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don't wanna feel anything ever again

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put myself in isolation lets see how this goes

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i can no longer cope with my anxiety on my days off. i just sit in my room dissociating, go out and bug my dad for a min, then go back to dissociating. i cant even think about how to entertain myself without thoughts of dying. i cant play w my cat without thoughts of dying. i literally dont even know why i want to die but these thoughts have started feeling like actual voices bc i can still hear them no mattef what i think about. i cant fucking stand it anymore.

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my toxic trait is if u go 24 hours without talking to me i want u to kill urself

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the emptiness is coming back and idk how long i can hold on

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gonna be homeless in 2 weeks🥰 i wanna die or relapse but neither are feasible

#actuallybpd

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there is really nothing white women hate more than a black girl being considered beautiful especially by white men bc these old bitches are 3 secs away from calling me a nigger every day

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i feel so fucking hollow holy fuck

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okay so ik u nod off and shii but are u able to actually go to sleep at night when ur on percs??? idk why but shi makes my insomnia worse.

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i hate being alone i hate being sober dear god i wish id die

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the urge to puke and cry and bash my head on the wall and hit things

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omgomgomg i found someone in my city who does percs and live relatively close to me🥴 i dont want o use them for drugs but god i need to use so bad

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would give up everything to taste a burning perc rn

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Being mentally ill is just: *repeatedly punches self in the thigh at any minor inconvenience*

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would i risk it all just to relapse and be numb? probably.

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FUCK BRO WHAT THE FUCK i didnt even put full effort into this bc i knew something was gonna happen, but i still somewhat tried and im still so sad over it.

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every decision i make is a mistake