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lol when your dom forgets to give you aftercare so you give it to yourself and everything feels awful and you're dropping all over again practically begging his other sub for tips pn how to be better

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Holy shit I feel so hazy like I'm living in second hand smoke. He's gone... he's not here and my ears are ringing and my brain can't register anything other than his smell on this hoodie. Everything is just here. I'm not in my own body, I'm somewhere else. I'm not really breathing. Am I breathing? Is anything real anymore?

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Commission Info!

Tattoo Designs: $10 USD

Pfps: $5 USD for a sketch, $10 USD for a black and white, $15 USD for full color

Doodle Page: $8 USD for a sketch, $12 USD for inked, $20 USD for full color

Individual pieces: $5 USD for small sketch, $8 USD for large sketch, $7 USD for small inked, $9 USD for large inked, $10 USD for small full color, $15 for large full color Here are some examples of my art, TW for many eyes and horror like eyes

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Reblog if you're not homophobic

Every url that reblog’s will be written in a book and shown to my homophobic dad. 

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how motherfucking dare i use nounself pronouns how fucking dare I oh i'm invalidating trans people? oh okay fine. legit fucking leave me the actual fuck alone I can use whatever pronouns I fucking want, they make me happy and i feel good when they;re used. Sure i identify as a fucking planet or a crayon to some people but like also fuck off they're my fucking pronouns not fucking yours. My pronouns make you uncomfy, bitch you dont have to talk to me. And furthermore fuck off about my pink hair. and yeah i know i wanted to kill muself yesterday what of it i got guilt tripped by my fucking family because i didnt wanna watch hell's kitchen with them and iw anted to be on a call with my partners. News fucking flash i am a moither fucking teenager!!! so liek fuck off. Oh and i have to call my dad today and be like, hey you're getting married and moving five states away and you told your three kids they weren't enough for you and furthermore you broke the promise you made to me when i was 8 and you brought back up trauma from when you abandoned me when i was six but like best of fucking wishes to you buddy. Best fucking wishes. in short let me live my fucking life that i hardly wanna fucking live. I have no will to live if you'[ve noticed. but of course they don't beacsue i'm just the fucking scapegoat, i'm the retarded fucking problem child who should fuck off and die because god forbid im autistic, dyslexic, depressed, have DID and a number of other things. Sorry I don't wanna be the fuck alive maybe next time I should just go with my gut and kill myself, but if i do then i'm the selfish one. FUCKING PICK ONE MOM DO YOU WANT ME HERE OR DO YOU WANT ME DEAD. and for the record i'm not going to kill myself, I "have too much to live for" though imo i have nothing to live for. The staff at school hates me, and i bet they wish i was dead, and i hate myself. when your day starts off with someone invalidating your pronouns and then from there gets progressivly worse, you say something petty which was meant to be a jooke and then it morphed into something that was totally whack and out of hand and your mom dosent feel well so you couldn't call your dad and you wonder weather or not you you should even fucking bother at this point, your coping mechinism got invaliated and you have no idea what in the name of god's green earth to do. Additionally thanks to the whole situation with your copng mechanisem when someone from a system who your dating and are inpartners whips with people ion an altar comes out of dormancy you won;t be able to use a coping mechanim anymore because people are assoholes and you literally need to shower and you've only eaten popcron as a meal today and you're sweaty as fuck and literally just want someone else to take contorl fro a while so you can stop worrying abou things it-it's been a day-

#vent #tw #mental breakdown

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I have this perfume, it smells like childhood trauma, like it smells like childhood trauma 

I think I’m triggered by this perfume

#perfume #random #thoughts #random thoughts #childhood trauma #twist of watermelon #fuck life #mental health