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People complaining that the checks ruining the formatting of the website have forgotten their roots! This is the shitty formatting website and always has been

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Could have had my first trip today but apparently Adam Sandler movies and cartoons were more important.

I'm so over feeling like the last thing on your mind.

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I feel like a whole entire object. Just a toy. A vessel. A feeling I haven't felt in ages.

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You’ve heard of a ball bearing, now get ready for…

A BEAR BALLING

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babygirl you would not believe the superiority complex me and the other never left tumblr homies have right now

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oh hey, did anyone show/tell you about I II II L

They don’t teach Roman numerals properly in school anymore? What a loss.

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How absolutely wild to flat out say "I don't want to be friends with this people" with tears in your eyes, yet you continue to talk to them and like their posts more often than their own damn partners do.

Why lie to me?

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A monstrous turtle emerges from the muck.

It’s gigantic.

Look closely - a typically-sized Midwestern turtle sits next to its foot.

It must be close to its size-limit, with a possible 30-inch diameter shell and weighing well in excess of 100 pounds. It’s possible that this beast is 40+ years old.

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god some of you are just so weird about having content on this site

"justify"?! babes it's a bullshit internet scrapbook not a fucking phd thesis

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“My 20s have been the loneliest era in my life. I am surrounded by people but not connecting with anyone. Everyone is living their own lives while I am still waiting for mine to start. I feel lost between what I should be feeling and how I actually feel.”

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Self harm doesn’t always happen when a blade touches skin.

It’s skipping meals because you don’t feel like you deserve to eat today. It’s having sex because you want to be used or abused or defiled. It’s drinking recklessly because you might have the ‘courage’ do something stupid. It’s smoking - not because you need the nicotine - because you know it’s bad for you. It’s banging your head against a wall when you’re angry. It’s crossing the road without looking because you lowkey hope a car might hit you. It’s thinking about all the ways you could break a bone and make it look like an accident. It’s not taking painkillers because you want to suffer. It’s taking painkillers in excess because you know it’s dangerous. It’s walking home the more dangerous way because you’re kind of half hoping you’ll get attacked or raped or stabbed. It’s going for long walks at night and getting chilled to the bone and hoping that you get lost so that you can’t find your way back. It’s seeking out triggering material. It’s all the stupid little ways you punish yourself for existing.

Sometimes self harm happens when you put effort into depriving yourself of things you like or need, and sometimes it happens when you don’t put any effort into doing the things you like or need.

It’s a pattern of self-destructive behaviour, and it doesn’t only happen in one way.

This sort of behavior is classified as “para-suicidal” It’s putting yourself in a situation of danger or destruction with the intention of risking your safety rather than a direct attempt on your life. Kind of, leaving it all to chance? Also doing things to harm yourself or your self worth because you feel you deserve to feel the outcome of those actions.

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Me: I would like to rest.

Also me: I would like to exacerbate my anxiety and not put my phone down and look at sad memes.

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