schizoetic

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@thirteen-31 for film vibes

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Accurate. Psychosis is dreaming with stigma and it shouldn't be this way

if you *really* want to try and understand psychosis, I always offer the experience of dreaming.

Almost everyone on the planet dreams, and I find it to be a perfect comparison for psychosis... Anything can happen in a dream and you don't question it. This is your reality. If you're suddenly an astronaut, you don't typically question it. If there's suddenly a dragon, you don't typically question it. A monster can crawl out of the bushes or a stranger can appear in your house. Anyone can be someone they're not. Danger can come from anywhere. A pleasant dream can easily become a nightmare.

The only difference is that you wake up in the morning and it's over. And most people don't judge you for it. When you "wake up" from psychosis, there's often shame and people judge you.

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Delusions mold with facts seamlessly

a delusion does not mean a person should ever be dismissed, brushed off or disregarded.

delusions are beliefs that are extremely hard to shake regardless of how self aware we are.

a delusional person is not quirky, not rambling nothingness for the sake of attention, they are serious.

from believing youre dead or dying (cotard's) to believing your halucinations were real, these things are terifying for us. theyre real for us.

just because you know its not true doesnt mean we're making it up. we deserve to be heard, listened to and helped just like you and your issues.

delusional is not and should never be nor should it ever have been an insult. its a serious issue. take it seriously.

#psychosis #psychotic #schizoaffective #actually schizospec

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Me everytime I relapse and my illness reintroduces itself

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It hurts for people to laugh at you when you have symptoms of a mental illness. But it feels good to laugh at yourself. I hope you understand what I mean when I say this

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Psychosis memory #58: being unable to show emotion

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Psychosis memory #57: dunking my head in water repeatedly for hours thinking nanotechnology was taking away my vision and that doing so would stop it.

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I do because I have no other choice and I greatly value the life I have although flawed it may be. Society and they way its structured is the biggest problem. Learning to accept my imperfection and knowing it's not my fault revolutionized everything.

Guys how do you accept being schizospec

How do you accept needing medication that's objectively bad for you, at high doses, for the rest of your life?

How do you accept being psychotic

How do you accept not being able to work, not being able to move out, how do you accept that you'll always be like this?

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Psychosis (mania?) memory #56: being up for days without feeling tired. Infact the longer I stayed awake the more I felt awake.

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Psychosis memory #55: communicating thinking I was making perfect sense only to later realize I was talking in gibberish. The difference came with medication

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Psychosis memory #54: hyperventilating in the shower of my psych ward room while having nurses tell me if I continue I'm going to pass out

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Something that helps me is knowing that there's a community online of people with thought disorders. One of the worst feelings I had in the past was thinking there was hardly anyone like me. Knowing others on the schizo spectrum have survived and/or thrived gives me strength.

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CW: self harm and blood

Psychosis memory #53: cutting myself open with a shard of glass and then proceeding to wipe my blood all over walls

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Psychosis memory #52: smoking a pack of cigarettes in my psych ward room within an hour only to be taken back to seclusion. Was definitely not accepting of this to say the least.

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Psychosis memory #51: how I felt going back on the antipsychotic clozapine after thinking it didn't work. Never felt more relaxation and relief than that.

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https://fb.watch/mjDHL25iin/?mibextid=Nif5oz

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Psychosis memory #50: seeing a nurse cry while she watched me be captivated by the stars after I was locked up for months without windows.

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