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i look at my characters. they're all a little bit dysfunctional and a little bit fucked up and a little bit feral in their own special ways. a single tear falls down my cheek.

#like i said few days earlier i will be starting fresh and archiving. #and so i've been going over the list of characters i want to keep or pick up. #truly insane assortment of people. #i love them all. #oh. and merlin. but he's like the first on the list.

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whoever's still hanging here, what's up?

#i'm questionably alive myself thanks. #i'm gonna be archiving here and likely merlin to start fresh. it's been too long. #i missed writing for fun and not for work and i missed you guys. and i missed my kids. #to be honest i had a difficult time. i've been sick most of the october and spent a bunch of time in the hospital. #and other than that it's been work and family and this course i started. #i honestly have no clue what's been happening on this site i wasn't even lurking. #that's why i think starting fresh is best. #but i super hope y'all are healthy and happy. #i will post new blogs as soon as i get everything in order. #as long as i even remember how to use this site for rping gbhfeds. it's been so long. #also the p*rn bot spam is horrendous. i had to block so many after my absence.

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what if i just put all my fantasy characters back on this multi.

#it's not ideal but honestly idk if i can handle two multis #especially that i want to bring merlin back. #i'm also back from like two weeks of a trip and illness across my family and me #i just want to write fantasy for now but not only. jumping blog to blog tires me. i don't have the attention span. #idk what do you guys think? #i want to limit the character count too.... #idk.

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being terribly normal about bg3 and my tabletop campaign (is not normal and is in fact insane about dnd and my dnd characters plural).

#i'm gonna focus on my fantasy multi again @fortwild i have such a brainrot. #i love dee en dee so much. #i made my tabletop bard as my primary pc in bg 3 and i'm having the time of my life #i won't have any graphics this week #but it's my first time going on a vacation with all my immediate family in like 8 years give or take #so i will need evenings for myself to stay sane i'm a bit stressed #so i'll linger. #i promised my mom i'd go and she's been sick lately so i thought i might as well. #and i got stood up for my other plans with my friend so. #not tomorrow tho tomorrow we'll be on the road #making a quick stop to see ima/gine drago/ns play in warsaw with my mom.

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with the urge to make all my characters in bg3, i will be playing this game until i'm 80 years old.

#i love this game. so much.

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i would like to thank the gods and devs for gifting me the boon of inspiration in the form of bg3 release. rest assured that between this, my current tabletop campaign, da and the amount of other media i've consumed in the recent weeks, this self imposed hiatus will be over.

#i am very aware i've said this before. and who knows if it's gonna work #but i WANT to make it work. #i'll be honest #i had so many bad things happen in the last year or many ongoing things that still persist. #but also so many good things and new things. #i wasn't really ready to be back online but i missed rping all this time #not even writing because i write often. i'm actually in the middle of writing a book. besides writing for work. #but i miss my kids #i haven't properly rped in a while and i had this fear that i can't do it anymore #but because i had a resurgance of friends who let me just have fun with it #i feel ready. because i'm committed to see it as fun as i used to and not as a chore idk. #i'm also deeply into fantasy right now so i'm thinking of kind of MAYBE rearranging my blogs #but idk. the thing is i have a hard time managing many blogs. but maybe 3 is good enough. #since i also want merlin back. idk.

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new carrd for this blog is up, i'm pretty happy with it.

#i have a few pages to finish. mainly for my ocs and characters i haven't posted yet. #because i'm not sure i feel secure enough to write them after a while. #but yeah ^^ give me thoughts about the look? #i'm also almost done remaking my fantasy multi page #i love my fantasy kids so much <3 i have such a dragon age brainrot atm #i spent far too much time coming up with their entire family trees lmaoooo #anyway. i'm trying to pull all my carrds into one account and close the rest #almost done with it. #i wanna get back on all my blogs which does also include merlin and possibly chris #besides the multis. we'll see tho #BTW really give me thoughts if you can't see something or stuff like that #i want to make things accessible to everyone :pray:

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in lieu of bg3's release date being moved forward, i shall manifest an official da4 release date.

#working in game dev professionally for some years now has changed my perspective a bit #enough to know things are looking not so good in bio/ware land as well. #ANYWAY. i'm getting things in order #i'm literally about to have issues with my carrd because my plan is ending #and i have issues extending it (it's ending today) #but the carrd people are fast at replying unlike the staff of this website #once i get it under control i'll be publishing new carrds for my kids and some muses revamps here and there

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kiss for varric and his tits out in the wind.

#i'm watching my sister play dai #helping her play a bit #and then i'll be on i have thoughts

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it's really unbelievable to me how in my new dnd campaign my bard, of all people, is the voice of reason for the rest of the party simply because the party is a group of deeply deranged people, each one worse than the other.

#my bard. a pathological liar. looking at the group of unhinged morons: #i can't believe you're making me be the voice of reason #the only other person that's somewhat reasonable is her long lost brother #i guess it runs in the family #all of our characters do dumb things mind you but omg the level of deranged choices in this group #never have i had such a chaotic party gvbrfehdjnef #life is busy busy busy but i'm stronger #for once i was busy with social stuff #one of my friends is getting married on july 8th and we were throwing her a bachelorette party #among other things

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takes a deep breath not to be possessed by my teenage self, but having rewatched a couple of sp/n s1 episodes, i truly understand why i used to be obsessed with this show.

#early seasons are everything #i think it's because i grew up on charmed AND buffy #the american gothic speaks to me and the first seasons were IT #anyway this year is about to kill me i've been struggling with health so much #i'm recovering from being sick again because chronic and autoimmune shit said fuck you @ me #i wanted to watch something low brain and turns out my brain saved SO MUCH space #for spn quotes lol #i wanted to rewatch merlin but i have no clue where to watch it #someone told me it's on disney+ but not in poland?? or it's not anymore #i do have vpn so if any of you know lemme know

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maybe i am a little too insane about media.

#not really #i got into a fight with a coworker just now #about the elves' in DA #and his opinions about endgame #talking about mar/vel yes. #fdjksrd #i'm glad my other coworker who thought flint turning out gay ruined the show for him #because i would simply lose it. #why are MEN #anyway i am going home gonna be online

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for this week, the list is as follows:

suffering with hayfever extraordinaire, giving me an actual fever that had me sleep from 5:30pm until this morning

but i'm almost done with a new carrd with a revised list of characters, so yay for writing !!

this is the first month my latest raise at work is implemented

and that's on being able to call myself the art director (on top of fifty other design related things i do for here, this company isn't too big so far)

planning a new list of spells for my dnd characters because we're rising to level 7 on next week's session

my book about storytelling and pacing finally arrived, it's been amazing

#my point is that i will be on i'm almost done #i love working where i work #i get to write all the time and be creative but a lot of it lately has just been management #and meetings #i've had so much to do i feel burnt out and also hayfever is killing me #but i'm so desperate to do creative things for me and i miss my kids #also i finished reading md/zs so i'm done with the mx/tx trifecta of books #i have others on kindle waiting for me #maybe i should catch up on te/d lass/o

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Krystyna Zofia Turska was born in 1933 and spent her childhood in Poland until World War II. In 1940, Krystyna and her family were arrested and deported to the Gulag in the USSR. She escaped to Persia and finally reached England in 1948. Krystyna studied at the Hammersmith School of Art and became an illustrator and author of children’s books. 

#doing blog maintenance for my kids #enjoy my slavic subliminal messaging #vola: about. #baba jaga: about.

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do you guys ever aggressively love your friends?

#i have this friend i've known for 20 years #we had lots of fights our personalities diverged #we fell apart and met up on and off #yet i just talked to her because i finally motivated myself to go to the gym #i wanted her to go with me because we're both bad at this and she's feeling depressed but happy i offered #and i'm crying at work because i want her to be the Happiest :/// #why are aries people this way #either aggressive love or angry ranting rip #anyway i finished md/zs what if i add mx/tx characters who's gonna stop me

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i don't want to sound dramatic, but my dnd trip was so much fun.

#am i exhausted? yes #was it worth it anyway? also yes #feeling inspired to write today so stay tuned. #FINALLY MY HIATUS IS OVER BABEY #and somehow i don't even have a hangover

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my most beloveds, between work, tutoring my sister for her high school finals so she can actually get into uni and some personal and health stuff, i had no brainspace to be online these days, but after this weekend is done, i'll be back to business, because i miss my children and i miss writing for fun. it just has to be after this weekend, because ya girl is finally going on a little holiday friday - sunday with my work friends, who are also fellow nerds, and we're gonna play dnd while in the mountains.

#miss you all. #i'm so excited to get a break though honestly #i'm playing a female bard whom i LOVE #one of my coworkers is my long lost brother. he's a monk and we don't know about it #but i'm so excited i've been so stressed #it's nice to play dnd again #there's a chance i might add her #on my fantasy blog #anyway see you soon.