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please I’m screaming I saw a spoiler and I’m literally gonna go insane like what??

#911 spoilers #I swear I can’t pick my jaw up from the floor

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Also, yes—the premier has pulled me out of the shadows 😌

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crazy ass shots if u think about it

#Plz ugh 😭 #911 spoilers #911 abc #buddie

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gilded lily x Soap & Ghost that’s all

#cod mw3 #ghost x soap #this song has been on a loop in my head for the past three days 🥲 #ghoap

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all I can think about is establish ghost x soap where ghost comes home to an empty house after letting soaps ashes go

one they worked hard to get and make it look lived in, not like the apartments they had were everything was plain and neat bc they were never home to make it messy

and then ghost just stands in the doorway, holding on by a thread and when he finally gets the courage to step in—he trips on soap’s shoes thrown off by the doorway haphazardly from the last time they were home

and he just breaks bc he was always on about soap putting his shoes away after tripping over them constantly

he falls to his knees and just cries and he doesn’t have to worry about neighbors coming over to pry bc they’re miles away—on purpose bc interacting with people was Johnny’s strong suit, not his and that make him cry more

and then he leans forward to stand and the dog tags rattle in his pocket and he pulls them out to look at them and the small glass with a bit of soap’s ashes comes out with it and he just loses it all over again, clutching both things in his hand until the knuckles white and his fingers hurt and he’s sure they’ll leave a bruise on his palm

#I love making myself cry 😂 #cod mw3 #ghost x soap #ghoap #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish

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it’s almost 3am and I was almost asleep when a thought crossed through my head

soap and ghost were so in love, can’t tell me otherwise

the sneaky glances? the little playful banter? the way they always made sure the other was okay, regardless of prying eyes?!

THEY WERE IN LOVE!!

#and now I made myself sad bc he’s gone 😭 #ghost x soap #cod mw3

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Moon, tell me if I could Send up my heart to you? So, when I die, which I must do

with music :3

#ghostsoap #ghost x soap #cod mw3 #not mitski 😭🥲

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it’s the way two little video game characters are bringing me back to this hellcite 😭

#I can’t catch a break with ships oMG

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"When my time comes around Lay me gently in the cold, dark earth No grave can hold my body down I'll crawl home to her him"

#ghostsoap #🥺😭 why #ghost x soap #cod mw3

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dammit, gym

i need gym teacher!derek who tries to peacock around music teacher!stiles. and just failboats. maybe a triangle serenade over a track meet chaperoned event 

#sterek #the way I was grinning from start to finish

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‘don’t you want your favourite character to be happy???’ no? i want my favourite character to be interesting. i want me to be happy. which sometimes involves my favourite character being in exquisite agony

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I just realized that Eddie most likely didn’t visit buck bc he knew that people would be coming around more often to check up on him and he knew he would be annoyed/overwhelmed by all of them (bc people did the same thing when he was shot) so he let him come to him a place he could get away from them

#I realized this like 3 weeks later but like 😫 #eddie diaz #evan buckley #buddie #911 fox

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Even before the episode, while rewatching old seasons, I was just struck by how big an impact Buck’s had on Eddie’s life. 

Like, please, picture this: 

You are Eddie Diaz, ok? An army vet who quite literally just went through an extremely traumatic experience, immediately got left by your wife and in a desperate move to find happiness for you and your son you move across the country to start a new life. 

You are the new guy at work and this man about your age really has it out for you. That’s fine by you. You’ve put up with enough bullshit in the army, you are just here to do your work, it’s harder than that to get under your skin. Plus, this guy seems okay, aside from all the dick measuring, and you’re sure he’ll tire himself out if you just don’t play along. Then, oh surprise, after a single shift you give the guy one compliment and he folds completely, before you know it he’s decided you two are friends. Fine, good. You miss the army’s camaraderie. This will probably be just like that. 

Few weeks in, Christopher comes up. You hesitate because you don’t like talking about your kid with strangers, but you are worried about him being out there alone during the earthquake and there’s really no way to avoid the subject forever. You’re already dreading the pity looks from people who don’t understand this kid is the best thing that’s ever happened to you. Instead, you get a wide smile, “he’s super adorable, I love kids”. In retrospect, you should’ve expected it. What you don’t expect is the way Buck spends the entirety of the shift reassuring you that Chris is alright, even when you’re pretty sure you’ve done nothing to betray your worry (you know better than to panic, it does nothing to help), but Buck seems to notice anyway and keeps sprouting curiosities to reassure you. He even drives you across the torn up town at a reckless speed to make sure you can reach your son as soon as possible. 

Few weeks later, abuela has an accident. Buck drives you to the hospital, even though you could’ve taken a cab to the firehouse to pick up your truck, and goes all the way in with you. He’s a good friend like that. Turns out, he’s a very good friend, because he catches you by surprise calling ahead to let the Cap know you need help with Chris and arranges a whole day of him hanging out with the 118. You didn’t ask for it, and he doesn’t expect so much as a ‘thank you’. 

Next night, he makes a big deal of introducing you to a woman and you are already dreading, once again, the reveal moment when you have to explain that thank you very much but you are still married and really your only priority right now is your son and- wait, that woman is the perfect caretaker that might or might not be the solution you’ve been desperately searching for to get your and your son’s life together.

This guy you just met a few weeks ago has given you friendship, reassurance, company, thoughtful help without you ever asking (you’ve never been good at asking for it) and he’s just sitting there smiling proudly while he helps you possibly assure your kids future.

All of this… it happens in the first FOUR episodes of s2 after Eddie is introduced. No wonder he’s in love ride or die for Buck. Who wouldn’t be?

In a year, they are inseparable. In two years, Eddie makes him Christopher’s legal guardian in case he dies. In three, Buck saves his life. In four they are basically a family and the person Christopher goes to in a panic. Five years in, Buck is in a coma and Eddie Diaz cannot even look at him, cannot picture a world where he’s dead, cannot envision his life without him. 

#buddie

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when you love someone, you say their name different. like it’s safe inside your mouth.

(for @evanbuckx​)

[Image ID: two gifs of Evan Buckley and Eddie Diaz from 9-1-1 episodes 4.14, “Survivors” and 6.12, “Recovery” :

GIF 1: Buck turning to look at Eddie in surprise as Eddie uses his given name. The subtitle is Eddie’s dialogue and reads, “Because, Evan…”

GIF 2: Buck rubbing the back of his neck as he thinks over Eddie’s question, and says, “Uh…Honestly, Eddie…”

/end ID]

#no bc why would you make this 😭😭 #but like the way they say each others name omgg 🫠😫 #eddie diaz #evan buckley #buddie #911edit #zee ily but not rn 🙁

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Amen - Amber Run

#why would you do this 🫠🥲 #eddie diaz #evan buckley #buddie #911edit

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my mom is watching 9-1-1 (in Spanish and it’s very important I say this) and buddie is still very much a thing in this language

like the translated words make it seem like buck and eddie are into each other way more than when it’s in English lmao

#don’t mind me just clowning 🤡 #buddie #911

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I would come for you. And if I couldn't walk, I would crawl to you, and no matter how broken we were, we'd fight our way out together-knives drawn, pistols blazing. Because that's what we do. We never stop fighting.

5x12: boston // 4x14: survivors* // 6x6: tomorrow // 5x17: hero complex // * // 2x13: fight or flight // 1x4: worst day ever // 2x3: help is not coming // 4x5: buck begins // 5x16: may day // crooked kingdom by leigh bardugo

#god why cant they just let them be happy 🥲 #they are always making them suffer 😭😭 #firefam #911edit