someonebrandnew

[someonebrandnew]

I can see through your eyes

And what haunts them from behind

Afflicted by your irrational fears

And the concept of fleeting time

How many pages are left in your story,

And if you ever amounted to anything,

Questioning the fundamentals of reality

And if everything reroutes back to nothing

But what you can’t seem to grasp

Is the true insignificance of it all

Life is woven into the most complex pattern

Made by a string from the simplest ball of yarn

Humanity, and all of our little worries

Are just a thread fraying off the blanket

Try your best to ignore the monsters in the fold

And find the reasons why to be thankful for it

[someonebrandnew]

i hesitate,

hoping to prolong this moment.

the one before i break this silence,

before i break our hearts.

i think they've grown intertwined.

if yours breaks,

so does mine.

i hate to see you cry.

but this moment cannot last forever.

the time has come,

to say goodbye.

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[someonebrandnew]

― Fyodor Dostoevsky, White Nights

[someonebrandnew]

I know it is my father's first time on this Earth, too. And I know He had it worse when he was little.

But I was little too.

— Franz Kafka, from letters to his father

[someonebrandnew]

not quite in love,

but not left out in the cold.

curbing the loneliness,

with the company of someone who deserves better.

i cannot speak the words,

i cannot set you free.

leading you on,

even though i can hear the pit in my stomach

telling me you deserve better.

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[someonebrandnew]

i am all alone,

in the nest i made,

of thorns and spikes.



you cannot break me,

you cannot leave me,

you cannot reach me.

i can feel you reaching out,

over the rift,

the one that i made,

in the fabric of our love.

i will not let you in,

i will not crack,

i will not feel.

i pushed you away,

until you could no longer grasp my hand,

and offer the comfort i yearn for.

i am guarded by the distance.

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[someonebrandnew]

suffocating on the loneliness.

anxiety is filling up my airways,

not allowing any oxygen to pass through.

my lungs sit empty,

awaiting the air i need.

i no longer know if i am holding my breath,

wanting to punish myself,

or if my body is failing me.

the word sit on the tip of my tongue,

too frightening to speak aloud.

if i share my despair,

the monster that haunts my mind,

might send you running.

and i would rather suffer alone,

than abandoned.

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[someonebrandnew]

Rapture

Nitrogen narcosis, ravishment of abyss and summit -

telling yourself to keep breathing

when each inhalation further steals your mind away.

I'm euphoric coming down from mountains dangerous to scale;

gripped by visions surging swiftly from the ocean plunge of heedless joy.

Chemicals ring choirs chanting in my ears

unspoken words set to unreal music.

I rise faster.

keep breathing

I break the surface, throw off my oxygen mask,

laughing,

not caring, for once, if death or madness are near.

[someonebrandnew]

somedays,

i miss the hurt.

i miss taking the easy way out,

blaming all the hurt on life.

i don't miss the misery,

but i miss the simplicity of rock bottom.

no one can knock you down if you don't get up.

all my worst habits were easy,

and above all they provided me with a feeling of safety.

because no one could hate me more,

than i did.

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[someonebrandnew]

i strayed of the path.

and now i cannot get back.

i do not remember how life used to be,

only that it wasn't always like this.

the joy seeped out of my heart,

it poured and it flowed,

into everybody else.

i gave my all,

until i had nothing left to give.

now,

what do i have?

how can i get it back?

can i get it back?

am i just cracked,

or am i broken?

shattered like a glas on the stone floor,

sharp edges and a million pieces.

watch out,

so that you don't end up like me.

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[someonebrandnew]

do you remember me?

the sight of you

knocks the breath out of me

a punch in the gut

i wasn't ready

i'll never be ready

as much as i wish that i had forgotten

i remember every moment

every touch and every word

now tht you are here

palpable and real

not just a dream

i wonder

do the moments we had

flash across your mind,

like a picture show

as they do in mine,

or have you forgotten

every moment

and every touch

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[someonebrandnew]

i could feel your breath on my cheek

it was hot with your fever.

after i gave you your medicine,

i gave you a kiss,

and i could taste it on your lips.

in sickness and in health,

i will keep that vow.

but seeing you like this,

so fragile,

so very mortal,

terrifies me.

when i said

"until death do us part",

i never thought that it may come one day,

especially not today.

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[someonebrandnew]

My strength is that I love you;

You’ll never, truly know,

cause I will be dead quiet

and never let it show.

I’ll never use those chances

to slip away some truth

I’ll never harm myself again,

and break those healing rules.

But my strength is that I love you;

I’ll show a certain glow,

it’s something that I can’t escape;

My body tells and knows,

But you are miles away,

and you are never, truly here,

so I will be all safe

sitting next to you; right here.

And loving you, all just the same

through heavy storms

and pouring rain,

you’re beautiful

so beautiful,

I see it, and I know;

My strength is that I love you;

- though I’ll never let you know.

«Loving you peacefully»

[someonebrandnew]

This time is not like the others.

I put in the work,

And i did it all right.

Nobody can tell me i did not fight.

Because this time i put in my soul,

Into my very last try.

I struggled and fought,

And this time I thought,

I would be all right.

But i ended up where i started.

And there is no road ahead.

There is nowhere to go now.

At the end of the road,

So where do i go

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[someonebrandnew]

Repair,

Relapse,

Regret,

Does the cycle ever end,

I wonder.

Sick of feeling broken.

I struggle and i fight,

Yet every time,

I end up where i started.

Wandering in circles,

Hoping to break the pattern.

On my knees,

Begging for a way out.

I do not know for how much longer

I can keep up the fight.

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[someonebrandnew]

The nightmares came back.

The first night you slept in the hospital bed,

I woke up in a pool of sweat,

To the sound of my own terrified scream.

I woke up afraid,

In an empty apartment,

Wondering if you would feel better or worse today.

I woke up alone,

And felt hollow all the way though into my bones.

I don’t want to be awake,

And I don’t want to sleep.

I just wish for peace.

Come back to me.

Please.

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[someonebrandnew]

your breath was too warm against my cheek.

i knew right away,

but i let you sleep.

in hopes that you would heal,

if only you got some rest.

but when you woke,

your voice was but a whisper,

asking for a pain killer.

i could always tell when the meds wore off.

the pain disturbed the rhythm of your breath.

the rhythm that i knew so well.

i would wake when you did,

ready to hand you another pill.

i could never sleep,

when you were suffering right there beside me.

i just wanted to hold you,

and make the pain easier to bear,

but i am no healer.

and my hands could never make your pain go away.

i could taste the medicine on your lips

and i wished

on every shooting star,

that you would be alright again.

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