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“You have to find the right distance between people. Too close, and they overwhelm you, too far and they abandon you.”

— Hanif Kureishi, Intimacy

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For the first time in years I can confidently say, I don’t love you anymore.

#healing #happy #I’m going to make it #words words words #fa la la #I survived #thank goodness

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I wish I was brave enough to kill myself

#i’m done #tw suicice #mentally tired #actually mentally ill #boderline personality disorder #anxitey #stress #post traumatic growth #ptsd #fuck this #i’m angry #i’m sad #it huuuuuuuurts #let me die #can’t be saved #rock bottom #im hurtin #I’m so low #i am a coward #kill my brain #kill my thoughts #kill me #sadnees #hurtful #who am i #disasociation

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Losing you was like losing my religion.

Nothing made sense now that you were gone.

“God has a plan”

But what plan could be without you in it?

“You have to trust in him”

But I can’t fully trust anyone anymore.

“He loves you”

But took away the love of my life.

I lost multiple things the night you left me

#heartache #fuck this #i’m angry #grief quotes #i wish you could see this #i wish you were here #im cryin #i’m sad #fuck my life #griefsucks #words #beautiful words #words of mine #spilled words #fuck you #what the fuck #what the actual fuuuuuck #lost love #twin flame #oklahoma #wild horses #you broke my fucking heart #why cant i be happy #why can’t I move on #why you #why why why #why did you leave #why does it hurt

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In another universe we’re sitting on the couch and I don’t know the pain of you leaving.

In another universe we have an autumn wedding.

In another universe you staid, but in this one - you didn’t.

#heartache #fuck this #i’m angry #grief quotes #i wish you could see this #i wish you were here #im cryin #i’m sad #fuck my life #griefsucks #sad poem #poems and quotes #poems and poetry #my poem #short poem #sadgirl #sad but true #sad thoughts #you broke me #you broke my fucking heart #hurtcore #im hurtin #hurtquotes #i still want you #but ouch #sad goth #my writing #writing

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Two hour light difference

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a you-shaped hole in the universe Celia Paul, Ocean Vuong, Owen Gent, Alejandra Pizarnik (trans. Yvette Siegert), Karman Verdi, Edna St Vincent Millay

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Pictures from a summer morning 3 years ago. 12th of August 2020.

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instagram | milliproust

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instagram | birgittetheresa

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I would do just about anything to get you back, but I would not survive losing you a second time.

I’m begging you to stay gone.

#heartache #fuck this #i’m angry #grief quotes #i wish you could see this #i wish you were here #im cryin #i’m sad #fuck my life #griefsucks #oklahoma #i miss them #i miss him #i will always love him #i will always miss you #i will always be here #my heart #heartbreak #heart hurts #twin flame #soulmates #words #words of mine #sad poem #short poem #original poem #poems and quotes #grief poem #depressing poem #poems on tumblr

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sadie

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“Sometimes life has a cruel sense of humor, giving you the thing you always wanted at the worst time possible.”

— Lisa Kleypas

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