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sparkofiinterest · 3 years

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someone vandalised a bunch of traps protecting native trees and birds at a park ive been to and love, why are people like this :(( public park trusts don’t have lots of money

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the aesthetic <3

Untitled - Karlotta Freier , 2020.

German, b. 1991-

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I can only change myself... the world will follow

The end quote my therapist used to close our session.

Now it currently written on a post it note sticking onto my wall.

That is something I needed to hear, and I am sure there are others out there that need to hear it too.

There are many things that are out of our control, and we have to take it in order to make it to the finish line!

*It is like me studying to be a school psychologist and having to take a statistics course in order to get my diploma. (Pray for me, that was my lowest grade of all time which I am still trying to work on for my sake.)

Rather than getting mad at everything around me, I decided to figure out what I needed to do to help me get by every other class I am taking from here on out (whether it is truly necessary or dispensable).

Especially with the New Year starting (and a new moon coming up tonight, January 12th 2021), there should not be an excuse as to what is stopping any of us. Most of 2020 was hard to adapt to, but here we are breathing!

Cheers to a New Year! Lets start changing for the better and not give any fucks (time/energy/money) towards what doesn’t matter in our lives and begin changing our own lives for the better.

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Confessions of Mary Jane

Friday / January 8th, 2020 8:00pm

- Friday Night Smackdown is currently on right now (gotta love WWE, ammiright?)

like seriously.... is that not a mood?

ANYWAYS, lighting a joint clip as I type (and watch) since today was one heck of a day...

I went to the gym (& in the morning!! Although highly unusual, I also had no choice thanks to COVID). First day back was slow but steady and am so happy that I was able to pull through with it.

Because now here I am. Sitting in my office. Watching TV. Like every other night.

Usually, my boyfriend is with me already but he is late tonight. - I swear as the minutes went by without a response my anxiety kept boiling to the point where my lid was going to pop off...

To help me get over the thoughts taking laps throughout each crease in my brain, I smoke them out before it becomes a migraine.

(Following rules and regulations accordingly OF COURSE) I WANT TO GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE.

Of course, I know I’m not alone. But the unanswered question is... who is willing to hear me out?

- I am studying psychology (finishing my bachelors) and minoring in anthropology to try to understand and help other individuals (including myself even). ----- Although I put all of my fucks (time, money, and energy) into hearing out the pain and suffering of other individuals (who are unique in their own way, NO JUDGMENT), I feel that the learned helplessness that I developed with time also impacts the way I try to get that same help.

Although I’m not alone, I’m not getting any response. Can anybody even hear me?

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When your boyfriend packs the bong for you to hit it >

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I am a day dreamer and a night thinker.

Unknown (via quotemadness)

puff puff puff

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Confessions of Mary Jane

Monday / January 4th, 2020 11:11pm

One thing I noticed is that ever since I made this account, I have been more motivated to write out my thoughts while toking weed in some form - I was also hoping that other people out there gave at least a slight fuck about what I have to say too. ✍

I am sure that there are people out there who can relate to these emotions too - it is one of the reasons that leads to minimizing the stress (at least for me, and possibly you too). 🧠

Tonight, I am toking the bong with my boyfriend. He is sleeping over tonight (thank god!) - it really helps me since my high tolerance for weed doesn’t always cut it for me (cuz then I smoke a lot more rather than actually trying to save $ in the midst of a pandemic). 💕

I have a joint ready to go (only downside is the thick rolling paper since that was all I had left). I was watching WWE before and I literally just remembered at this moment (11:22pm) that I had this rolled for me personally (it is even small enough dammit). - Why have I not smoked it? - How did I forget that I had rolled something earlier today? 🤷‍♀️

^^ (so friggin’ cute!!)

Okay, BACK ON TOPIC. (I really need to start training my memory skills) 😖

Overall, I seriously need to figure out how to take better care of myself. (And that will start NOW.) 👍

Now I’m getting distracted by the TV. Guess I’ll go focus on what is around me instead of being glued to the screen. 📺

Till the next toke 🧨

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Always have a plan laid out for the worst possible circumstances - that way it will be easier to get by anything. Prepare for the worst in order to bask in the great.

It's all about perspective.

(C) @titsay

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vibing - heavy

🌼 [source: motherthemountain on instagram]

#goodvibes #vibe #vibes #flowers #duck #animals #just keep swimming #positivity #positive #support

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Confessions of Mary Jane

This will be a common thread.

I mean, I am a huge stoner. And I know I’m not the only stoner in this world. Or with these thoughts.

One of the most difficult questions to think of right now... is what do I want to eat?

- I smoke to help me eat since my stress diminishes my appetite on a daily basis.

Currently 3:45pm and I got Five Guys - was instantly craving a strawberry milkshake - all while watching Gordon Ramsay yelling at negligent restaurant owners.

Even with all the hectic shit going on in the outside world, you can always make good out of the spot you are standing in at this very moment - all it takes is not putting your fucks (aka: time, energy, and money) into what isn’t going to ACTUALLY benefit you.

Now that I think about it, I really need to create a fuck budget.

hmmmm....

The first thing I am going to give my fuck towards is the joint I just rolled - there is always more room for me to be get higher up into the clouds - teehehehehe

till the next toke I guess

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Self-Cyph

Did a little photoshoot by myself to show some self love 💗 How do you think I did?

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Looking at both sides♾

It is currently January 3rd of the new year 2021. 6:47pm.

I am sitting in my office playing back to back Ted talks hoping I will learn something at least on a subconscious level.

All while puffing on a joint I personally rolled. (joint is fat, as per usual)

As I am finish up my bachelors in psychology (and want to take up school psychology further down the road), I also noticed how many of the traits are significant to my zodiac sign.

Since coming across my whole birth chart, coming to know myself came to be much easier. - It also explained why two Virgo women I know and love are different in so many ways.

Little did I know the horoscope article of the newspaper only covered the Sun within. Next thing I knew, the moon within lies in Gemini and what rises to the outside world is a Cancer (explains why I get so emotional).

Although some people do not believe in it (especially the moment they do not resonate with the print), there is always more underlying information (some more hidden than others).

Rather than pushing it to the side the moment it lacks sense, I am going to start asking WHY or HOW.

A quote I will always remember from one of my philosophy professors: “One question leads to more being asked.”

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What is your favorite crystal? 💭

Mine is Lapis Lazuli 🧞‍♂️

Something about holding it in my palm sends energy through my veins - the brightness of the blue relaxing every muscle in my body. 🧘🏻‍♀️

Being a Sagittarius, I instantly felt a connection with it the first moment I laid eyes on it in a small Buddhist shop in the heart of Queens. 🏹

Out of all the stones that sat in the basket, my hand instantly pulled out a perfectly oval piece with an indent that perfectly fits the grasp of my fingertip. 🔮

Tell me your favorite crystal and the reason you are connected to it 💓

Keep sparking that flame 🔥

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Friendship goals > 👥

We all need someone we can call when things go great or even fall under. Everybody has a story to tell, and there are people willing to take the time to read it. Some will admire while others will criticize. However, you know the true meaning behind the words printed on the page. And there is someone out there who wants to catch up on the whole series. 📚

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Hoping these feelings of lonesomeness that anybody is going through get left behind in 2020! 🙏🏽

Open to hear anybody’s thoughts, opinions, concerns, fears, etc. etc. etc. ✨

In the midst of a pandemic that is making us close our doors, I am lending a hand (metaphorically speaking) to open up our mind and our hearts in the hopes that we will make it out stronger than ever! 💖

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We need to send more positivity out during such harsh times. Cheers to the new year! Let us go into 2021 with more optimism & work through this pandemic one step at a time (slowly yet surely!)

Excerpts for a 1920's newspaper during the Spanish Flu

#happynewyear #2021 #newyear2021 #cheers #positivity #positive #goodvibes #happiness

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