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life has been so crazy lately but here’s a rant post.

i’m honestly tired of random hook ups. like they make me feel like i’m enough in the moment but after i just feel like no one could actually love me. maybe if i were skinnier guys would want me for more than sex ? idk i was going through my snapchat and there’s just all of these random guys who want to hu but i don’t even enjoy it. i feel like that’s all i’m good for though. ive never had a relationship last more than a few months and even then it was all centered around sex. idk what i need to do to change it

i’m at my friends house tn and i was trying to talk ab my feelings and shit and she just kind of blew me off and i feel like i’m this big burden on everyone. i’m annoying and sad all the time and i basically have to be dragged out of my house to do anything and no one wants to deal with it. i say i’m only living for everyone else in my life but i just feel like they don’t actually care about me. they say they love me or that they care but no one really makes an effort to show it and i don’t want to sound selfish or all about me, but i wish for once i could feel wanted.

and my eating has been so bad lately. i just eat whatever and whenever and i feel so hideous. i tell myself to just refuse everything but it feels like i just can’t help myself.

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hey everyone! sorry ive been inactive, life just has not been on my side. first it was mental health probs and now i have the flu :( ill start posting more when i start feeling better! <3

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✨ reblog if ✨

You have an eating disorder but it doesn’t look like you do.

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i love how my dad thinks i just spend all of my money on food. he’s encouraging me to get a job and he was like “now you’ll have your own money to waste on mcdonald’s” … thanks 😀

#just ed thoughts #just ed stuff #eating problems #ana tingz #not pr0 ana #not pr0 just using tags #ed stuff #eating disoder mention #4n4 buddy

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to reiterate, i AM NOT encouraging/romanticizing ed’s. if you are in recovery or do not want to see my posts, pls block and unfollow, instead of reporting. i am not in the place, personally, where i want to receive help so this page is just to let out my feelings and rants. i do not post any 4n4 tips, just 4n4 thoughts. refer to the numbers in my pinned post(if you are in the US) if you are in serious danger and if anyone needs someone to talk to who relates or if you do not have the best support system, my dm’s are always open <3

i personally believe that it is helpful for others to know that they are not alone in this situation and for my followers to have someone to talk to if needed.

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my new backup is @sk1n22b0n3s4 <3 (i liked this post on my other account, too)

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someone just sent me a pm saying how they reported my account, im going to make a backup and let you all know the username in case my account gets deleted.

pls, do not report. i am in no way promoting eating disorders, nor am i posting anything pro-4n4. it is an awful thing to go through and i do not wish this on anyone. my page is a rant page for myself and i believe it is good for others to know they are not alone in this. I encourage recovery for everyone, but not everyone is going through recovery atm, no matter what their reasoning is. this honestly just upsets me bc ive met some people who are genuinely so nice and it is so good to finally have some people who understand what you are going through without being judged.

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lol just thinking ab the time a few months ago when someone carried me on their back and asked how much i weighed. i told him to guess and he was like “idk 210?” i actually weighed less but still made me feel super shitty and i didn’t eat for like three days :)

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i hate feeling so fat and full i just want to feel empty for once.

“you’re so pretty” yeah but i’m still fat and i want to d!e 🙄

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ugh you ever be in a decent mood and then all of a sudden just feel all of the fat all over your body. fucks up my whole day fr bc then i can’t stop thinking ab how gross my body is

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Most eating disordered people DO NOT want recovery. That does not make them pr0.

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going to the beach in july, this is my goal so i don’t look like a whale who washed up on shore 💀

💛💫🔮🌻🌿💝🌼👙🐞🍄🌞🍀🔮✨🧡

A charm to lose 50+ lbs by July

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i’m constantly thinking ab the day i’ll finally be skinny, but sometimes it feels like i will never get there. ill never be enough. i want to just look at myself in the mirror and not see a big fat ugly blob

#ana tw #tw ed thoughts #it's not as simple as just eating #skinnnny #i want to be skiny #just ed shit #tw ed related #an0rex1c #ana coach #4na #4n4m14 #4n0r3x14

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worst feeling ever is seeing the reflection of yourself when passing a window. like i seriously look like that ? i instantly get insecure

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i was supposed to fast today, but i had a monster energy drink that was 10cals and two sticks of gum that both equaled 10cals, too. ig at least i didn’t eat actual food today. i hate coming home for the weekend from college bc my mom is always wanting to go out to get food and it sucks

#ana tw #tw ed thoughts #skinnnny #i want to be skiny #just ed shit #tw ed related #an0rex1c #ana coach #ed coach #4n4 buddy

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blog warnings:

tw: ed talk/metal disorders

my account is NOT to promote eating disorders or mental health issues. i wish recovery for everyone, but i have yet to seek help myself. this account is meant to be a safe place for me (and others if wanted) to vent about feelings and struggles. If there is any hate/negativity, you will be blocked. if you are in recovery, pls do not view my page, unfollow and block. i wish the best for all <3

National Eating Disorders Association Helpline(US): 1-800-931-2237

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