starboundanon

[starboundanon]

because i was luke skywalker - a legend.

#luke skywalker #inspiraion

[starboundanon]

#din darjin #grogu

[starboundanon]

That relatable moment when you're awkwardly stuck in an elevator with your father and don't have anything to talk about.

#luke skywalker #darth vader

[starboundanon]

#whoever you are — your art is gorgeous #vaderluke

[starboundanon]

Good Night, Son. I’ll be home in 3 rotations.

Star Wars AU in which Anakin doesn’t turn to the Dark-Side. He is instead a General in the Rebellion, and Luke still grew up on Tattooine.

#au's i need desperately #luke skywaker #anakin skywalker #inspiration

[starboundanon]

For how many years has Din been King in your mando foundling au?? (btw very hyped for that one!!! ✨🕺)

Din is relatively new to being Mand’alor by the start of the fic, so I’d say maybe one year, or somewhere around there.

So glad you’re looking forward to the fic! I hope to have the first chapter posted soon. 💋

#herbie asks

[starboundanon]

Hi Herbie!

I just finished the last two chapters of SotF. And … my heart is just broken! I’m so sad for Obi and Luke! But also, I’m blown away by your fabulous writing. You just squeezed all our hearts and kept us captivated to the very end. This story was definitely harder for me to read in terms of content, because it felt so realistically abusive and heartbreaking. But again, you have handled it all so amazingly. You are a truly talented writer/story teller. Thank you for sharing with your readers!

Anon, thank you so much for this ask. ♥️ It made my whole day. I know angst and tragedy can be hard to read (and hard to write, if I’m being honest) but the fact that you stuck with it and found it captivating right to the end is all I ever wanted to hear. 💋

#herbie asks #tw darkfic

[starboundanon]

All I could think about was Obi-Wan drinking and then going over at Bail, completely drunk and talking about how he "should've listened to you. You were right. Worse, I wish you were right and this didn't happen" except Leia's listening in and both anger and guilt fill her because how did she not see it? Just how?

And just... Leia and Han will spend the rest of their life always thinking about him, and what they consider were their mistakes, looking for Luke and just for a way to help him now even if they know that they can hardly help someone who doesn't want that help (but that's the thing right? Luke did want their help but by the time they could give it to him it was far too late.)

- 7 AM Anon

Admittedly, thinking about what happened to Obi-Wan and Leia and Han after the fic is one of the hardest things about this ending. But that’s what I like about writing tragedies that end so openly: if that’s what you imagined happened afterwards, then that’s what happened! There’s nothing canonical to suggest those things couldn’t happen, so if you decide that Luke pushes Anakin from their penthouse balcony and runs back to his real family, then that can be the true ending to you.

I know some people find that unsatisfying, or exhausting, but I’ve always been a sucker for fics that light that spark to your imagination and let it blaze. Especially after a such a heavy fic, for me personally, it’s always more of a comfort to know that things could still work out — in another time, another story.

Thank you for reading along with this long, occasionally very angsty fic, my friend ♥️ Especially at the ungodly hour that you did, lol. And thank you for all the very kind asks along the way. 💋

#herbie asks #tw darkfic

[starboundanon]

To be honest, there is no way in hell I can believe that Anakin, even an AU version of him, is smart/cunning enough to pull off a plan with that many moving parts, because Anakin's always kind of not been That Guy-- it sort of seems like a fundamental part of his character. But I totally CAN totally believe this is a universe where he simply got a lot of luck and for once it swung in his favor instead of everything going to shit. (Luke seems like he's the one who got the shit end of the luck stick in this one, lol.)

This has been an interesting story to follow, because the end has felt tragic and inevitable. We knew from the start that the monster was going to win. I didn't enjoy it, but I enjoyed watching the construction of it, if that makes sense? There's just something that much more tragic about Luke's shitty fate being tied to him being a good person, and his love and kindness being turned and used against him. It makes me ache for him and Obi Wan and Leia and Han and Bail and everyone else in his life that Anakin deliberately took Luke away from.

I'll console myself by thinking of hopeful future fantasies for Luke (and Anakin accidentally getting compacted to death by a garbage truck or something), and also being so fucking jazzed for the Mando foundling story, Congrats on finishing!

I mean, both Anakin during TCW and Vader during the OT are renowned for being brilliant tacticians (and exceptionally brutal). As my friend @hallowest likes to say, Anakin is "high INT, low WIS." He's canonically extremely intelligent — but only when he wants to be. Usually he's perfectly happy to rely on brute strength, but when he needs to be cunning, when he needs to be tactical, that is in no way a skill he lacks.

Regardless, I'm glad you enjoyed watching the tragedy fall into place, even if the ending was more bitter than sweet. Luke and Obi-Wan came out of this on the losing side precisely because of their love of Anakin, and it's emotionally exhausting, because without that unconditional love his entire plan goes to shit, and he knows that. Worse: Luke knows that! He knows that he is directly responsible for his father’s victory, and even then, he can’t bring himself to thwart it.

Rest assured that, while the villain may have won in SotF, mando foundling AU will have a much fluffier (albeit still quite trashy) arc and outcome. I’m so glad you’re looking forward to it, and thank you for taking the time to read SotF, as harrowing as it was at times! ♥️

#herbie asks #tw darkfic

[starboundanon]

Sins of the Father

Summary:

Three months before the end of his senior year, Luke comes home to find a man he doesn’t recognize sitting on his uncle’s couch.

What follows is the happiest moment of his entire life: meeting the father he never knew.

What follows that is worse than anything he could have imagined.

Read chapter 24 here

#vaderluke #analuke #tw dark fic

[starboundanon]

HERBIE!!! THAT UPDATE!! i’m so sad for luke and obi-wan my god… also obviously i figured that that was where anakin was going/planning once you said he wasn’t fighting back but i’m glad that luke at least managed to talk him down from that. out of curiosity, is it that anakin knows All the cops in town from working for sidious or was there just something anakin knew regarding who was on shift etc? and did luke immediately lie about what was happening because he’s afraid of anakin or is he just that stockholmed that his instinct is to protect him?

oh also sidenote but am i misremembering or did sotf use to have a happy ending tag on it? 😭 bc i dont know if i can see that being the case at this point but i feel like i remember it having it at one point..

I think Palpatine has cops on his payroll all over the place — but especially in a town where his favoritest henchman was just living in. Anakin probably set the whole thing up, but I like to leave some of the more finicky details to the imagination. Could all just be a happy coincidence that Piett and Ozzel responded to that call. Maybe this was just Luke’s fate.

As for why Luke lied… that’s really up to interpretation. Fear played a part, sure. Humiliation, definitely. Recognizing that something wasn’t right with these cops and that justice wasn’t likely to be served, even if only on a subconscious level. And I think Luke wants to stay with his dad, at least to some degree. Maybe he’s not in love with him but he does love him; he does want this person in his life, for better or worse, even if this is the only way he can have him.

And there’s shame at play, too, because regardless of why, of natural bodily reactions to things, Luke feels deeply self-conscious of the fact that he did physically enjoy the shit his father did to him. He doesn’t want Obi-Wan to know that, even if he knows everything else. He doesn’t want that dark secret to come to light.

SotF did not have a happy ending tag, since this is very much a, “the villain wins” kind of story. Might add the Hurt No Comfort tag when I post the epilogue, but even that is kind of subjective.

#herbie asks #tw darkfic

[starboundanon]

Listen... There is NO WAY Luke wouldn't lust - or at least have a crush - after his father even if all of that didn't happen, right? Right?????

At least — at the very least — Luke would be constantly bewildered by his father’s otherworldly beauty and very overwhelmed whenever the man showed him any kind of affection.

Which, yk, Anakin would consider to be lust/a crush, no matter how innocent it really was, lol.

#herbie asks #tw darkfic

[starboundanon]

I will leave a comment on the latest chapter to but I just needed to tell you just how GUTTED the last chapter of SOTF left me 🥴 my stomach literally hurts, I really thought anakin was about to get got but then NO 😭 you're writing is so fantastic 🫶

Awww haha, thank you so much for the kind words, my friend. ♥️ Apologies for the stomach ache. Anakin should’ve got got, the pieces were all in place… sadly, he was manipulating the board. And no one knew until it was too late.

I hope you enjoy the final chapter once it’s posted. 💋 Thank you again for brightening my day ✨

#herbie asks

[starboundanon]

Sins of the Father

Summary:

Three months before the end of his senior year, Luke comes home to find a man he doesn’t recognize sitting on his uncle’s couch.

What follows is the happiest moment of his entire life: meeting the father he never knew.

What follows that is worse than anything he could have imagined.

Read chapter 23 here

#analuke #vaderluke #tw darkfic

[starboundanon]

Oh my GOD this was so good 😩brb just gonna blow away in the wind like a lifeless husk

A little something inspired by @starboundanon and the glorious Sins of the Father 😘

Tuesday After Noon

He wondered if he’d developed some sort of sixth sense that shrieked an alarm when his father was coming. It felt like an impending thunderstorm, a change in the atmosphere, like something beautiful and terrible was crawling across his skin and burrowing into his body.

Or it could just be the sound of the private elevator rising to the penthouse.

Whatever the reason, Luke’s breathing quickened. He froze in the kitchen, pushing the washed plates aside, waiting and clenching his fists with anticipation. It was mid-afternoon, too early for his father to leave his office, especially after he’d come by at lunchtime as usual, checking to ensure that Luke was eating and having a light meal himself. When he’d left after bestowing a hard, lingering kiss that was a promise for later, Luke had assumed Anakin wouldn’t be back until evening when he would spend an hour or two on paperwork in his home office. Sometimes Luke sat on his lap, watching the numbers his dad manipulated on the computer screen. Sometimes he sat on his dick, pelvis spasming as he clenched his muscles around the base of the big cock inside him. Sometimes Daddy allowed that and thrust hard. Sometimes Daddy bit Luke’s neck to reproach him.

But this would be the first time Anakin had returned in the afternoon. He could sense impatience, maybe anger in the footsteps, and frantically searched for a reason. He’d been such a good boy for weeks, why would his daddy be mad?

Anakin arrived like sudden summer lightning, charging into their home, stopping in the dining room. His gaze focused on Luke standing by the sink. His face was blazing with triumph, not anger, his mouth twisted in a victorious smirk. His eyes glowed like an animal at night as they reflected the golden sunshine that bounced off the towering skyscrapers surrounding them.

He didn’t speak. His breathing was rapid, and Luke twitched, mesmerized by the fire in his father’s eyes, paralyzed with excitement and fear and eagerness. With one hand Anakin freed the single button on his suit jacket.

Oh.

Luke dropped down. Anakin didn’t come to him, so he crawled the distance between them on hands and knees. He sat back on his heels and looked up at his father and bit the corner of his mouth. His daddy’s lips were stretched wide in a wolfish grin. Swallowing, uncertain but growing more positive by the moment, Luke reached up and cautiously opened the onyx belt buckle. When his daddy didn’t stop him, he slid down the zipper and carefully pushed aside the crotch of the tailored pants. The silk briefs tented aggressively in his face, and Luke felt his own cock growing as he pulled out the big dick. It was warm and sweaty, and his dad’s unique musky scent made him lick his lips and hunger for a taste.

He waited for instruction, maybe a hand in his hair, but Anakin’s fists were balled on his own hips, so Luke lapped at the velvet head of the rigid pole, tonguing the leaking, salty precome. Wrapping both hands around the base and hoping to control how much he took into his mouth, he rocked his head, taking more of the length with each bob. It was thick and heavy and it was never easy to take it all, but he drew back and ran his tongue from balls to cockhead before swallowing it once more, lips wrapped around his teeth, his mouth stretched as widely as he could.

His daddy grunted, his hips jerking as he groaned long and low. He finally fisted Luke’s hair, yanking his head all the way down to the base. He choked as it shoved past his gag reflex and was pulled almost out, then thrust again, once, twice, finally ramming hard and deep, shooting down his throat like it would fill him totally, more than any meal could. His daddy pulled back slightly, flooding his mouth with hot, thick cream, and he struggled to swallow it all, not wanting even a drop to be wasted.

His father was breathing heavily. After a moment, he drew out his softening cock and wiped it across Luke’s lips. Obediently, he used his tongue to clean it, ignoring his own screaming need to come. But he couldn’t unless Daddy said it was all right. And Daddy said nothing, just held his dick in one hand and waited.

He was so dazed with need, it took a few seconds to understand. It wasn’t easy to get someone else’s cock put away and arranged comfortably, to get the pants zipped, the button closed and the belt buckled.

Still on his knees, he waited as Anakin straightened his jacket and smoothed his hair.

“Be ready for me tonight.”

He nodded and dared to look up and watch his gorgeous daddy walk to the hallway and pull the door closed behind him, the lock snapping loudly.

#anakin's such a dick i can't stand him #and by “can't stand” i mean “utterly adore” #tw darkfic

[starboundanon]

Hi! A little birdie told me (ok ok it was Herbie!) that you have lots more juicy thoughts about the Padmé lives AU of SofT and I wanted to ask politely (beg on my knees) for you to share some more! I love what you have written, those drabbles are a perfect combo delicious and disturbing!

I'm so glad you're enjoying them! Tbh I'm so hyperfixated on this AU right now & am having the most fun writing for it. I promise absolutely nothing, but I feel like there will be more.

In the interim, to answer your question, here are some thoughts I've had... I'm very much conceiving this as darkfic, with an Anakin just as (if not more) sinister and possessive as SotF Anakin. @starboundanon please chime in if there's anything you want to add!

Anakin wants to control every aspect of Padmé and Luke's interactions. He wants to play Happy Dollhouse Family, and he knows it would work if everyone would just listen to him

Padmé is swimming in guilt (idk why she was gone for so long; I'm sure she had an excellent reason, but she's still feeling so guilty about it) that Anakin is absolutely exploiting, while pretending to help. She's afraid to overstep (what she has been told are) Luke's boundaries, but she so desperately wants to know her son. So she keeps trying to reach out to him, but she also holds herself back, seeming withdrawn to Luke.

Luke's anxiety is through the roof. He does want to know his mom, but he recognizes the danger signs in his Daddy's behavior, and he's afraid to mess up and bring that anger down on all of them. So he also holds back, and Padmé perceives that he's rejecting her. Which she takes as evidence that Anakin was right, and Luke's still so hurt/shy! Which feeds into her guilt more, etc.

Luke feels obligation to his mother, and is trying his best to protect her, the only way he knows how (placate Daddy)

Anakin is gaslighting the shit out of everyone. If at any point Luke & Padmé seem to be making progress, he sabotages it right away. But of course he's just ~protecting~ them, he just doesn't want anyone to get hurt...

Anakin is having a blast playing with Luke, using an unwitting Padmé to tease him, slipping into his room at night - not predictably; he keeps Luke guessing, never sure when his Daddy will appear - fucking him tenderly and possessively and brutally depending on his mood, leaving marks just out sight, where Luke has to work to keep them covered. Luke is constantly on edge, hating that they're back to sneaking around, but perversely glad for his Daddy's attention.

Padmé's starting to pick up on the fact that there's something not quite right about Anakin/Luke's relationship... she doesn't notice the sexual stuff, I don't think, at least not explicitly, but she definitely sees how possessive Anakin is of Luke's attention, how controlling he is, and how fixated Luke is on his father.

Padmé starts wondering if she really belongs here, if she's even wanted... or loved.

There'll have to be a big confrontation at some point, everyone is so tense and miserable... but that's spoilers!

#yesss Trash share that GOOD SHIT 👏 #this au fucking kills me #I suppose we should save *some* things for the next drabble(s)... #but man is it hard to keep quiet about a hyperfixation this intense lol #tw darkfic

[starboundanon]

Yessss to all of this.

The next time Padmé sneaks off from to ask Luke to help her pick out living room curtains or what to have for supper, Luke backs away like she’s a guy with a gun, makes some excuse before fleeing. Anakin comes home to find his wife in tears, holds her when she tells him that she doesn’t know if Luke will ever forgive her, promises that he will, he’ll come around, of course he loves his mama. And all the while he’s smiling, cheek resting on top of her head, where she can’t see it. “Just give him space, Padmé. He’ll come around.”

Anakin fucks Luke so good that night. A little rough, because he’s so pleased, so proud, so happy his baby boy has been behaving. Fucks him and whispers filthy words of praise that make him keen, then scolds him for being too loud, “Shhh, baby. You don’t want mommy to hear.”

Anakin, right in front of Padmé, just to be a hurtful dick and hammer home the fact that Luke "can't bear" to be touched by her, holds him and kisses Luke’s forehead. He's the only one allowed to do that, the only one Luke "trusts." It cuts like a knife in Padmé's heart, but she has to pretend it doesn't.

Anakin encourages Luke to be chatty with Padmé when they’re all together, like Trash said — but the line between “chatty” and what Anakin would consider to be “inappropriate” is so fucking thin and hard to find. Luke has no idea what he can and can’t say, which topics are safe, how much emotion/eagerness is TOO much, etc.

Anakin takes pity on the poor boy at some point, after listening to the most stunted conversation between him and his mother, Luke’s one-word answers to every question, yes ma’am and no ma’am like he’s being questioned by police. “Luke, why don’t you tell your mom about the trip we took to Bespin last month?” helping him open up, set the topic, tell him that it’s safe.

(@hornyfandomtrash has some ideas about what really happened at Bespin... maybe if you ask nicely, she'll tell you.)

Anakin blows his lid because Luke was having a little too much fun talking to mama. Gets him over his knee to discipline him for it later, and Luke sobs and confesses that he couldn’t help it, it was the first time anyone’s ever answered his questions about what his dad was like before prison, the first time anyone’s actually WANTED to tell him that, the truth. Blushes and says that he just… he just liked the way mom told those stories. Liked the softness of her voice, when she talked about getting meeting him, falling in love with him, marrying him. How dreamy happy he sounded.

Anakin can't stay mad at that.

Hi! A little birdie told me (ok ok it was Herbie!) that you have lots more juicy thoughts about the Padmé lives AU of SofT and I wanted to ask politely (beg on my knees) for you to share some more! I love what you have written, those drabbles are a perfect combo delicious and disturbing!

I'm so glad you're enjoying them! Tbh I'm so hyperfixated on this AU right now & am having the most fun writing for it. I promise absolutely nothing, but I feel like there will be more.

In the interim, to answer your question, here are some thoughts I've had... I'm very much conceiving this as darkfic, with an Anakin just as (if not more) sinister and possessive as SotF Anakin. @starboundanon please chime in if there's anything you want to add!

Anakin wants to control every aspect of Padmé and Luke's interactions. He wants to play Happy Dollhouse Family, and he knows it would work if everyone would just listen to him

Padmé is swimming in guilt (idk why she was gone for so long; I'm sure she had an excellent reason, but she's still feeling so guilty about it) that Anakin is absolutely exploiting, while pretending to help. She's afraid to overstep (what she has been told are) Luke's boundaries, but she so desperately wants to know her son. So she keeps trying to reach out to him, but she also holds herself back, seeming withdrawn to Luke.

Luke's anxiety is through the roof. He does want to know his mom, but he recognizes the danger signs in his Daddy's behavior, and he's afraid to mess up and bring that anger down on all of them. So he also holds back, and Padmé perceives that he's rejecting her. Which she takes as evidence that Anakin was right, and Luke's still so hurt/shy! Which feeds into her guilt more, etc.

Luke feels obligation to his mother, and is trying his best to protect her, the only way he knows how (placate Daddy)

Anakin is gaslighting the shit out of everyone. If at any point Luke & Padmé seem to be making progress, he sabotages it right away. But of course he's just ~protecting~ them, he just doesn't want anyone to get hurt...

Anakin is having a blast playing with Luke, using an unwitting Padmé to tease him, slipping into his room at night - not predictably; he keeps Luke guessing, never sure when his Daddy will appear - fucking him tenderly and possessively and brutally depending on his mood, leaving marks just out sight, where Luke has to work to keep them covered. Luke is constantly on edge, hating that they're back to sneaking around, but perversely glad for his Daddy's attention.

Padmé's starting to pick up on the fact that there's something not quite right about Anakin/Luke's relationship... she doesn't notice the sexual stuff, I don't think, at least not explicitly, but she definitely sees how possessive Anakin is of Luke's attention, how controlling he is, and how fixated Luke is on his father.

Padmé starts wondering if she really belongs here, if she's even wanted... or loved.

There'll have to be a big confrontation at some point, everyone is so tense and miserable... but that's spoilers!

#vaderluke #analuke #tw darkfic