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When you forget them🖤🖤🖤

Pairings: Straw hat boys x f!reader

Characters: Luffy, Sanji, Usopp, Zoro

Tw: Angst/ Fluffy ending/ slightly suggestive in Zoro's/ Whole cake island spoilers in Sanji's

Notes: I went overboard on everybody's ngl; This is written a little wonky; This is proofread but there may still be mistakes, especially because I'm editing this at 4 am🖤🖤🖤

S: When you get attacked by an enemy with a memory-erasing devil fruit, there's a few of your crew mates that take it harder than the others

🖤Luffy

Luffy knew something was wrong when he heard the way Nami yelled for him, and felt his stomach drop when he saw everyone crowded around you.

Doesn't take it well, would probably panic and handle it as if he's lost a crewmate. What do you mean you don't remember him? That didn't make sense. You've been through so much together.

Might grab your shoulders, shake them a little in his desperation,looking in your eyes with a stern glare and telling you different things you've done with the crew and with him, but the longer you just look at him confused, the more desperate he gets, the louder his voice gets, and the tighter his grip gets on your shoulders. He's scaring you at this point, this guy you don't know but that desperately wants you to, so Sanji and Usopp have to yank him away, telling him to calm down and that it's not going to work that way.

He's a little out of it for a while after that, probably spending his time sitting quietly on the Sunny's head. This is definitely one of those times when he needs support and a pep talk from Zoro. Needs him to tell him to stay strong and be the captain you need right now even if it hurts that you no longer remember him.

Fortunately, you're smart enough to know that these people are important to you, even if you don't remember them, and that something happened that erased your memory of them, so you don't fault Luffy for his hectic reaction for long before sympathizing with him. The only problem is that you don't know what to do to help, not knowing what might actually help and what might hurt.

He's not sure how to approach you for the first few weeks after your memory is wiped either. He tries to approach you cheerfully a few times, but he didn't like the feeling he got in his belly when you looked at him. Something in your eyes was missing. It didn't feel like the you he was used to because all the affection and familiarity was gone. It was gone and he didn't know how to bring it back, especially since he doesn't know how or why he ever received it in the first place. So he just misses you quietly from afar for a little while and the entire crew can feel how forlorn he is.

He gets tired of this quickly though because let's face it, he can't stay away from you for very long. He figures if he starts to treat you like normal again then eventually you'll feel normal again too. Being sweet and being all in our face, hanging off of you. Sanji has to remind him to ask for your permission before invading your space and sticking to you like glue, but what Sanji doesn't know is that you actually like it a lot, because even though it technically shouldn't feel familiar, it does. It's like muscle memory when you naturally wrap your arms around him when he hugs you, or how comfortably you sit onto his lap when he pulls you over by your hand. It feels right even if you can't recall all the times you two have been affectionate in the past.

It's a joyous day when your memory returns a month or so later.

You conceal your laughter when you bump into Luffy's back, resulting in him hurriedly shushing you while laughing a little himself. You two are currently sneaking into the kitchen after lunch because Luffy convinced you to somehow, claiming that he was still hungry. So now,after one more glance at Sanji, who was currently arguing with Zoro, Luffy tugs you into the kitchen after him. You watch him from the door(because you're on lookout duty) with a fond cross between a frown and a smile as he greedily rummages through the fridge.

“How can you still be hungry after the show you put on at lunch?” You sigh with crossed arms as you watch him pick out some things for you both to snack on later. Luffy just pouts the way he usually does when he's lying.

“I didn't even eat that much.” He mumbles unconvincingly, making you laugh.

“You almost ate Chopper! Just like that time in Alabasta!” You remind him with an eye roll before pausing and frowning. You remembered Luffy slurping Chopper up with his noodles. Not just the image you created for yourself after Luffy's reenactment of the story. You remembered the dinner. You vividly remember sitting at the dining table with your crew. You had the honor of having a seat by King Cobra that day,but that also meant sitting next to Luffy and having to watch him scarf down food. You even remember almost choking on your own when you saw Chopper fly across the table, before tugging him out of Luffy's mouth. Luffy notices your silence and looks up at you from where he's crouched in front of the fridge.

“Hey, what's wrong? Is Sanji coming?” He asks as he watches you stare into space near the door. With wide eyes you look up at him.

“Alabasta.” You say quietly while staring at him, and Luffy just tilts his head at you with a frown.

“Alabasta? What's the matter? Do you want me to tell you about Alabasta again?” He inquires, not understanding what you're trying to say. He's told you about that adventure before, but he'd gladly tell you again if you want him to. You just look at him and shake your head quickly.

“No Luffy! I remember Alabasta! I remember you almost eating Chopper with your noodles!” You shout at him with big eyes,waving your hands through the air a little as other memories come flooding back. Luffy's eyes grow in size too once he realizes what you're telling him.

“You do!?” He shouts and you nod your head.

“I do!” You scream back before Luffy scoops you up in a hug and spins you around, the both of you screaming excitedly. You have your memories back. You both continue to hug before Luffy quickly puts you down and pulls you with him out the kitchen door, yelling to everyone that there's good news.

***🖤***

🖤Sanji

Sanji is stunned when you first ask who they all are, before looking at him with the same confused look. While everyone else asks you questions and crowds you, Sanji just falls behind, numb. You don't remember them? Him? You don't remember him? Did that mean everything you two had gone through to be together was gone? Every event? Every conversation? Has that all disappeared?

You and Sanji had been through so much before finally being together. Pining for one another, jealousy, misunderstandings, deep conversations, your heartfelt confessions, the entire whole cake island scenario and his brief arranged marriage. So much, before getting to the point you both were now. So Sanji is more than heartbroken when you give him those kind smiles you'd give him so long ago instead of the affectionate and familiar ones he'd gotten used to.

Unlike with a few of the other boys in this list, Sanji doesn't spend time apart from you in his sadness. Even if things are different and his heart aches when you stick to yourself or behave overly polite with everyone, it would hurt him even worse if he couldn't see you. So Sanji still pampers you like he always does. Maybe not with kisses and sweet nothing's like before, but with the same consideration and attention nonetheless. Waiting on you hand and foot, putting your safety first, and swooning whenever you so much as breath(just not as outwardly as before, not yet anyway)

He's tempted to hang around you even more than usual, hoping that spending more time together would speed up the process of getting back to normal, but as much as a rush as he's in, he can see that you're not comfortable being on a ship full of strangers,, even if you know you technically know who they are, so he restrains himself until you open up to him first.

Fortunately you open up to everyone pretty quickly, your friendship with them feeling like second nature to you despite all your different personalities. And to Sanji's extreme pleasure, you warm up to him too,because luckily, you're still very much attracted to his personality( as well as his looks ahem) so it's not long before you develop a crush on him again just like before. Even if you both aren't as close as you used to be yet, all that time getting to know one another better than anyone else, non-existent, he does find it cute how considerate you are when it comes to initiating things. Always asking if you guys used to do this or that, if he was comfortable with you doing this, and his favorite, if you could kiss him. As if you had to ask.

The day your memory returns you wake up in your guy's room, unconsciously looking for him as you gain your bearings. It isn't until after you rub the sleep out your eyes that you remember that for the month your memory had been gone, for your own comfort, Sanji had offered to stay in the boy's quarters again. Sanji. You suddenly feel your nose and face start to burn. You rub at your eyes and watch the tear drip down your hand, confused. Why were you crying? You look back at the empty spot next to you and feel the tears spill freely down your face again. You suddenly wanted to see Sanji so desperately, as if you haven't seen him in a long time, and without even realizing it you start to recall memories of him. The one that stood out the most, being the first time your eyes landed on him after getting separated in dressrosa and finding out he'd left Zou.

Sanji's quick on his feet when he hears you crying his name, and bursts through your door in seconds to find you sobbing on the bed.

“What's the matter baby?! What happened?!” He asks quickly and runs over to crouch in front of you. Sanji takes your face in his hands and wipes the tears with his thumbs but they just keep on coming.

“Please sweetheart. Are you alright?”Sanji tries again, needing you to calm the pulse in his chest, but you just continue to say his name quietly while looking at him with watery eyes. It didn't seem to him like anyone or anything had hurt you, but maybe that bastard's devil fruit was having another affect on you somehow. Either way, he wanted the tears to stop. He just sits and thinks for a moment before realizing something.

“Is this about your memory? I told you darling, it'll come back somehow so don't worry!-”Sanji tries to reassure you until you abruptly tug him into you, wrapping your arms around his shoulders in a tight hug. Pressing your face into his shoulder, you try to calm yourself so you can tell him the good news, but the tears wouldn't stop flowing. It was as if your body was making up for all the sadness you couldn't fully comprehend this past month. You feel Sanji start to rub your back, probably deciding it's best to wait until you can speak. So you take your time before finally telling him what you really want to say.

“I missed you.” You sigh with relief.

***🖤***

🖤Usopp

Does the same as Luffy for a moment, in the way he tries to run down different events you've all been through together, even tempted to tell you about some of his more embarrassing secrets that only you know, to see if it'll spark something, any of your precious memories together.

For the first couple weeks Usopp's discomfort is definitely the most obvious. The sniper is uncharacteristically quiet, his normal complaints, jokes, and screams basically non-existent. He's prickly, but he can't help it.He tries to control the pained look on his face whenever you ignorantly believe one of his exaggerated stories and turn to ask the crew if you all really did those things, or when he brings up one of the countless adventures you've all been through and you're the only one who can't relate now,but he can't help but deflate along with the entire cheerful atmosphere before dismissing himself. It feels bad for you too because even if it was unintentional you knew you had ruined the mood on the ship.

He knew it couldn't be helped because you don't know any better but that was the problem. You didn't know better because you didn't know him anymore.

So yeah it takes a few weeks before he approaches you ready to start over but he'd help you get to know him all over again a hundred times if it meant not letting your relationship die. Fortunately once he approaches you like he did when you both first met, things progress pretty quickly.

He sticks to you and is like your personal memory translator, all it takes is you looking over at him after hearing someone say something you don't understand, and he's quick to fill in the context for you. Because of this you naturally stick closer to him, just like before all this happened, eventually leading to you spending time with him outside of when he was helping you “regain” your memories, popping into his workshop to say hi, sitting next to him and asking about his new gadgets. Usopp had been trying to give you your space whenever he wasn't filling you in on things, but with you persistently approaching him , technically as a stranger, it's like he falls for you all over again, embarrassingly quickly at that. And the feeling is mutual.

Even if it hurts him when certain inside jokes he reflexively brings up go right over your head,or certain things you two used to do seamlessly end up being a little awkward,he's still really happy that nothing beside your memory has changed. You're still you and you guy's chemistry is still amazing. You click with him again right away, things like your shared humor, pet peeves, and fears making it easy for you to become friends with and develop feelings for him again. You two share your first( since this happened anyway) kiss much sooner than he ever expected.

It’s an energetic day on the Sunny, with everyone chilling on the deck in one way or another. The most noticeable being the boys kicking a ball across the lawn, turning it into a loud and wild game. You've made the mistake of drawing peacefully near their playing area, not remembering that not even 10 feet of space between you and them is enough to keep you safe. So you don't realize you're in the danger zone until it's too late and the ball is already bouncing off the back of your head.

“Oh no! Y/n are you alright?!” You hear Usopp yell, as well as the profanities Sanji is shouting at Luffy. Usopp runs up to you before squatting down, all while you groan and rub your head.

“You okay? He asks you softly while rubbing your back.

“Yeah I'm ok. It's not the first time Luffy's antics have almost killed me.” You grumble with annoyance lacing your voice, and everyone pauses to look at you. Looking around at everyone's wide eyes, you frown.

“What's wrong with you guys?” You ask and again the irritation in your tone catches everyone off guard.

“Uh- it's just that-! Y-you got mad at Luffy just now!” Usopp stutters and your frown deepens because you don't understand why everyone is being so weird. The reason they're so shocked though, is because ever since your memory got erased, you've been walking on eggshells around everybody. You were always speaking to everyone politely, or watching everyone quietly and soaking up information, and most importantly, you always say ‘it's no problem’ when Luffy does something dumb. If you were in your normal grumpy mood right now, it had to mean one thing.

“Quick! Say something only you would know!” Usopp yelps quickly, desperate to confirm what he's thinking as soon as possible, and your crewmates crowd around you as well. You look around at their urgent expressions before scratching your head.

“Um- remember that time you were eating grapes and telling me that story about the platypus? But you got too excited, so you choked on one and it hit me in the forehead? Or that time in your room last month-?!” You run down until Usopp clears his throat loudly, to cut you off.

“O-kay! Y/n's got her memory back!” He announces quickly before tackling you in a hug, and your crewmates start to cheer. You just cradle his head, while the ship erupts into chaos around you.

What did you miss?

***🖤***

🖤Zoro

Zoro doesn't have a big reaction at all. He doesn't follow you around trying to get you to remember him or try to reenact special moments with you, instead he actually avoids you. Spending all his time in the crows nest, rarely coming down even for meals. Anyone that wasn't part of his crew would think that he's being a jerk and not doing enough, but anyone who knows him knows that he's doing this because he can't stand to watch you not remember him.

He can't look at you only to receive a startled jump because he caught you staring. Maybe someone else would find that cute but to Zoro all it does is remind him that you no longer remember just how much he loves when your attention is on him, when he catches your eye. He can't watch you tip toe around him and do your best not to bug him because you don't know Zoro better than he knows himself anymore and instead think he's the cold and grumpy swordsman other people, people he doesn't care about, see him as. He just can't do it.

So he spends all his time in the crow's nest, going over all your guy's precious moments in his head instead. That or he'll sleep and dream of the you he's used to. He'll do this or workout, all day, and he's just fine with that(he's not) that is until you put a wrench in his plans. Just like the before, you seek him out first.

The crew are the ones to tell you just how close you and Zoro are and that you both are lovers, explaining why he seemed to be taking this harder than everyone else. Even after hearing this information though, you don't approach him right away, not knowing if it was right to show your face to him if the sight of you hurt him so much that hid himself away in the crow’s nest. But after a while something in you can't take avoiding him anymore, an ache growing in your belly that resembled the emptiness you feel when you're hungry. You missed him, because even if your mind doesn't remember him, your body and most importantly, your heart, did. So to stop the gnawing pain in your chest, you climb up the ladder, so you and Zoro can confront this obstacle together.

Of Course zoro doesn't want you up there with him, it defeated the entire purpose of running from you in the first place, but all it takes is one plea from you, asking if you can just spend some time together and promising that you don't have to talk or bring up past memories, that you just want to sit up there with him, and his resolve melts away to nothing. It didn't matter if things were different, he'd let you have your way and he won't say no to you, if you missed his company, you'd get it, because he'd never hurt you for the sake of his own feelings.

And that's how you start spending time together again. At first it starts with simply sitting in the crow's nest quietly, watching him workout, or Zoro Napping next to you, just finding comfort and contentment in one another's presence. But before you know it you both start engaging in short conversation, explaining his workout to you, or asking about the magazine you're flipping through, and it's not long before you both start to hang out comfortably. For you anyway, because even if Zoro feels his heart beat a little quicker or a smile threatening to appear on his face at the cute smile you send him before saying goodnight, his heart drops the moment you leave. Because even if this was better, it wasn't the same. He wants to hold you, kiss you, and go to sleep in your arms. He wanted your memories of him back.

When Zoro hears your scream, he's instantly sprinting back towards where he left you. The Strawhats had stopped on an island to see if there were a few things you could find to use as supplies, and you were partnered with him ( to keep him from getting lost of course). Zoro had accidentally drifted away from you for what felt like a second, before he heard you shriek at the top of your lungs.

“What's the matter!? What happened!?” He shouts as he runs up to you, after three previous attempts that is. He finds you standing still and looking up at one of the trees surrounding you both.

“Look!” You gasp and point at the tree, and Zoro follows your finger with his eyes. In the tree is a bird that looked familiar, but he couldn't remember where he's seen it before.

“Ok?” He frowns, confused. When you just look at him with wide eyes and continue to point at it, like you were waiting for him to realize something, he gets frustrated.

“Would you just tell me what the hell is going on?!” Zoro shouts comically, tired of playing charades with you and ready to hear the reason you had his heart racing a hundred miles a minute.

“Look! It looks like one of the South birds from Jaya! I saw it and I immediately thought of the South birds and how they sent those giant bugs after us! Zoro! I've got my memories back!” You ramble on excitedly until you see the skeptical look on his face and pause.

“ Zoro? I just told you my memories have returned.” You frown and Zoro just continues to frown.

“Has it though? You sure Usopp didn't tell you about that story already?” he sighs and scratches his head. It may seem like he was being harsh, but in reality Zoro just didn't want to get his hopes up. He needed more than birds to convince him that his precious memories with you had returned, and you knew that, so you decided to prove it to him.

“Could someone else tell me that you like to get your hair played with when we kiss? Or that your back is your most sensitive spot and running my nails over your shoulder blades makes you-?” You're cut off when Zoro smashes his lips against yours, almost knocking you off your feet. Your eyes get big for a moment, not expecting him to react so quickly, but you easily close them and tilt your head.

“ I thought you'd be embarrassed.” You gasp after you begrudgingly pull away to breathe, not wanting even an inch of space between you both. Obviously Zoro felt the same way, if his dilated pupils and the look in his eye were anything to go by, the intensity in them being enough to make your legs weak. Well it would if he wasn't carrying you above the ground.

“ I don't care about any of that, just kiss me again.” Zoro huffs breathlessly before tugging you into another kiss. He didn't want to talk. He didn't want to tell you how much he missed you, or announce to the crew that you had your memories back. He just wanted to hold you as close as possible, and kiss you until you both forgot that you had ever forgotten him in the first place .

A/n: I've had this in the wips for SO LONG, it's not even funny. I think it turned out pretty well though, considering the fact that I was SUPER stumped on what to do with Usopp and Zoro's towards the end. Glad I finally finished this and I hope you all liked it. Thanks for reading!🖤🖤🖤

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