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I have to remember to post…More Male Mikasa doodles! <3

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Some male Mikasa doodles. I recently published ch.50 of the fanfic but I’m not sure if I’ll be able to post this weekend :( Season 3 pt2 is turning out to be more difficult to write than I thought. I’m still planning out the timeline and school is about to start in a few weeks. If I’m not able to post chapters then I’ll try to feed y’all some m!Mikasa art 😭

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I do have the tendency of disappearing, don’t I?

Chapter 49 has been posted which marks the end of season three-part two of my fanfic IWPU. At the end of the chapter I announced that I’ll be posting seasons one and two of the fanfic onto AO3. I’ll still be publishing on Wattpad since it’s my main platform, so need to worry that I’m switching platforms. I’ll be editing the story before posting it onto AO3, it’ll just be a cleaner version of the current story with less mistakes and more to my liking. (Nothing major) And I also said this at the end of the announcement…If I ever decide to write smut in IWPU (which would take place in season four) the chapter that contains the smut will only be published within it on AO3. The Wattpad version would not have it. I make no promises that IWPU will eventually have smut between Y/n and Mikasa since I don’t want people only reading for the eventual smut. —Once I’m done with season three-part two, season three will be published onto AO3 as well. It’ll take me some time to reread all the chapters and make edits, but I thank you for your patience as always. ^^

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Happy Birthday Eren Jaeger! 💕

And since Y/n is his twin in IWPU, it is also her birthday! ^^ For this day I drew the both of them together playing around. And I really like how Eren turned out, this was just a doodle I took my time on :)

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Hopefully…Saturday March 19th around 1:20pm central time, I make my come back with ch.38

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I’m taking too long with writing season three…I’m writing ch.42 now and that’s around episode “Sin” in the anime. And I’ve been on hiatus for like, six weeks I believe. But within the past six weeks my book has been getting more attention, and I’m very surprised with how quick we got to 160k reads! ^^ Thanks you guys!

I think I will be able to get up to speed with writing once I’m done with the lore within season three and I’ll get back to publishing sometime after it. So far I have five/four pre written chapters but as I’ve been saying in previous posts, I’ll be going back to makes changes.

Thank you for patiently waiting while I’m trying to get the story together right now! Here’s a drawing of Eren and Y/n (she doesn’t have a direct design within the fanfic, she has your features h/c e/h, etc, dw) since the two are siblings Eren is recalling how angry Y/n can become. I’ll post more m!Mikasa drawings later <3

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Happy Valentine’s Day!! 💖 As a small gift I’ll share some male Mikasa doodles I’ve done!

(The first doodle kinda creeps me out but I hope the two others make up for it)

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It was so haunting to see Grishas mental breakdown after killing the reiss family in the anime. You only got some of it in the manga but holy shit you really see just how broken he became after being forced to murder and entire family.

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How I feel when I’m writing season three of the fanfic…Especially after writing ch.40. It mentally drained me but at least I don’t have writers block. As I said in another blog post, season three will be the hardest season for me to write, I have to fit in original plots and lore while keeping true to the cannon, and make sure everything fits the timeline. Plus I have to decide what to cut out from my original plot to keep important things in. And because of this, like I said on my Wattpad, I’ll be on hiatus until I have a handful of chapters pre written. BUT I’ll likely extend it till I’m almost done with season three part one. This is so I won’t have to go back to fix things when I notice a mistake in the lore. And so I don’t go crazy. I have point A and point B down, but I don’t know how to get to point A TO point B. Omg and i have to make sure I don’t reveal everything this season…how did Isayama do this…pray for me…

No promises but I’ll try to post a oneshot here and there for you guys in the meantime.

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I’m making this man’s life worse with my fanfic…Hopefully y’all understand why I’ve had Grisha as my profile picture for so long now, he’s one of my favorite characters. Probably why I write so many father-daughter scenes of him and Y/n in the fanfic…obviously no reason behind it…

MAPPA really did a good job in this episode, the music, movement, and overall emotion they put to this scene. Grisha’s voice actor needs a raise.

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Season three of the fanfic will have the most original content (so far) but I’m pretty sure it’ll have the most cutout content from the anime/manga. The reason for this possibility is that the chapters will run long if I include everything plus original scenes. The first two chapters (38/39) are already 8k+ words and I’m not even done with ch.39...

Since we already know what happens in the anime I would cut out scenes from the anime to make chapters shorter so I can add my own content. I’ll probably only keep in scenes that mean a lot to the plot (lore explanation/backstories/character lore, etc) So I’m really going to depend on you guys knowing/remembering things from the anime...

I’m honestly not sure how to add romance to this season but I’ll try my best :)

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A little (that’s been hinted at) spoiler on what’s going to happen in tomorrow’s chapter, in the format of a meme cuz why not?

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Here’s some official art I have made for my M!Mikasa x reader insert fanfic! This is Y/n’s titan form (her titan does have a head but I decided not to draw it)

I used Annie’s Female Titan as a base for the drawing

I have other drawings of this on my Wattpad in different skin colors :)

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I have the sudden urge to write a Eren Jaeger fanfic. Either a reader insert or just a Eremika fanfic, just have to think of a plot idea.

Anyways— sorry for like completely ghosting this account. I forget to drop the casual future spoiler for my M!Mikasa fanfic.

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I completely forgot to say this here but ‘I WILL PROTECT YOU’ my male Mikasa x reader fanfic has been republished and is currently 17 chapters strong with many more to come :)

The link to the fanfic is pinned on my page ;))

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Remember when I had a (Black Butler) Sebastian x Reader fanfic on my Wattpad?

Yeah…me neither.

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I want to post some oneshots here as well, here’s one of the oneshots from my (male) Mikasa oneshot collection over in Wattpad! This one is Female Mikasa x Dying Reader. Ps, this does have manga spoilers!!

@Weird0taku (on Wattpad)

.IT'S A SHAME.

Spoilers for Manga and Season four Part two. I repeat, MAJOR Spoilers for the manga and anime, if you aren't caught up in the manga, specifically, chapter 138, then don't read this!

3rd POV,

Walking outside the mansion she glanced up at the dark sky, stars lit the place, it looked lovely. It was the same sky she saw back home. Going across the field she felt her coat get tugged, looking down she saw the little boy. The same boy from the market, Ramzi was his name. Smiling down at him the boy grabbed her hand and led her to his home. Speaking to her even though she didn't understand his tongue.

Y/n came to face many tents, lit up with lanterns, this was the boy's home. Ramzi let go of the older woman's hand and ran over to his grandfather. Giving him a hug, the two smiling. Y/n's weak smile grew genuine at the tender moment, the makeshift tents felt more like home than the mansion Kiyomi offered the scouts to stay.

Her throat went dry, knowing that it was coming she faced away from the tents and coughed into her elbow. Her cough was rougher than usual, her throat burning as she coughed. After almost a minute she pulled away and softened her eyes. The burgundy rose petals littered her coat sleeve, a bit of blood on the petals. Sighing she wiped them off and kicked dirt over the bloody petals. No one needed to know about her condition.

They knew Y/n had been acting differently but they all presumed it was because she was tired. Tired of fighting. Her eyes weren't the same bright e/c eyes she had back in 850, they were dull now. She would hardly smile truthfully, not even when they tried ice cream.

Feeling another tug on her sleeve she saw Ramzi, he offered her a cup of something. It wasn't technically a cup but rather a can. Ramzi and his grandfather saw her coughing, worried, his grandfather sent him to give Y/n a drink. He asked if she was alright. She didn't understand of course but figured what he was saying from his worried face. Reaching down to the cup she grabbed it and thanked the boy, bowing her head a little so he would understand. Raising the cup she smelt the drink, it was booze. Scoffing under her breath she took a swing, the liquid burning her throat even more. She didn't mind, it'll make her forget.

Exhaling after taking a gulp she heard footsteps approach her. Turning around she faced her. Feeling her face warm-up she sent her eyes away from Mikasa. The black-haired girl came up to her and smiled, that was until she saw the drink in her hand. Recognizing it as alcohol from the familiar smell of it. This wasn't Y/n's first time drinking, out of the whole squad she was the one that drank the most. Mikasa never understood why she drowned herself in it.

"If you're going to t-tell me that I shouldn't be drinking, please don't. The boy from the market offered it to me." Y/n stuttered, feeling warm in her cheeks. Her throat was beginning to burn again, she knew she couldn't cough up in front of Mikasa. She couldn't know about the disease Y/n had. Swallowing down a huff escaped her. Mikasa frowned. "I'm not, I'm here because I was wondering if you've seen Eren. He wasn't in Ms. Kiyomi's mansion just like you." Mikasa said, placing one of her hands on Y/n's shoulder. The girl got warmer, even after Mikasa mentioning Eren's name.

"I haven't seen him, do you...Do you want to stay here with me? You have a good view of some constellations here. I can show you them." Y/n asked, pointing up at the sky. She learned quite a bit of constellations over the few years, Marley had a lot. The most popular being the constellation of Helos. Mikasa gazed up at the stars, she gave it a thought but shook her head. "Sorry I can't, I have to find Eren. Maybe later." Patting her shoulder Mikasa walked away, going out to find Eren. Leaving behind Y/n.

She watched Mikasa go, her heat in her cheeks disappearing. Then she began to cough violently, thankfully Mikasa was out of hearing range. Covering her mouth with her hand flowers escaped blood spattering onto her palm. Knowing she was going to gain people's attention she stumbled away. Till she got out of range of hearing, she fell to her knees. She couldn't handle it anymore. She knew Mikasa didn't love her back, she knew that Mikasa never will. No matter how much she tried she couldn't forget these feelings she has for Mikasa. The unconditional love she had for her. This love would be the death of her.

Y/n knew of the surgery, it could save her life. But it was pricey and it was rare to find a doctor who could perform it. Besides...Y/n will rather die than forget the love she has for Mikasa. To never feel love again was a nightmare. How could someone live in this world without loving someone? Coughing up petals she couldn't breathe, it was suffocating her. Grabbing the can of booze she brought it up to her lips and drank what was in it. Gasping she finally got her breath again. Breathing heavily she saw all of the bloody burgundies rose petals in front of her. Picking up each one of them she went to find a place to throw them, including a place to wash her bloody hands. She came back to the tents but made sure to stay out of the light.

She wasn't sure when her feelings for Mikasa started, she thinks that they were just...always there and grew more as the years went by. Y/n always looked up to Mikasa, she wasn't the most skillful soldier, heck she didn't graduate in the top ten. Y/n was confident in herself though, hoping to be as strong as the girl worth a hundred soldiers someday. Her optimism helped others out, trying to lift others. She wondered where that girl was now. She could hardly make herself happy anymore. The only thing keeping her going was Mikasa.

Strong, talented, smart, beautiful, and many more things. Mikasa meant everything to Y/n. The h/c girl can't imagine what she'll do if Mikasa left...

"Mikasa why is it...that you care so much about me?"

Recognizing the voice of Eren saying Mikasa's voice the girl stopped in her tracks. Looking over in the direction she heard his voice she saw him standing next to Mikasa. Looks like she was able to find him. Y/n bit the inside of her cheek. She can't deny it, she was jealous of him. He had all of Mikasa's attention, she cared for him, she loved him. He made her happy...Shouldn't that make Y/n happy as well?

"Is it because I saved you when you were a kid? Or is it...because I'm family?"

She knew it was wrong to listen in to their conversation but to able to hear Mikasa's voice. The voice of hers that was filled with love and care, brought warmth to Y/n. Even if it wasn't directed to her. She heard Mikasa mumble over her words, not understanding what Eren was saying.

"What am I to you?"

Eren asked her, Y/n saw that he was facing Mikasa, though Y/n wasn't able to see the look on his face. She expected Mikasa to dodge the question and call Eren family like she always did. Coughing lightly Y/n was about to walk away till she froze completely. Shocked at what she heard from Mikasa.

"I love you, Eren. You're someone that I love and always have, that's what you are to me. I'll go wherever you go, not because you're family...but because I love you.

Facing the two from where she stood she stayed still. Her eyes widened. Eren reached down his hand and grabbed a hold of Mikasa's right hand. He must've said something but Y/n wasn't able to hear. Mikasa said something as well, must've shocked Eren since he went stiff. The next thing she saw was Eren and Mikasa running away hand in hand. Y/n wrinkled her forehead, her hold on her can cup and petals loosened and she let go of them. Reaching out her hand in the direction they ran she felt her eyes beginning to burn. "Wait...Mikasa." They continued to run not hearing Y/n's quiet call, soon disappearing out of her sight.

Y/n hoped they didn't leave, that they were going to come back. That Mikasa was going to come back to her. Falling to her knees it felt like she was suffocating again. Sobbing she cupped her ears, denying what she just saw. "She didn't leave. She didn't leave. She didn't leave. She didn't leave." She repeated softly to herself. Not even realizing that Ramzi caught eye on her. His gibberish went unnoticed, worried like before he saw her friends coming from where Kiyomi's mansion was. Waving out an arm he caught their attention, pointing at Y/n.

The group of young adults gasped when seeing her and went to her aid. Sasha and Connie squatting down next to her and asking what was wrong. Jean raised his brow at what she was saying but went to help her up. Armin was about to help until his eyes landed on the can, petals lingered around, trotting over to it he inhaled sharply. He saw the blood. Picking up one of them he went to Y/n. Jean had an arm wrapped around her as Connie helped him, the girl they were aiding had stooped repeating those words.

"Y/n..." Armin called, the girl opened her eyes a little and looked at the blonde-haired boy. He showed her the blood petal, "Is this...For how long have you had Hanahaki Disease?" He asked, his voice is filled with worry. Armin's question shocked everyone. All of them going to look at Y/n, she didn't say anything, tears rolling down her chin. Her lips trembled, finally gasping out an answer.

"Since the moment I laid eyes on Mikasa..."

.IT'S A SHAME

WE WEREN'T MEANT TO BE.

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