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You do not have to stay up and wait. The end of the world is not coming. You do not have to act as a witness. Nothing bad will happen if you close your eyes. Go to sleep. The man called Jesus is dead. The terror of that night was over a long time ago. Humans hurt each other all the time. It doesn't mean anything. There is nothing you can do about it right now. It's late. The world will still be there in the morning.

Go to sleep.

#|| the disciple || #ex catholic #ex christian #exvangelical #exmo #ex jw #ex lds #deconstructing christianity #religious trauma

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I used to volunteer for a Christian homeless outreach program. Giving out food donations, gently used clothes, prepping and giving out hot meals, such and such. The leader would also preach to the people waiting in lines for their next meal, before they were allowed to get it. Some people would come later when the sermons were basically over. And, I remember him essentially shaming them for it, bc how could you just come for your physical nourishment and not your spiritual nourishment?

That’s manipulation. That’s guilt tripping. No one should be forced to listen to your drawn out babble about God when they and their children are starving.

#|| the disciple || #ex catholic #ex christian #exvangelical #religious trauma #deconstructing christianity #ex cath

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narratively christianity is pretty cool i think it should have been a jrpg instead of a religion though

#|| the disciple || #ex catholic #ex christian #exvangelical #religious trauma #deconversion #apostate #apostasy #ex religious

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there’s something uniquely fucked up about the way christianity actively encourages martyrdom.

both judaism and islam do not encourage their followers to be honest about being a member of the faith if it puts their lives at risk. the latter religion even has a word for it— taqiyyah.

the christian view on martyrdom claims that followers cannot “actively seek out” dying for the faith. but, because of the rewards christianity promises to martyrs (i.e. guaranteed access to literal heaven) there is always a subliminal push towards getting yourself killed.

not to mention, it’s a core tenet of christianity to not deny christ, even if you’re at risk of harm (peter denying christ three times the night before the crucifixion, etc.)

the damage these teachings can cause vary due to circumstance. in countries like the united states, it means children being told they need to say “yes” if a shooter puts a gun to their head and asks them “are you christian?”. in countries like libya, it means oppressed people being pushed to put their lives on the line because they feel like they’re betraying the faith otherwise.

at it’s worst, christian martyrdom encourages groups of people—living under forces that are actively oppressing them— to sacrifice their lives to make a point. if they don’t, they risk the salvation of their souls.

#|| the disciple || #tw || death #ex cath #ex catholic #ex christian #exvangelical #religious deconstruction #deconstructing christianity #apostate #apostasy #extian #leaving the church #anti catholic

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everyone's doomed by the narrative bitch let's get you some fruit

#|| revelations || #ex cath #ex catholic #exvangelical #religious deconstruction

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Zionists want you to conflate Judaism and Zionism. Zionists want you to believe that Judaism cannot exist without Zionism and that all Jews are Zionists. Zionism would have Jews believe that a Jewish state is the only way that they can be safe from antisemitism and will point to any instance of antisemitism as proof that Zionism is the solution- so Zionism wants gentiles to be antisemitic in their support of Palestine. They want you to conflate all Jews with Zionism and the state of Israel, and they want you to treat all Jews regardless of political affiliation as the face of Israel. Antizionist Jews exist, and incidences of antisemitism ostensibly acting against Zionism will not help dismantle the forces propping Zionism up.

Don't do their work for them.

#|| personal || #free palestine #free gaza #palestine #gaza #🇵🇸 #progressive politics #leftist politics #antisemitism

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conservative evangelical approaching a stranger in public: "excuse me, God told me to come talk to you.😇" translation: "excuse me, i noticed that something about you seems to go against my very specific sensibilities and i want to come shame you and try to threaten you with eternal hellfire unless you conform to my worldview.😇"

#|| the disciple || #ex catholic #ex christian #exvangelical #religious trauma #deconversion #apostate #apostasy #ex fundie #ex religious #ex cath #ex cult #religious deconstruction #deconstructing christianity #leaving the church

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hey pope francis, if god doesn't like gender-affirming surgery so much, maybe he shoulda made me right the first fuckin' time

#|| the disciple || #ex catholic #ex christian #exvangelical #religious trauma #ex cult #deconversion #apostate #apostasy #ex religious #ex cath #ex fundie #religious deconstruction #deconstructing christianity #leaving the church

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Eid Mubarak to my Ex-Muslims

You did it. It was hard, it was tough, it was long. But you made it.

Whether you had to sneak food and water in secret.

Whether you had to put up with fully fasting involuntarily.

Whether you fasted voluntarily.

Whether you were able to eat freely without abandon.

Eid Mubarak. You made it. Enjoy, eat to your heart’s content. You deserve it.

I’m so proud of you all <3

#to all my ex muslim mutuals: you are strong ❤️ #|| the disciple || #ex muslim #leaving islam #ex islam #apostate #apostasy #religious deconstruction #ex religious #losing my religion

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Finding worn books and buildings

#|| hallowed ground || #dark academia #light academia #cathedral aesthetic

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*plays the world's smallest violin for the Catholics who whine and cry about Joan of Arc being appropriated by non-Catholics*

#|| hallowed ground || #cry harder lmao #joan of arc #jeanne d'arc

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i wish catholics understood that queer people are not welcomed in the church.

the most progressive pope in history still lambasts gender theory and gender-affirming surgery.

yes, there was some semblance of community in that space. but not for me, never for me. i was never whole, in church. the person i was in that space was always an empty shell, because i was forced to cut out my heart and insides and leave them at the door to come in.

now that i have freed myself, i am outside and whole and more joyful than i ever was in that space. can you begin to see how inviting me to subject myself to that again is not love?

i understand that you want the best for your queer ex-catholic friends. but listen to us and our experiences when we tell you about the selves we had to kill just to be accepted, and how we were only able to begin to accept and heal ourselves after leaving. i was told constantly that this desire, this part of myself, my very heart, was sinful, that it had to be culled. can you begin to see why this led me to believe i was better dead than alive?

please understand this, before you ask. that is all i request.

#|| the disciple || #tw || death #religious trauma #ex cath #ex catholic #ex fundie #exvangelical #extian #religious deconstruction #deconstructing christianity #ex cult #catholic guilt #lgbtq

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i’ve read so much tradcath bullshit the last two years. i can confidently say tradcath men fit into one of two categories:

“protestant-raised and converted to catholicism because of his crippling porn addiction and racist tendencies. reposts crusader and conquistador memes. is hated in his local parish.” tradcath

“catholic-raised band kid who ate his lunches with the religion teacher. smells like mildew. cut off all his friends that came out as gay after high school. now larps as an aquinian scholar and cries after jerking off.” tradcath

#|| the disciple || #ex catholic #ex christian #exvangelical #ex cath #religious trauma #ex fundie #deconversion #ex cult #apostate #apostasy #ex religious

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#|| revelations || #cathcore #fallen angel #seraphim aesthetic #seraphim #demoncore #angelcore #ex catholic #divinecore #dark academia #light academia #religioncore #renaissance aesthetic

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i feel like people who were raised religious & gradually started questioning everything they had been told and eventually decided to leave those beliefs behind deserve to burn the holy book of the certain religion at least once in their lifetime

#honestly #|| the disciple || #ex catholic #ex cath #exvangelical #ex muslim #ex religious #ex mormon #exmo #ex jw #ex lds #extian #ex christian #ex cult #ex fundie #religious deconstruction #leaving islam

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i cannot describe how much purity culture hurt.

#|| the disciple || #ex cath #ex catholic #ex cult #ex fundie #ex mormon #exmo #ex lds #ex jw #exvangelical #ex muslim #ex religious #religious trauma #religious deconstruction

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I will never seek the approval of a god. If a sentient godlike force exists, their sins infinitely outnumber mine.

#|| the disciple || #ex cath #ex catholic #exvangelical #exmo #ex jw #ex mormon #religious trauma #catholic guilt #apostate #apostasy #religious deconstruction #deconstructing christianity