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anyone else have a safe food that makes absolutely no sense? i be downing honey like it’s 0 calories

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i don’t wanna be sick anymore . i wanna eat without thinking twice about whether i should try and hold out a bit longer. i wanna be able to enjoy memories without the looming though of how much i’m ruining my progress. i want to finally accept and be happy about myself no matter what the scale reads that morning.

but then again, i also want to be sicker. i want to look the part, to have my bones showing. i want people to look at me and worry. i don’t want to betray the voice in my head that tells me i have to be perfect. i cant help but feel like i’m abandoning a friend, someone who was only looking out for my best interests all along. but i’m so exhausted, hating every part of myself and never thinking of anything else is truly exhausting. and i’m fucking tired.

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my therapist literally told me she has patients way sicker than me who eat 3 sugar free jellos a day. like first of all why r u telling me that 🤔 and second i’m omw to go buy some jello i will be the best >:/

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HEAVY ON THIS ONE ^^

i’m not doing bad enough to deserve or need help because i’m happy sometimes and i can usually function “normally”.

but i have cuts covering my arm and i’m eating badly.

but i shouldn’t be doing those things because i should be able to cope and i’m not doing that badly.

but i clearly can’t cope if i’m resulting to these negative coping mechanisms.

but i’m not like going to kms or anything.

but i wouldn’t be complaining if i didn’t wake up tomorrow.

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it’s fucking exhausting to not like a single thing about yourself

#an0rex1c #just ed stuff #tw eating things #eating problems #tw s3lf harm #counting calories #tw ana things #not pr0 ana #ana tingz #ana relapse #ana #4norex1c #4n4 tips #4na tips #4n0r3x14 #pr0 4n4

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i literally keep fucking up. looking for an ana buddy to motivate each other n stuff like that. if ur interested please please message me i’m in need. NO MINORS PLS !!!

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i love the way my face hollows when i starve. when my cheeks concave when i talk and my cheekbones poke out. my facial structure begins looking more skeletal and sunken rather than bloated. it makes me feel so good about myself.

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does anyone else have no problem when they are actively eating, like most of the time i’m happy to be eating something like i’m fucking hungry. it’s just the guilt after that fucking gets me

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if i don’t lose 10lbs by new years im literally going to saw off my head and throw it into the ocean 🥸🥸gimme tips pls lovelies 🥰🥰

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Hello please reblog this if you’re okay with people sending you random asks to get to know you better

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i feel like i’m being wrung out like a wet rag. all my happiness, passion, inspiration, motivation, and feelings are being drained out and i’m left with just the shell of who i used to be

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i wish i was the type of person who starves when they’re sad, the second i feel any sadness creep in i literally binge sm. its fucking annoying

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the feeling of having a thigh gap must be so euphoric, like j being able to walk without ur legs brushing each other must feel so fucking nice i cant wait

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i would describe my relationship with food as abusive

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the binge restrict cycle go BRAZY i fucking hate it

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lmao idk but i feel like they do sometimes but my brain is fucked so who knows 😹

my toxic trait is believing that my thighs bloat seconds after eating literally anything :>

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my toxic trait is believing that my thighs bloat seconds after eating literally anything :>

#an0rex1c #anorekic #i want to be skiny #just ed shit #just ed stuff #tw eating things #tw ed thoughts #eating problems #not pr0 just using tags #tw ana things #ana #not pr0 ana #4n4 tips #4norex1c