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Haaaa ya girl just got put on adderall. And metformin. Weight loss should be easy now

#trying to lose weight #notpro #me

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Do it for the limitless outfits. Do it for the thigh gaps. Do it for the comfort that you will feel in your body in any given situation. At school, at work, on the beach, in a dress. Do it for the satisfaction that you will feel each time you look in the mirror. Do it for the jealous looks. Do it for the feeling of superiority. Do it for yourself. Do it because you can.

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I hate that I gained so much weight

I hate that the person I love the most made me think that it was okay to eat and be fat

I hate that I don't have any control

I hate that I eat as if I'm never getting fat

I hate my big ass thighs

I hate my fat arms

I hate my stretch marks

I hate celulite

I HATE SCALES

I hate baggy clothes that make me look trice as big

I hate that all my clothes look so horrible on me

I hate that my face is bigger

I hate hate hate the most that my thighs are so huge

I hate that everyone lies to me and says I look skinny

I HATE WHAT I DID TO MYSELF

I HATE THESE NEW WEIGHT THAT WONT GO AWAY!!!!!!!

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I’ve seen those step thingies on TikTok and I’m soooo curious… I might do more research

As if I don’t have enough workout equipment at home

If I had a stairmaster at home it would be OVER for u!!!!!!

(I would push myself to unhealthy goals and overwork my body)

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I now have surgical scars on my hips… I want to get tattoos over them but I’m not doing that until I’m half my current weight… if I have to workout for 3 hours a day and go back to being a vegetarian full time I will. All I hear is I need to lose weight. All I hear is I’m not pretty enough. All I hear is I’d be prettier if I was skinny and then I’d be worthy.

#ed not ed sheeran #ed not sheeren

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ummm...yes pls 🙏

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Current mood

i hate looking in the mirror i’m so fat i’m so ugly i’m so fucking gross i’m sickening i’m disgusting fuck fuck fuck

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I wanna feel small again.

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Todays been a crappy day… so I’m just… not eating. No energy and I just don’t feel like making the effort

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My partner has an ED or at least he has disordered eating. He knows I have an ED. However, what he will do every week is talk about his weight and how much he hates it and how hes never motivated unless theres a financial thing or he wont workout if I wont work out (which because of depression i havent been.) So he wants to do diet bet and its basically like… the challenge is to lose at least 10% of your weight in 6 months. My first goal is to get into the 190s again. If I can do that I would win or at least make my money back since I would basically be putting down 240$ of my own money just for this. I already dont eat much, Id basically have to lose 5 pounds a month… at least. If I could lose like… 10 a month I would be even happier but Im not entirely sure how to do that yet.

Any advice? Cause Im thinking working out in the morning before work (which I should do anyway since I work in an office and feel lazy), a work out after work, and low cal but high volume food.

#trying to lose weight #restriction #pro only for myself #a4a

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I’m baaaaack on my bullshit 🤣 but like… technically I never left the bull shit though. My partner unintentionally triggers it alllll the time so 🙃

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When your partner has an ED as well it makes things easy to not eat

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When you want to use your dream aesthetic as a motivation to go from a 12/14 to 4/6. Yis. But gotta be smart about it

#weightloss #me #losing weight #pro only for myself #restriction

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Hypothetically speaking if I wanted to abuse my brain into not eating how would I *hypothetically* do that?

#me #personal #losing weight #pro only for myself #restriction

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Wanna know how to get self conscious about how much you eat? Have your coworker make a comment about it

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I really need to get better at logging my food. Like damn

#pro only for myself

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I - I do the same thing… 😬

My toxic trait is conning people into thinking that I’m eating by cooking a ton of fattening food, distracting them with it, and eating none of it.