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“omg you’re so creative. how do you get your ideas” i hallucinate a single scene in the taco bell drive thru and then spend 13 months trying to write it

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anyway the actual point of fandom is to inspire each other. reading each other's fics and admiring each other's art and saying wow i love this and i feel something and i want to invoke this in other people, i want to write a sentence that feels like a meteor shower, i want to paint a kiss with such tenderness it makes you ache, i want to create something that someone else somewhere will see it and think oh, i need to do that too, right now. i am embracing being a corny cunt on main to say inspiring each other is one of the things humanity is best at and one of the things fandom is built for and i think that's beautiful

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Hi sorry I’ve been offline for a bit so just now seeing your post about PDD. I hope one day you’ll feel comfortable putting it back up again even if you never write another word of it. That piece is so beautiful and I liked to go back and revisit it often. I didn’t always comment when I did because I didn’t want you to feel pressured, but it’s one of my all time favorites and it will be very missed. Sending lots of good vibes your way! 💕

Thank you so much for your kind words <333 It genuinely means so much to me.

#btw comments are never pressure!! so long as they’re not literally ‘update when’ they’re always beloved!!

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please oh please oh please tell me you caught the caitlin clark bug and would write something about her ?? ik she's straight and i don't know what it is but she has my lil gay heart flailing

I had truly never heard of caitlin clark until about two days ago and know nothing about her other than “very good at basketball” so it is unlikely unfortunately bestie :((

#asks

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Another AO3 thing I’m curious about, how do yall decide if something is good enough to read? Usually I follow a rule of 1 kudos for every 10 hits. One because it’s easy math and two it’s yet to fail me. Thoughts? Do you just go for it and pray it’s good?

#its the general vibe. the feeling. #limited tags and a snappy summary always helps #i feel like that generally indicates the writer knows what theyre doing - not always but.

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Trista Mateer, from The Dogs I Have Kissed

#pldadam

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You hate pdd? Why? 😭

I wouldn’t go as far as to say I *hate* it, I just got to a place where I derived zero joy from writing it, and then managed to keep at it until I got to a place even further than that where I was actively upset whenever I did write it. But I kept going because I wanted to finish what I’d started and people read it. I was writing because I wanted to meet peoples expectations, which meant that if the chapters didn’t get “enough” statistical affirmation then I felt bad.

I’ve been constantly feeling like it needs to be edited to mesh the style of the chapters which were far apart from each other better, but to do that I’d have to read it and trying to do that makes me feel genuinely ill and makes me hate all of my writing in it so far. Which leaves me trapped in a weird anxious spiral where I can’t go and read it because that stresses me out but thinking about how messy parts of it are makes me even more stressed.

This week has been the first time in months I’ve enjoyed writing fiction and it’s been over a year since I enjoyed pdd. I might come back to it, but I just needed to not look at it anymore, and having that “12/25” on my homepage felt mocking lmao.

#asks #pas de deux #i took down most of my fics because I needed to not think about them #and most of the tc people i knew are gone now so it’s sort of like. i don’t know how to explain it #the community I used to have with writing those fics doesn’t exist anymore so a lot of the excitement factors gone too

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ninoadam x Blood!

Nino’s stall in the locker room is empty when Adam finally gets back, his gear bag still hanging half open, a wad of stick tape on the floor in front of it. There’s no sign of wrongness beyond that, no trail of evidence. 

Nothing except the blood of Adam’s split knuckles when he leans down to toss the stick tape away, nothing but the ache in Adam’s chest, the nausea at the base of his spine that hasn’t let up since he watched Nino go down and probably won’t until he sees him warm and unhurt again.  Nino is with the trainers now, having his leg stitched together or iced or wrapped up tight, in perfectly good hands, but Adam’s not going to see him as anything but bloodied and pale, won’t quite get rid of the anger that had him spilling his own blood into someone else's face until he’s right back beneath Adam’s hands. 

With a breath, Adam drops into his stall, Nino’s empty one loud beside him, and waits. 

Send me a ship/character(s) and a one word prompt and I will write a 5 sentence fic about it.

#im sorry about the blood in your mouth i wish it was mine instead etc. #asks

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dillymelo x Home!

Winnipeg isn’t Washington, isn’t Dallas or Vancouver or even San Jose. But it is closer to home than any of them have been in years. 

It’s Dylan who picks him up from the airport, even though Dilly had told him he didn’t have to, even though he’d only gotten into the city two days ago himself, even though it has been a year, maybe, since Dilly last had his skin beneath his hands; since the last home game in this same city when Dilly had wasted his curfew exemption on a few skint hours of sitting on Dylan’s brand new couch. 

When he slips into the front seat of Dylan’s car in the pickup line, Dylan looks across the console and says, “Hey Brenden,” and it sounds like Welcome Home. Whatever frayed part of Dilly he’s been catching between his teeth comes unstuck.

Send me a ship/character(s) and a one word prompt and I will write a 5 sentence fic about it.

#asks

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pldadam x Bruise!

The whole of PL’s ribcage is purple, mottled and darker in some places than others. He doesn’t know if it's from the game tonight or one last week or from something else entirely, something Adam doesn’t get to know about anymore. The same as he won’t get to know if it heals right, if it turns yellow next week or fades into nothing at all. 

When Adam rests his hand on PL’s side, he can feel the heat of the bruise radiate back through his skin, even when the bruises almost disappear beneath his touch. When Adam presses firmer, each fingertip digging until they turn white, PL hisses a breath through his lips, but his eyes, finally, finally meet Adam’s.

Send me a ship/character(s) and a one word prompt and I will write a 5 sentence fic about it.

#i love you babe <33 #asks

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vgk@wpg 2024.03.28

#just saying

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vgk@wpg 2024.03.28

#choking on my own spit #thank you bandaged hand for your service.....

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Send me a ship/character(s) and a one word prompt and I will write a 5 sentence fic about it.

#need to exercise

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PRACTICE: Pettersson | Oct 8, 2021

#its so fucking unwell.......

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“Do you have an opinion on the Tasmanian state election this weekend?”

“I have no idea what’s even going on.” x

#even most australians dont have an opinion shfbvjhbxvdv

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IT REALLY IS TIME TO SAY GOODBYE; ON LOST LOVE

Everything Everywhere All at Once (2022) dir. Daniel Kwan & Daniel Scheinert // Taylor Swift Wonderland // Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004) dir. Michel Gondry // pinterest // 방탄소년단 BTS OUTRO: House Of Cards // Sam Moe Corallium (via @voicedwords) // Blythe Baird "Horoscopes For Self-Doubt," If My Body Could Speak // Mitski I Don't Smoke // 花樣年華 In the Mood For Love (2000) dir. Wong Kar-wai // 방탄소년단 BTS Let Go // June Gehringer I Love You, It Looks Like Rain (via @geryone) // Mahmoud Darwish Memory for Forgetfulness

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me @ my mutuals