. The alternate time, the rip in space time, it closed successfully. Im just so happy about it :)

#8 #eight #four four #two two two two #angel numbers #timeline #time travel #living receiver #found the artifact #message for me #portal #waiting paid off

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Bipolar anger is like nothing else. Why am I so mad? I’m so insurmountable angry at literally everything and it’s for no reason.

#schizo spectrum #schizoaffective #schizoposting #actually schizoaffective #ventcore #actually hallucinating #hallucinations #actuallymentallyill #actuallypsychotic #psychosis #psychotic #delusions #actually delusional #psychotic spectrum #actually paranoid #paranoia #schizophrenia #schizospeaking #actually schizophrenic #tw delusion #schizoaffective bipolar #bipolar #anger problems #tw anger #dealing with anger #anger issues

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Me, convinced ppl are talking about me: what is up with me

Everyone else:

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Schizopec culture is “how do I tell them that I hear voices and see demons but it’s rlly not a big deal” /gen

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I want so badly to be great. I want my life to mean something and to have some type of impact. I want to die knowing I will leave something behind. But it’s so unachievable. I can’t even be average. I can’t even be mediocre. I am failing and it is unbearable to be failing in every way that is important to me.

#schizo spectrum #schizoaffective #schizoposting #actually schizoaffective #ventcore #actually hallucinating #hallucinations #actuallymentallyill #actuallypsychotic #psychosis #psychotic #delusions #actually delusional #psychotic spectrum #actually paranoid #paranoia #schizophrenia #schizospeaking #actually schizophrenic #vent blog #vent post #cw vent

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I cut a guy off while changing lanes today and he stopped next to me at the next red light, threw trash at my car, and then got out of his car and mimed taking my headlight out with a crowbar. And he was never angry. Just calm. The whole time. Very calm. He cheekily wagged his finger at me before grabbing a fucking crowbar out of his vehicle, like ?? Anyway, I will not be leaving my house for the rest of my life.

#schizo spectrum #schizoaffective #schizoposting #actually schizoaffective #ventcore #actually hallucinating #hallucinations #actuallymentallyill #actuallypsychotic #psychosis #psychotic #delusions #actually delusional #psychotic spectrum #actually paranoid #paranoia #schizophrenia #schizospeaking #actually schizophrenic #crowbar #threatened

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My girlfriend has farted so much in the past two days that my brain has picked it up and now I’m hallucinating farting when she’s not around.

#fart jokes #actually schizoaffective #schizo spectrum #schizoaffective #schizoposting #schizo things #seriously schizophrenic #actually hallucinating #hallucinations #im hallucinating again

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Hello. This is not something I would do unless I really needed help. I started a GoFundMe; I suffer from schizoaffective disorder and its absolutely crippling. I'm applying for disability but that takes a long time and especially at my age its going to be an even longer process.

I cannot afford therapy, and I'm about to lose my insurance so I won't be able to afford my medications and I NEED my meds. I can't hold a job because my hallucinations are severe, and I'm in psychosis almost every day. I barely have money for food or basic necessities anymore.

Please, if you can afford to donate a few dollars anything is greatly appreciated. If you cant donate, please share this post and my link so I can get the help I need. Thank you so much for your time.

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Me: Hey, brain, could I have a good manic episode? Y’know, the ones where I get a bunch of stuff done and I feel high on life?

My Brain: Yeah, like this? *has manic episode where I feel like I have to fight for my life and connect all the Clues*

Me: No, I meant a nice one.

My Brain: Like this? *has a paranoid episode and hallucinates people in my home*

Me: …

My Brain: Like this? *has depressive episode*

Me:

My Brain: Like th-

#actually schizoaffective #schizo spectrum #schizoaffective #schizoposting #schizophrenia #schizo things #paranoid schizophrenic #actually schizophrenic #schizophrenic disorder #paranoid delusions #actually paranoid #paranoia #actually hallucinating #hallucinations #depressiv #actually manic #mood disorder #delusions #actually delusional