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me when i accidentally show Emotion:

i am so lonely 

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so yesterday i came out as transmasc to my entire family and i got my hair cut today...

what do we all think?

#transgender #dark acamedia #trans #trans man #dark aesthetic #klaus hargreeves cosplay #hairdresser #hairdo #haircut #hairstyle #lgbtqia #they/he

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this is the thing about acceptance,

my mother “accepts” me as queer, but she still says “when you get married to a man”, “your future husband”, “when you get a boyfriend” etc.

my mother “accepts” me as part of the LGBTQIA community, but she doesn’t let me go to pride parades because they’re “violent”.

my mother “accepts” me, but she never acknowledges my sexuality.

my mother “accepts” me, but she never objects to my family’s homophobia/transphobia.

my mother “accepts” me, but tells me not to label myself.

my mother “accepts” me, but shows her distaste for anything gay that i watch.

saying you accept someone isn’t enough.

#i wish things were different #transgender #i want to cry #dark acamedia #i want to disappear #trans #trans man #help #wishful thinking #very confused queer #queer #lgbtqia #homophobia

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to everyone who feels so emotionally exhausted that they burst into tears at the slightest inconvenience, that they feel like no one understands what they’re going through, that they block everyone out,,, same

#i wish things were different #transgender #dark acamedia #i want to cry #i want to disappear #trans #trans man #dark aesthetic #help

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i’ve seen far too many bad coming out stories on here, so i’m going to tell everyone about my experience with my aunt.

i’m a trans boy, and i’ve recently come out to my aunt, because she’s the most accepting in my family. instead of saying it was a phase or saying i’d always be her niece, like i’ve seen in some other coming out stories, she asked for my preferred name and pronouns, and started calling me by my preferred name as soon as she knew it. she also thanked me for telling her and promised not to tell anyone else.

she’s sent me two links to groups focused on supporting transgender youth so far, and told me about a group that meets in my area. we went for a drive yesterday and she told me we could talk as little or as much as i wanted. i ended up telling her about my body dysphoria and why i didn’t want to come out to the rest of the family. we even touched on my eating disorder, which my mother refuses to believe i have. we talked about how it’s been so far for me being queer, and about the homophobia and transphobia of some of our family.

my point is, not every coming out experience has to be negative, many are positive. when i was safe in my closet and looking at coming out stories, i only saw negative stories, which only doubled my fear. so please, please, share your positive coming out stories on your blog or reblog this with positive stories.

elliot x

#i wish things were different #transgender #trans #trans man #lgbtq #coming out #please read #please respect this #please reblog #lgbtqia #positive coming out stories #trans questioning #mtf trans #transmasc #transisbeautiful #transgirl #trans pride #ftm trans

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does anyone actually know the official name for the hairstyle that is most common in pretty, grunge femboys that like to brush their curtains out of their face but ultimately let them drop again into a curly, fluffy mess of beauty?

because i can’t walk into a hairdressers and say “i’d like the gay cut, please”

#dark acamedia #i want to cry #i want to disappear #i wish things were different #transgender #wishful thinking #help #i want more #trans #trans man #hairstyle #hairdo #haircut #help help help #does anyone understand what i mean #does anyone get me #hairdresser #gay men #lgbtq #lbgtqia #help a guy out

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oh here it is, my monthly reminder that i’m not a real man :’)

#i want to cry #i want to be weightless #i want to disappear #i wish things were different #sorry for being depressing #wishful thinking #period cramps #period #trans man #trans #transgender #mtf trans #help #why do i do this to myself #why why why #it’s not funny anymore #it’s not fair

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making my life easier

#dark acamedia #dark aesthetic #writing #wuthering heights #lifestyle #life is strange #life hacks #i did well #i did it #transgender #trans man #goodreads #good book tho #good books to read #old but still good

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:)

can trans ftm please reblog or just comment because i’m on my 6th gender crisis this year and i sincerely need help xx

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when you have no money but a gift card to amazon, low self control and transphobic parents who won't understand why their cisgender baby girl wants a binder, so you go to order off amazon, but see this post and lose all hope entirely

trans friends— this has been circulating a lot on the internet already but PLEASE stop ordering from gc2b. their quality has massively declined, they send the wrong size binders correctly marked, the stitching is extremely poor and rips often times when first putting it on. do not waste your money on them!

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thank you xx i'm really not that brave

can trans ftm please reblog or just comment because i’m on my 6th gender crisis this year and i sincerely need help xx

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i'm definetly in denial 😅

can trans ftm please reblog or just comment because i’m on my 6th gender crisis this year and i sincerely need help xx

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i am, thank you xx

can trans ftm please reblog or just comment because i’m on my 6th gender crisis this year and i sincerely need help xx

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i go by she/they rn so i was thinking he/him??

can trans ftm please reblog or just comment because i’m on my 6th gender crisis this year and i sincerely need help xx

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oh

yes please xx

can trans ftm please reblog or just comment because i’m on my 6th gender crisis this year and i sincerely need help xx

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i would but no one i know is overly supportive

can trans ftm please reblog or just comment because i’m on my 6th gender crisis this year and i sincerely need help xx

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i think i may be trans but i’m not sure..

can trans ftm please reblog or just comment because i’m on my 6th gender crisis this year and i sincerely need help xx