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IS THIS WHAT LOVE FEELS LIKE?

tags :: @yjjnfied

summary :: sooyoung finally gets something off her chest

sooyoung couldn’t keep her eyes off of wooyoung.

she couldn’t stop staring at him, she couldn’t stop admiring all of his features, his beautiful eyes, how his hair was so fluffy yet looked so perfect, how his dimples show when he laughs, how his lips were so pink and so soft — which was her main problem. she couldn’t stop staring at the boy’s lips. she kept having the desire to kiss him, to feel his lips pressed up against her own, but she couldn’t help but feel guilty about her thoughts.

was it wrong, to imagine kissing wooyoung? they had gone out quite a few times, and wooyoung has always given sooyoung the impression that he was interested in her, but what if she read him wrong? what if he only sees her as a friend? she would be devastated and forever embarrassed if she went to kiss him, and he only rejected her.

wooyoung must have sensed her overthinking, because he had turned his head from the tv to look at her, placing a gentle hand on her thigh. “is everything alright, sookki?” wooyoung asked, smiling softly when sooyoung blushed at the nickname. sookki was the nickname wooyoung had made up for her, and no one else had ever called her that (he took part of her name, and the ending of bunny in korean). “you can talk to me, you know.”

sooyoung only laughed and looked down, biting her lip when wooyoung had started to slowly rub his hand up and down her thigh. he was not helping her inner debate whatsoever,

“i don’t know…im just thinking.” sooyoung managed to get out, bringing her hands to play with the ends of her hair, a nervous habit she had since a kid.

“what thoughts are going on in your pretty head?” wooyoung asked, turning so his body was completely facing sooyoung - his hand still on her thigh. wooyoung was smiling at her, but she could see that he was genuinely concerned for her. sooyoung wanted to voice her feelings aloud, but she couldn’t find the words for them.

she could hear monique in the back of her head, telling her to “stop overthinking, whats the worse that could happen?” …. the two girls had just had a conversation the night before, monique was the only one who knew her true feelings for wooyoung. if monique was there, she would be telling her to let all of her anxieties go, and just do it.

so that’s what sooyoung did - she leaned forward, wrapped her hand behind wooyoung’s neck, softly playing with the ends of his hair, and she kissed him. she could feel her body heating up from wooyoung’s plump lips, kissing him in reality was so much better than what sooyoung could have ever imagined. before sooyoung could kiss him longer, she quickly regained her thoughts and immediately backed away, gasping when she saw wooyoung’s shocked face.

“fuck, wooyoung - im so —” sooyoung mumbled out, but wooyoung didn’t even let the girl finish apologizing before he crashed his lips back to sooyoung’s, grabbing wooyoung’s waist and swinging her into his lap, pulling her even closer. sooyoung really could feel the warmth all through out her body, and she swore nothing had ever been better than this. she loved every second of it, she loved the tight grasp wooyoung had on her waist, how she could feel his heartbeat against her chest, and most importantly, his lips. she loved how he kissed her with such passion, such desire, with love.

when wooyoung had pulled away to get air, it took awhile for sooyoung to regain her thoughts again. his kiss and touch had sent her in a cloudy daze - she was still in shock that it had even happened.

“that was my first kiss,” sooyoung sheepishly mumbled, hiding her face in her hands when wooyoung’s face lit up in suprise.

“i was your first kiss, are you serious?” wooyoung asked, wrapping the girl in a tight hug when she nodded. “that makes it even more special, doesn’t it?” wooyoung said, gently patting her head when he saw that she was still embarrassed.

“don’t be embarrassed, my love. i’m not judging you! i’m happy that you chose me to be your first kiss.” wooyoung said, almost instantly making sooyoung feel better. “what, do you like it when i call you ‘my love’?”

“it has a nice ring to it,” sooyoung whispers, nuzzling her face into wooyoung’s neck when he cooed at her shyness. the two of them sat in silence for a few minutes, regaining their ability to breath, and soaking in a few minutes of peace, relaxing against one another.

eventually, sooyoung sat up, awkwardly scooting off of wooyoung’s lap and bringing her legs to her chest. she wanted to end her overthinking - but she knew she had to take some brave steps to be able to do that. so with a deep, shaky breath, she finally expressed her feelings to wooyoung.

“if you haven’t noticed already, i like you…i have for awhile. do you like me, too?” sooyoung asked, smiling when wooyoung nodded.

“i do in fact, like you. i like you not just a little bit, i like you a lot! i like you this much!” wooyoung chuckled, extending his arms to show his arm span. sooyoung smiled and tackled the man into a bear hug, squeezing his waist. she felt so safe in the arms of wooyoung, she realized, when he hugged her back and gave her a soft kiss on the forehead.

“do you think we could…i don’t know,” sooyoung trailed off, looking up at the boy, resting her chin on his chest. she wanted to ask him out - but finding the wording was so hard. she didn’t want to sound eager, or cringy, but she also didn’t want to give wooyoung the wrong impression. sooyoung could sense his hesitancy, quickly adding, “if you want to go slow - that’s fine…” sooyoung mumbled, frowning when wooyoung still looked full of worry.

“i want you to be my girlfriend, soo, but what about your stalkers? what about Bora?” wooyoung asked, pursing his lips, “i know we can’t let them dictate our life’s forever, but are you okay with facing the backlash if they find out?”

sooyoung thought about it - she knew it was more likely that they were going to find out about the romance between wooyoung and sooyoung, and she knew that when the news broke out, it wouldn’t be pretty. she was so sick and tired of letting people dictate her life, just because they want to control her. even if bora hated her even more than she already does, she knows her members would have her back, no matter what the conditions were.

“yes…i think i would be ready to deal with the backlash. even if it’s bad, i know i have you and my members to support me.” sooyoung said, placing another kiss on wooyoung’s lips, hoping to reassure him more.

“so, park sooyoung, does this mean you’ll be my girlfriend?” wooyoung asked, and the both of them couldn’t help but giggle at the cheesiness of it all.

“yes, wooyoungie, i’ll be your girlfriend.”

with that, wooyoung scooped the girl back into his arms, smiling when the girl practically melted on top of him, and placed one more kiss on her lips, allowing himself to linger for a bit more, feeling the softness of her lips before pulling away.

sooyoung decided that if falling in love felt like this - then maybe it wasn’t so scary after all.

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dont you love it when he goes ૮( ˊ ᯅ ˋ )ა

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i am no longer an academic weapon i am an academic victim…i got a 66% on my chem test and i was so confident i was going to get an 83% 😭

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💞💖💘💗💕💓💝

#crying tears rn #i’m so sick

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#this MAN.

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Lee Know & Seungmin - ASEA the grand prize (240410)

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CUT IT CLOSE (2017)

in which sooyoung just wanted to go back in time for one nice, but got into a sticky situation. jeno and jaemin are just a call away, right? (listening to …. i know the end by phoebe bridgers)

warnings :: stalking, death

tags :: @yjjnfied

𓈒 ﹒ ☆ 𓂂 ˚ ☆ ꙳ * ࣭ ࣭

SOOYOUNG COULDNT HELP BUT FEEL LIKE SHE SAW THIS GIRL EVERYWHERE.

at every music show, schedule, any small appearance, airport, sooyoung felt like everywhere she went — she was there. even if it was a solo outing, for her own schedule, she was there.

sooyoung knew that it could be an innocent fan - but she couldn’t help but grow concerned when she recognized her, schedule after schedule. she didn’t disperse with the crowd after sooyoung left, she had lingered. sooyoung had even caught her following the cars, later running back to her own when she lost speed.

sooyoung had brought it up to her manager - but she only waved it off, claiming it was “typical behavior”. sooyoung could only feel disappointed by this, sure, it was “typical”, but why was it okay? sooyoung tried to prevent herself from getting upset about it, but when her phone started to ring at all hours of the night, sooyoung couldn’t help but suspect it was the girl she recognized.

sooyoung blocked the number, but it was like they were constantly respawning, leaving voicemail after voicemail. she only listened to one, and the begging from the caller had made her felt sick.

she knew that other artists had experienced this, and sooyoung had wondered how they managed to stomach their privacy being invaded.

sooyoung had enjoyed the pureness of her own privacy, the peace it brought it her to be alone, where she truly doesn’t have to hide anything. ever since she was a trainee, sooyoung loved to go out in the city, when almost everyone was asleep. she loved going to the convenience store, getting her favorite late night snacks, and watch a drama while sipping her banana milk.

she loved to take a stroll, petting the brave stray cats that wandered by her. eventually, she would look out by the river, breathing in the scent of the water and letting go of everything. often, when she was facing hardships, she would bring her journal with her, writing down everything she felt. writing everything that ticked her, that frustrated her, everything and everyone who made her feel any certain way. she wrote about her heartbreak, her disappointment, and her love.

now that she finally debuted - sooyoung stopped going out on her own. she wasn’t supposed to go out alone in the middle of the night in the first place - but her mother never caught her sneaking out. strangely, sooyoung is more afraid of getting caught sneaking out by the boys compared to her mother. her mother would scold her, but in the end, she would be relieved sooyoung made it home. her members…she couldn’t imagine it.

they would be confused, they wouldn’t want her to go. they would go with her - or they would hold some sort of intervention. but if something ever happened…if someone recognized her….they would always hold on to that guilt. and sooyoung didn’t want that.

but her skin was itching to go back outside, to go on her therapeutic strolls and spend time with the stray cats. she wanted to go and explore, and be able to experience the calming feeling that was brought over her again. a part of her also wanted to go back to her trainee days, back where she felt like she had more control of her life. of her youth. she wanted to go back, just for a night.

if it was just one night, what was the worst that could happen? it would only be one time…surely her members would understand the next morning. if they find her bed empty and cold…she would tell them when she comes home. promise to never do it again. and it would pass. right?

everything passed…the members being anxious of sooyoung moving in passed…the embarrassment of sooyoung locking herself out of her room passed….and the awkward tension between her and haechan had eventually, passed.

so, sooyoung crawled out of her warm bed, and threw an old sweatshirt over her night gown, sliding a pair of sweatpants on too. she grabbed her keys, wallet, and her journal, stuffing it into her purse her brother had gifted her. his last gift.

the apartment wasn’t quiet, sooyoung could hear renjun and jisung talking in the next room over, and jeno and jaemin were watching some sort of movie in their room…she would only be gone for an hour. renjun and jisung would fall asleep, and she would be back before jaemin comes to say goodnight to her.

jaemin said goodnight every night, almost always around three in the morning. even if sooyoung was asleep, he would sneak in and brush the hair out of her face, gently sitting on her bed. he woke her up, but she pretended to stay asleep. she knew if woke up and said something, he would give her a hug and leave right after. if she was “sleeping”….he stayed longer. and a part of sooyoung wanted jaemin to never leave her room…to stay with her and keep brushing her hair. she hated sleeping alone, she grew so familiar with sharing a room with her sister…it was so weird to be all alone.

sooyoung sighed and tried to clear her head, slowly and quietly leaving the apartment, locking the door behind her. she held her breath for a couple of seconds, waiting to see if anyone comes to check who left. no one came, so sooyoung walked away, letting out a deep breath.

sooyoung walked to the closet convenience store - it wasn’t the same one she went to when she lived with her mom and sister, but it would do. she wouldn’t be able to walk to the river anymore, she was too far away. sooyoung felt very bittersweet about that. she was happy to finally live with her friends, but she missed the familiarity of her apartment with her family, even if they only lived in there for a few years.

they moved after her brother passed away, every inch of the house seemed to haunt them, reminding them of their beloved doojun…it was too much. too many memories. too many regrets. so they moved, tried to move on. but sometimes, it feels like sooyoung was thirteen again, but reliving the night over and over again. like time was frozen. but her members always pull her back up again, digging her out of the haunted hole again and again.

the streets were empty - quiet. the streets had an eery stillness to them - like the time didn’t really matter. sooyoung almost immediately felt better when she went outside, no longer feeling trapped and suffocated within her own thoughts. her mind was clear, she was calm, and she felt like she was back to being a normal girl.

she knew nothing about her life could be considered typical, but she could just pretend for one night, right?

she should have known that something wasn’t right when she walked into the connivence store - but she was too caught up in her dream that she could breath again and not worry. she wandered the aisles, unaware of the person following her as she snaked around.

she picked out her items - which consisted of her favorite childhood snacks. she settled in at a table, peacefully watching outside.

the longer she looked out at the window, she noticed there was a shadow behind her, and when sooyoung turned her head, she had saw the girl she saw everywhere. the brown hair, lanky legs and long torso, her hair pinned back with a silver headband. how did she manage to be here at the same time as sooyoung…or did she follow her here?

sooyoung quickly turned away before the girl could notice her, quietly putting her food items back in her bag, planning to leave. before she could finish, the girl had snuck behind her, getting very close to her, to the point where sooyoung could feel her breath running down her neck, sending a chill through her entire body.

“sooyoung! we finally meet again!” the girl said sweetly, but it had only made sooyoung feel sick. sooyoung mustered up an awkward smile, stepping to the side to get her own space back. “i’ve been meaning to talk to alone in forever!”

sooyoung only nodded, fearing to say anything wrong. she didn’t want to trigger her in anyway, possibly making this interaction even more dangerous. all thoughts of her being an innocent fan were long gone. sooyoung was fans of many idols, but she could never imagine following them everywhere.

the girl had continued to talk, about how much she adored sooyoung…but as she continued, she started asking questions. questions that felt way too personal to ask someone you have never spoke to before.

she asked about her brother - if she missed him. she asked about jaemin - if her and him were dating. she asked if she kissed any of the members…who was the most romantic, who was the most charming in real life. she asked if sooyoung had a boyfriend…what base they were at, and the questions just kept coming. the girl never gave sooyoung a chance to respond, which sooyoung was slightly grateful for.

“i’m really sorry to interrupt you, but i have to go home.” sooyoung said, bowing and trying to walk away, gasping when the girl stepped infront of her, grabbing her wrist tightly. “please let me go, you’re hurting me.” sooyoung whispered out, wincing when the girl only squeezed harder.

“you can’t leave yet! you haven’t answered any of my questions!” she said, excitedly, dragging sooyoung back to the table.

sooyoung tried again, “i’m really sorry, i have to leave.” sooyoung backed away, almost crying when the girl got angry.

“you are so rude! you are disgusting! i have been waiting to meet you one on one and all you do is disregard me? you don’t care about any of your fans! you probably don’t care about anyone…just yourself!” the girl spat out, closing her eyes and turning around, and as soon as sooyoung saw her be vulnerable, she ran. she ran as fast as she could out of the store, crying out when she heard the girl follow her.

the girl had called out for her and continued to call her names, but sooyoung couldn’t hear her over the pounding of her heart and her feet stomping on the ground, sooyoung could barely breath, and she knew she couldn’t run forever. she could hear the girl get closer and closer, so sooyoung forced herself to keep pumping her arms, trying to out run her.

she started turning right, turning left, left again and then right and left. and when she could only hear the sound of her own feet, she finally stopped, sinking down against a wall when she saw the coast was clear. she coughed and cried, closing her eyes until she caught her breath again.

she was so scared to leave all alone - and there was only one person she thought of calling. only one person she knew that would be calm and collected to come get her, not asking questions until later.

jaemin.

so, sooyoung pulled her burner phone out of her bag, dialing his number and praying he answered. he had to still be watching his movie, she had no texts or calls asking where she went.

“sooyoung? why are you calling me?” jaemin asked, and as soon as he heard the uneven breathing and the choked sobs, sooyoung could hear him rustling out of bed and running to jeno, shaking him awake. “soonie? what’s going on?”

“i snuck out to went to a convenience store and a saesang followed me…she was so scary, jaemin. i thought she was going to hurt me, so i ran…please come get me.” sooyoung cried out, crying more when she heard jaemin curse. “im so sorry, i shouldn’t have left…i just wanted it to be like old times again.”.

“it’s okay sooyoungie, we’re coming to get you.” jaemin said, cutting her off before she could continue her apologies, the same voice he uses when he wants her to calm down, telling her “we’ll talk about it tomorrow.”

sooyoung told jaemin where she was, and jaemin had stayed on the phone all through their walk…more like run. sooyoung was relieved…even though hearing jaemin and jeno stressed had hurt her to no end. she hated that she had to disturb them.

it felt like hours until jeno and jaemin arrived, but sooyoung knew it was only minutes. jaemin immediately fell to the ground and wrapped her in his arms, squeezing her tightly. jeno came in on the other side, wrapping his arms under jaemin’s on her waist. sooyoung burst back into tears, letting all of her anxiety rush through her once more.

“i’m so glad you’re safe,” jeno breaks out, hugging onto her tighter. “im so sorry this happened.”

“it’s my fault.” sooyoung said, shaking her head when jaemin immediately pulled away and told her, “it wasn’t your fault.” it was her fault. she knew better. she wasn’t a normal teenage girl anymore, she couldn’t just go whenever she wanted anymore.

“you shouldn’t have left, but it’s not you’re fault people do that to you.” jaemin said, bringing her back into a hug. the trio had sat there for awhile, jeno hugging her in silence, while jaemin was reassuring sooyoung, telling her she was safe and that everything would okay.

eventually, jaemin patted jeno, telling him to pull away (which he did, reluctantly), and the both of them had made their journey back to the dorms, with sooyoung in the middle of jeno and jaemin. she couldn’t help but look behind her every few steps, looking around to see if the girl would suddenly reappear. everytime she looked, jaemin would gently squeeze her hand three times, their small communication they set up between themselves.

i love you. i’m here for you. you got this.

as soon as they arrived at the apartment, sooyoung was almost knocked over by renjun running up to her, wrapping her in his arms tightly.

“what happened? i heard jeno and jaemin running out, and i went to your room to find you not there, are you okay?” renjun asked quickly, pulling away and scanning for any injuries. sooyoung only sighed, trying to hold all of her tears at bay again. noticing her difficulties, jeno explained the situation, gently brushing his hand through her hair as he talked.

jisung slowly peered out from behind renjun, and sooyoung could tell that he was in a debate on whether or not to hug her, which had made her giggle slightly. jisung was still so shy around her, so sooyoung wrapped her arms around him. she loved jisung’s hugs, they were rare, but when he hugged her, it was always special and loving.

“i think we should all talk tomorrow - everyone’s okay, but we’re all tired. we need to get some sleep.” jaemin said, bringing the five of them together in a big group hug. “everything’s okay.”

the group dispersed, after one more hug from renjun and jisung, the two returned to their room. jeno and jaemin walked sooyoung to her room, tucking her back into her bed, lingering at the foot of her bed.

sooyoung couldn’t do it, she couldn’t sleep alone again. especially after everything that happened - she knew she would have night terrors, and she didn’t want to face it alone. she felt so unsafe in her room alone now, paranoid that the girl will climb through her window and take her away.

“will you stay with me, please?” sooyoung asked softly, scrunching her nose when she felt her cheeks flush. jaemin and jeno chuckled softly, looking at eachother.

“sure, sooyoung, but i don’t know if all of us can fit on this bed.” jeno said, smiling when sooyoung only shrugged. sooyoung had the biggest bed in the dorm, but a full with three people still would be cramped.

“anything for you, soonie.” jaemin cooed, immediately crawling up to the head of the bed and laying onto of sooyoung, laughing when she grunted from his weight. “our very first sleepover!”

jeno only shook his head, laying on the other side of sooyoung, laying his head on one of sooyoung’s many pillows. “let’s hope we get any sleep,” jeno whispered to sooyoung, both of them giggling when jaemin started poking at sooyoung, making weird noises.

jaemin had messed around until he was certain sooyoung had relaxed, her thoughts filled with happy memories and stupid jokes. jeno had curled up next to sooyoung, draping his arm across her legs, while jaemin held onto her waist. sooyoung watched as the boys fell asleep, gently brushing their hair with her fingers.

it reminded her of her childhood, when sooyoung and her sister would invade her brother’s room, climbing in his bed and clinging onto him, ignoring his complaints. back when they could all fit in a twin bed…back when they were all together on the earth at the same time.

now her sister was miles away, her brother deep in the ground. and sooyoung was here, with friends she always dreamed of having, chasing her dreams, finding the bittersweet’s and the good and the bad moments in her life. everything scared her. she wondered how she would ever get through it, find a way to cope with it all, to find her peace.

but maybe her peace was already with her, her peace was her two friends squishing into her bed to make sure she felt okay. her peace was jisung’s laugh when haechan was actually ridiculous. her peace was mark making sure ate, and renjun sliding drawings under her door. chenle teaching her chinese, smiling sooyoung tried her best to hold a conversation with him.

even if she felt like she was constantly running from her demons, she knew she had a warm and loving home to come back too.

“go to sleep, sooyoungie,” jeno whispered out, tucking her head into his shoulder. “we can talk tomorrow,” he mumbled, relaxing her with his soft touches on her arms.

there will be another day, another day sooyoung will live again, another day, and sooyoung will fight her battles. another day, and it will be alright.

“it will be alright,” jaemin said. and sooyoung trusted him, so she allowed her mind to turn off…slipping into her dreams of tomorrow. of yesterday, of years ago. of all of the things that brought her peace. and when she woke up, she knew she would survive.

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SOOYOUNG’S COMEBACK LIVE :: LOVE, SHHH!

ON JULY 17TH, 2022, SM went LIVE to introduce their very own, SOOYOUNG’S, comeback! the live was a total of ONE HOUR, with exclusive performances of LOVE, SHH, a cover of WHAT’S YOUR PROBLEM?, and a never seen before duet between SOOYOUNG and JAEMIN.

AESTHETIC ::

ABOUT THE COMEBACK LIVE!

this live was the very first live performance of LOVE, SHH — sooyoung’s new song! sooyoung performed on a small stage, with a lighted heart behind her and all girls back up dancers! her outfit for this performance was the second from the left as pictures of above, with an adorable pink bow in her hair!

after the performance, sooyoung waved and thanked the viewers for watching her performance, smiling and winking into the camera. “thank you all for watching and supporting! I worked really hard to give you all this song - and I hope you love it as much as I do!”

“It’s a little weird for me to be on this stage by myself - i’m so used to being standing next to my members…i’m not used to having to do all the talking by myself…” sooyoung giggled. (our introverted queen)

“Is it okay if I invite some close friends?” OF COURSE SOOYOUNG ANYTHING FOR YOU 🥺

and on cue, renjun and jaemin walk in, both acting as if they are starstruck of sooyoung (they are so REAL for that!)

jaemin has a small square box in his hands, and sooyoung looks at him quizzically, “what’s in your hands there? i told you no gifts…” jaemin only pouted and said “we couldn’t resist! we had to get you something for your big debut!” sooyoung only laughed and shook her head, slightly blushing at jaemin’s sweetness. (we see you sooyoung 👀)

“go ahead, open it sooyoungie!” renjun pleaded, nudging the girl forward. sooyoung looked at the camera and counted down to three, smiling widely when she saw a cake in the box. “a cake! this is beautiful! nctzen’s, look at this!”

ISNT IT ADORABLE! in the middle it says “SHH, WE LOVE SOOYOUNG!” we love you jaemin and renjun 🫶

“did you guys go out and buy this by yourselves?” sooyoung asked, gasping when jaemin and renjun nod in affirmation. “this is beautiful! you guys did a great job picking this out!” sooyoung said, giving both of them a hug once they set the cake down.

“can we have some?” sooyoung asked, looking over at the staff, clapping when they quickly brought over plates and forks. “oooh, chocolate raspberry? my favorite cake! this looks so yummy!” sooyoung squealed, smiling widely at jaemin and renjun.

“i told you chocolate raspberry was her favorite! but no, you swore up and down it was strawberry.” jaemin joked at renjun, who only rolled his eyes. “i’m telling you, her favorite is strawberry, she begged for it for weeks last year!”

sooyoung swallowed and looked over at renjun sadly, “renjun is partly right - strawberry was my favorite…but after my birthday party i got sick - it was because i ate half of that cake but…i’ve been too traumatized to eat it since.”

renjun frowned, “i was with you all day, i never knew this happened.” sooyoung patted him on the shoulder and said, “i didn’t tell anyone because i was too embarrassed. jaemin conveniently walked in on…you know. so since then i decided chocolate raspberry is my safe favorite.”

“i told you i’m great at keeping secerts!” jaemin exclaimed. sooyoung only shook her head and continued to eat her cake, the three of them sitting on the pink stools prepared for them. sooyoung in the middle, renjun on the left and jaemin on the right.

once they all finished their cake, renjun and jaemin started asking sooyoung questions about her song!

JAEMIN: “so, sooyoung, this makes your first ever solo song! tell us about how it felt like to record a song all by your own!”

SOOYOUNG: “it was such an exciting and thrilling experience for me! i’ve been writing songs ever since i was around…thirteen? and i have helped write quite a few songs for nct dream, but I can proudly say that I pretty much wrote this entire song by myself! it’s completely my own and designed just perfectly to fit me! i couldn’t do it without my lovely producer, though! it was so much fun to discover my own sound with her! but it did get lonely, i missed getting to watch everyone record and see all your lovely smiles while i recorded. jaemin came to visit me one day in the studio, it was super sweet!”

JAEMIN: “i brought her snacks and coffee…that’s the only reason she was happy to see me, don’t let it fool you.”

SOOYOUNG: “noooo, that’s not true!” *shakes jaemin gently* “why do you tell stories like that?!” *smiles and shakes her head* “but i did kick him out when i had to get back to recording. i was nervous about you all hearing it at first - i worked so hard on this song, and i’ll admit it, when i finally let all of dream listen to it, i cried.”

RENJUN: “she did. all over my sweatshirt.” *laughs* “when I watched the MV for this first time - i loved al of your outfits because they all fit you so well. and the outfit you are wearing now, it’s so adorable and definitely screams sooyoung. i heard a rumor that you helped design your outfits, is this true?”

SOOYOUNG: “it is so weird to hear renjun be nice to me.” *giggles and pats renjun’s shoulder* “and that is true! i got a drawing pad and drew out some outfits, and i piled together a moodboard for my styles and presented it to my lovely stylist, taylor! and she loved it! she let me tag along when she was picking out the pieces, and it was a experience i’ll never forget. i got so involved in everything, and i learned so so much.”

JAEMIN: “sooyoungie! your phone is ringing! you better go get it!”

sooyoung laughed and ran off stage, smirking at the camera.

while sooyoung was gone, a few blooper scenes from the mv of LOVE, SHH was shown on the screen, jaemin and renjun narrating it and laughing at sooyoung’s clumsiness.

RENJUN: “it looks like sooyoung is finally back, and she it looks like she has something else for you all!”

and with that, the lights dimmed, renjun and jaemin left stage, and sooyoung resumed the stage, behind her mic stand, in a brand new outfit!

WHATS YOUR PROBLEM?

sooyoung has been teasing her covering a tate mcrae song FOR SO LONG on vlive, AND THE TIME HAS FINALLY ARRIVED!!

nctzens were like “WHO TF HURT THIS GIRL”

she let out all of her emotions on this song, and freely moved around the stage and really felt the song <3

“you made me hate myself just so i would love you more”, THAT GIRL SANG THAT WITH HER CHESTTTTT.

brb going to fight her ex rn

SHE DELIVERED

after, there was no pause, she disappeared and reappeared in a new fit, AND JAEMIN. SOOYOUNG AND JAEMIN DUET! THE CLUB WENT WILD!

JAEMIN & SOOYOUNG — AN EXCLUSIVE DUET

sooyoung & jaemin had to lock this song in a safe cuz THIS WAS NCTZENS FIRST TIME EVER HEARING THIS SONG (og :: hug by svt)

both of jaemin and sooyoung’s mics were decorated in pink roses, and the stage had such soft lighting, it was PERFECT.

all throughout the performance jaemin and sooyoung just looked at each other every other second and their eyes were just filled with pure LOVE for eachother

at this point they are just fueling the dating rumors…

sooyoung started crying at the end, and jaemin just smiled so lovingly towards her, SHE MELTED. she sang all through the tears, her voice cracking slightly </3

when it was over, jaemin immediately engulfed her into a hug, laughing when sooyoung hid her face in his chest

“our emotional sooyoungie,” jaemin cooed, resting his chin on sooyoung’s head.

sooyoung eventually came out of jaemin’s hug, waving and smiling through her tears at the camera.

“thank you so much for watching, nctzens! i hope you enjoyed this gift from jaemin and i…and stay tuned for when we release this gem!”

“make sure to support sooyoung with her single, “LOVE, SHH!”, cheer and love her for me!” jaemin said, and with that, sooyoung and jaemin waved goodbye, blowing kissed towards the camera.

STREAM LOVE SHH

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