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drake?

#happy Easter y’all

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This feels exactly like when Sherlock season 4 dropped and everyone thought it was a front for the ACTUAL season four and this version was a joke I really don’t know how else to describe it

#like this feels like a BIG project #mark just hasn’t revealed all the pieces yet!!! #so in may ig we’ll see what mr iplier has in store #iswm

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Ok I’m gonna say one thing then I’m leaving

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Coming back on to say I love Wug she is too good for this world 💕

#iswm

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HEY back for a moment to let u guys know i made a lil Instagram it’s elliotthavingfun where im gonna put new art and stuff. Im not gonna delete my tumblr but I want to take a step back for a good long while (maybe forever????) so yee. Just don’t want to disappear without a trace and leave all my internet buds behind ya know

ALSO I’m gonna spend a month or two at my parents where I’m gonna get more therapy and mental help so I can get myself back together. Started a new crochet project and I’m doing a video diary now. Future is very uncertain but I am going to stay optimistic and see how it goes lol

#might occasionally update here but I think for now I want to step away from tumblr #it’s become toxic and isolating for me and idk if I want to be seagull anymore lol #also I just don’t have anything to post cause I’m depressed so I don’t need it anymore #but yeah hope everyone is ok :)

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I also want to deactivate sO bad but also I’ve spent the last like 6 years or so with this blog……..do I really want to kill it

#I might log out and never come back #except when I’m feelin nostalgic or something lol

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Coming back online for .2 seconds to say that 1) I feel cute today and it’s like 60 degrees out :) and 2) whoever sent that anon last week I’d like u to know that it triggered my depression so severely that I spiraled out of control and almost went to the hospital so thanks for that <3

#and I mean it’s what I get for triggering other people during my time online!! like yeah it’s what I deserve #and I do need a reality check every now and again!!!! #but still. suck my fucking dick

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will be logging off for a bit idk i might come back tomorrow who knows im in a downward spiral idk what will happen LOL 

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ok but for realsies!!! feeling very disgusted with myself bc ive let down my internet friends ive let down every place i ever worked at ive let down my parents and my family and even my friends and im fat and ugly and nonbinary and no one will ever respect me or my pronouns or believe my mental illness and i have no future or really any reason to be alive other than i might have something to live for and i might make my family a little sad but ill never achieve anything and i cant even be bothered to lift a hand to draw something even when i want to. so dw!!! i am very much aware of how shit of a person i am and how i am the equivalent of human garbage like i know!!!! i know!!! im getting rid of my etsy shop and tbh im gonna deactivate my tumblr sometime soon because theres nothing really left for me here and all i do is either offend people or make them uncomfortable offering no content in return. lol

#i am not asking for pity either so dont send me any!!!! #NONE of you know me irl and none of you know how fucking shit of a person i am #and how my fucking life has gone completely down the drain because im too mentally ill to go to fucking work #to pay my fucking bills and spend time with my fucking friends and family #i literally dont care if you say i am a good influence because im not!!! ive just tricked u into thinking im nice #when im in fact not!!!!! #and im so sorry to all my mutuals!!!!! i love yall but im really not where its at!!!! #im sorry!!! im sorry!!!! im so fucking sorry!!!!!

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It's a little funny and ironic to me that you keep saying that you don't like Jacksepticeye for the things that you also keep doing. You promise to do stuff that you seem to never do (it has been almost two years since you said you were going to do the egos videos), you said you're gonna make art or something and then don't, and so on and so forth.

ok anon im not gonna lie. this do kinda cut deep

#now this. THIS is some good quality anon commentary #i give a chef kiss to u anon #i tip my fedora to u

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also having a tedtalk this morning about how some of the biggest things on youtube right now are 1) analog horror args and 2) absurdly long video essays on niche topics 

fellas......i think my time to pounce is now 

#aka i want to really start working on some kind of video project!!!! #i want to start working on my ego ranking video again bc i feel like now is the perfect time to put something like that out #im realizing that my mask arg is something i cant do at the moment bc of many different factors so i will do that later on in life #but i can make video essays NOW!!!!!!! #if that makes sense lol

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good morning! had my morning coffee as well as having an entire conversation with myself about how the jse fandom has evolved, the history of the jse egos, and where we all stand today. very exciting stuff. but im actually thinking about working on my ranking video again??? ive been watching a lot of video essays in my Depressed State and i want an excuse to talk at length about da bois 🥺 

also!!! i will be shutting down my etsy shop for good. dont buy anything im gonna just refund u haha. but essentially i dont feel that i can run a sub-par shop anymore. it also ties in with my ‘monetizing my art’ thing and getting rid of it entirely will help me feel better about making stuff for fun. i might start like a squarespace site later on where i do sell things again, but for now!! i think its the best move for me to take. i learned a lot and it was really fun, but i think its time to take her out back and put her to rest. 

RIP ETSY SHOP 2020-2022 😔👊

#i might regret this later on. but for now its what i believe to be the right thing to do #and again i might make my own selling platform for some crafts and pins later on haha #just not with etsy!

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so i think its about time we finally talk about my writing. aka i will no longer be doing it!!! not even for a commission!!!! its a very exhausting hobby for me, and brings me a lot of sadness and stress due to events in the past. i want to tell my stories through visual art, rather than write fanfic that i know will never live up to what i want it to. thank u for all da support on my writing things in the past, especially since it was very nerve-wracking to post my writing in the first place!!!! i am giving all of u hugs

#and this isnt to say i will never write stuff for my boys ever again!!!! #it just wont be like. a thing i do ya know

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unrelated to the stuff that's been happening but- how's the victorious video? I've seen mentions of it but I don't have enough interest in watching it for myself

idk im feeling like a Stockholm syndrome thing........like ive sat through 5 hours 37 minutes and 45 seconds so far of this beast and i know the end is near but im growing attached to this stuff! when we were talking about the NCU and tying in things like fucking henry danger of all things to tie into the universe of victorious i had a meltdown in my room. like bro watching robbie shapiro get run over by a truck being driven by rex the sentient puppet in a completely separate sitcom outside of victorious broke me a little

but meltdowns aside!!!! its very fun and if you are interested in both tv show analysis or fandom analysis ESPECIALLY if youve ever watched victorious i would recommend!! i love video essays like this haha

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i get u! just worried bc i know how the internet can Be and i dont want anyone taking things out of context bc i know that kinda shits happened before

oh yeah i totally understand! and i hope my response to ur ask wasnt mean or anything, i just wanted to explain my reasoning and why there really isnt any danger. idk who would even take something i said as a joke and twist it, like. i think i have only one Confirmed person who i have personal beef with me, and that was almost 3 years ago so who knows if they even care anymore. unless i have some people out there who harbor secret hatred for me but have not revealed their feelings yet 👀

#like at this point literally no one fucking pays attention to me #like. i could say a racial slur or say im pro ship or whatever gets the kids going these days #(of course i wouldnt because i dont want to say or do things that would actually harm people) #but like no one would care man. i am the bottom of the fucking barrel of the ego community #aint got no art edits theories fanfic NOTHIN #except the few mutuals that remain after the jse stuff settled down <3 love yall

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i know ur just trying to start drama for Fun and i get that but like. saying this as one of ur friends asking that kinda thing is... borderline harassment? i know you mean it as a joke but it's the sort of thing that streamers usually get asked as a weird boundary breaking kink thing and it's just uh maybe not the way to go

Ok ok chief, I get where ur coming from. But also I’m not on twitch donating money where this creator will be forced to see it. Im not sending multiple rapid fire tweets about it every day so he sees it. I ain’t in this mans dms demanding answers to this pressing question. I just @‘d him because i know for a FACT, besides the comedy factor that a) the few people who follow me there probably don’t even know I’m active and as such will not be retweeting anything and b) he will not see it. He will never see it. That is a guarantee

NOW WITH THAT SAID. I do understand concerns of fetish farming or whatever, I get it. But I come to my third point c) Jack is not on tumblr. He will not see any possible drama I cause and also d) I don’t know if you’ve noticed but I am VERY unpopular on here, I have NO sway in the politics of the jse community, like I don’t even have ANY association with the big players here on tumblr that would reblog my pee post and propel this out of proportion.

IN CONCLUSION. I’m obviously not gonna make this a thing cause realistically absolutely no one is behind me and I have close to no popularity that would sway people. I am just sitting in my sad little home giggling my booty off and that’s that on that

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Ok I’m going INSANE AT WORK OVER A CONCEPT and that’s the idea of what would happen if, you plucked one of the septic egos, and popped them in a room filled with iplier egos. Will discuss more in-depth when I arrive home

#hint it’s not bad for the reason you think