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HELLO THIS IS ME!!!! if you’re into rwrb, feel free to give it a read! :D

Sure As the Stars in the Sky anincompletelist 20k / explicit

[It shouldn't matter that Alex has been present for each and every one of Henry's most important life milestones, sometimes the singular catalyst for them. It shouldn't be important that he's grown to be more familiar to Henry than even some of his own family members, that part of him is burrowed so deeply into Henry's subconscious that he can taste it sometimes, that even when Alex crashes in, spirited and passionate, it feels like an easy exhale; like coming home.

It shouldn't matter, but it does.]

#my fics #<333

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#uh nsfw? possibly? #but this scene…. #i’m a firm believer of clear separation between character and actor howEVER #i would 10000% be leaving set feeling some type of wAy #chemistry is off the charts #rwrb

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V&A bts via Matthew López’s Instagram (pt2)

#i’m going insane ????? #rwrb #<333333

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This is more than just a mad infatuation.

#and another #!!!!!! #rwrb

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I have read your emails.

#YOURE JOKING #WITHIN MY ​TOP FIVE MOMENTS FOR SURE #thank goodness there’s a gif so i don’t have to keep abusing the 10 sec rewind button #my sons #my dads #<3 #rwrb

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Go read an old fic.

There’s such recency bias in fandom. As an author you post something, get a few reactions, and then it goes off into the bin. As a reader you check the tags, see what’s new, and move on. But a lot of old stuff is really good. It’s just sitting there, gathering dust, waiting for someone to take a peek.

So go on. Treat yourself.

Read an old fic.

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fanfiction was such a good idea. like put those guys in situations

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sometimes i need to remind myself that i'm writing fanfiction for free and i'm allowed to have a shitty sentence or two

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writing is amazing because you can have so many ideas that each have so much potential. but then there is also the writing

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is this fic self-indulgent? yes. but what you're failing to consider is that I can write whatever I want so it's fine

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a comic about fix-it fanfics

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what am i smiling at ? the made up scenarios of course

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happy fanfic writer appreciation day, ms Sarah!!! i’m so happy that you’re back but also, so happy that you kept your works with us bc they’re a real treasure! thanks for always sharing your best as a writer and as a person, i hope only good things come your way bc you deserve the best!! love you <333

wait wait is this a thing?? ahh 🥹💛 thank you and right back at you! i am so immensely grateful for the community that we have here. happy fanfic writer appreciation day to yourself and to everyone else on here!

whether your fics are posted on ao3 or still in the docs, your words matter so thank you for sharing them 🫶🏼

#nice #🥹🥹🥹 #lovely friends

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i love “science & faith” and i love you! sending so much love your way <333

LOU!!!!!!! it is so good to hear from you 🥹🫶🏼 i’m so happy that you enjoyed it, i hope you’re doing well, thank you for this lovely message! :D <3

#nice #ask #🥹🥹

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Love u!! I hope u start feeling better you were always such a light in the fandom :)

thank you 🥹 i really appreciate it! and that’s so sweet!!!!! i hope you’re doing well yourself <333

#ask #nice #💛

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Omggg are u back???? I missed ur fics so much

hiiii 🥹

possibly!!! i got really sick last year and everything kind of got put on hold for a while. i still don’t have the time/energy i used to have but i did enjoy finishing this last fic! i have several wips that are more than halfway finished that at one point i was really excited about, so i don’t want them to go to waste! i don’t know if i’m up for starting anything from scratch right now but i think i’m definitely going to keep adding to the ones i have going and see what happens :) 💛

thank you for sending me a message! i hope you’re doing well and that you enjoy the fic <3

#ask #fic talk

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science & faith

There are certain things he still believes, that he’ll probably always think are true. The adrenaline does run out eventually and the serotonin levels even out again. People gain and lose interest in each other constantly. The honeymoon phase dwindles away to the tune of other, sometimes more bitter realities. 

But maybe there’s a silver lining to all of it, like Harry suggested before. Or, even if there isn’t, maybe it’s worth it anyway just to feel something. Maybe the answer to his existential burning question lies more in how people handle the emotional fluctuation instead of solely its existence. Not to avoid, but to accept and acknowledge. Maybe the goal is to feel as many things as possible while they’re here, while they’re alive, while their hearts are pumping blood and their veins are thrumming with adrenaline, hairs standing on end. Maybe, maybe, maybe. 

Maybe Louis’ been wrong this entire time. And maybe that’s okay.

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moodboard by my lovely and always talented friend @cowboyharrystan (finally posting like two years afterward sjskjhd <3)

#my fic #ahhhhh #this feels weird #just a little something