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Good morning! May I request Chae yul from secret alliance with a touch-starved and a face dysmorphic reader? I'm just intrigued with obsessive works especially since as a child I tried to be kind even when people thought I was ugly and I always felt alone ^^'. P.S I love your tumblr page and I hope you're doing alright. I don't know if you're going through something but I hope you spend your days cloud gazing with cats ♡

yul is free therapy for you !! ♡ ⫶ SFW

˖꒰ sipnosis . . . you need the affection of people, but no one is never actually there. you can't help but blame yourself because of that. in your head, it was obvious that everything was because of you and your looks. but don't worry, yul is here for you. and he will be here for you forever. ꒱♡

˖꒰ yan! yul chae x face dysmorphic! gender neutral! reader ꒱♡

˖꒰ warning(s) . . . slightly yandere: possessive & obsessive behavior, confort(?), metion of bully & plastic surgery, grammatical errors, self-insure reader, depression, the reader thinks REALLY bad about themselves, cursing, words like “beautiful” and “handsome” are the only thing that may give the reader a gender. ꒱♡

˖꒰ note . . . SECRET ALLIANCE FANDOM HERE I COME. i love yul, he deserves the world and you can't change my mind. i hope you have a good day, anon! ‹3 please don't let people tell you if you are or not ugly. you're as beautiful as a cat. and we all love cats here. BTW THANK YOU SO MUCH LIKE I THOUGHT THAT MY PAGE DIDN'T LOOK THAT GREAT SO I WAS GONNA CHANGE IT BUT NOW 💕💕💕 AND YESS CLOUDS AND CATS, MY LORD, I JUST DON'T HAVE THE WORDS FOR SAY HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM. can you believe it? this one was deleted out of nowhere and i had to write it again. like, tumblr is my worst enemy rn i'm so angry /gen. thank you for care, but don't worry, i'm ok! also, don't forget take care of yourself!! stay safe. ‹3 ꒱♡

˖꒰ masterlist . . . ꒱♡

you didn't know why, but for some reason, people always seem to hate you. it torment you for such a long time. you didn't know what else you have to do for make people like you.

then, when people start calling you ugly, you just accept it. like if you already knew it, you just laughed awkward.

it was a nightmare. everything went down and you really lose your mind. you couldn't even watch yourself in the mirror. they say you were ugly. ugly? you? is that why people didn't like you? you didn't know, honestly.

of course, looks is important. it only makes sense, right? if you're not beautiful, then people don't like you. because they just can't. nobody likes ugly situations, ugly things nor ugly people.

it made you so insecure.

you can change your actitud, pretend to be someone you aren't, but you can't change your appearance that easy. it cost money, and a lot of it, so surgery wasn't an option for you.

you tried everything. diet, make up, clothes, haircut, accessories, all. and still, you never were sure enough. and how could you be, when people still don't like you?

you run out of ideas. what else should you do? what else can you do? «you don't need people to like you», that's what your parents say. but you need it. you need the affection, the touch, the talk, the love people can provide. doesn't everybody need it? even really deep, deep down?

school was hard. you didn't know if it was bad or good that they didn't pay you any attention. you don't want to be tormented for the rest of the year, sure, but at least they would care about you. even if it was with bad intentions.

you felt like if you could loose it in any moment, the lake of any kind of attention was killing you.

and then, you meet him.

chae yul. that was his name.

it was love at first sight. that, and the fact that he was the handsomest boy you ever saw.

he was injured —he probably got into a fight or was bully, you thought—, and he didn't look pleased to see you. well, to be fair, no one did.

it was just something about him that make you feel alive in the moment you lay your eyes on him. that's probably the reason why you didn't left his side after that.

you were really okay with yul acting like a meanie all the time; you were used to that kind of people. but you swear yul is different. he could just ignore you and he didn't! besides, even if he didn't seem to like you, he didn't insult you. he never call you by bad names, and recognize that you had a lot of determination —but you could tell that he wanted to make fun of you while calling you a person full of determination—.

time is not the only way of make things better, it took you a lot of attempts and patience to make him be less… “angry” all the time. it was going great, actually. you two would chat and talk in your free time so frequently that you almost call him your friend.

now, don't get me wrong. you wanted to be his friend, even more than that, but you always thought so bad of yourself while he was- what? some kind of emo aphrodite?

he was handsome; a truly beauty. the #1 in the top 10 of people that looked amazing no matter what.

but that was exactly the reason why you didn't bring yourself to be his friend. who could ever want to be your friend, anyways? you were nothing compared to him or compared with anyone. people dislike the ugly things, and you were ugly. in fact, you should be thankful that he was there for you. that he was so nice to be near you.

you called yourself ugly more than people did. you just knew you were ugly, and still… why do you always think that maybe you two were friends? why did you have to love him? why couldn't you be as pretty as everyone? you never did something wrong. all the things that happened to you because of your face… it was really that important? for real? you have to keep living like this for the rest of your life?

you were a crybaby for cry over such a simple thing. surely, there was people going through worst things. your problems shouldn't even been called problems in comparison with other people's problems.

“hey, what are you doing here?” you almost break your neck because of how fast you turned to see who was there.

it was yul. of course. he usually sits in the school stairs, after all.

“a-ah…” you had no words and when yul saw you crying he seem to be in some kind of shock. “i'm sorry, i… i- i just–”

“the fuck happened?!” he almost fall from the stairs for going down too fast, and put his two hands in your shoulders. “hey, [name], what's wrong?! did someone hurt you?! are you okay–?!”

yul wasn't your friend, he wouldn't think of you that high. and still, he was here, worry sick because he just saw you cry. if he wasn't the sweetness being in the world, then you didn't knew who was.

“y-yul!” you cry harder, and let yourself fall over him with all the intention of hug him.

he stoned himself there for a long time, untile he hugged you too.

you were so embarrassed. probably, you felt so sad that you couldn't hide anything from him anymore. you told him most of your problems, if not all of them, still crying. if embarrassment doesn't kill you, the intense look that yul gave you will.

“what the hell, [name]?” you couldn't look at him. not now, that you just vent everything to him. “uhm, i… know i'm not the type of person that has a lot to say, and even if i did i wouldn't, but… we been together since half of the year. i just thought…” he paused himself for a moment. “that we already were friends…”

“huh?” you finally looked at him, surprised.

“i'm sorry for being an asshole, i didn't meant to. i was mean even when we first meet, and even after i thought of you as my friend i keep it like that. i just don't know how to… show the same treatment you show me. you're always so good to me and i… i'm sorry, i'm so sorry…”

“…” you were froze right there. you didn't knew what to say. this was the first time someone ever, ever, tell you sorry. and just for giving you the cold shoulder? instead of him saying sorry, you wanted to say sorry. he was wonderful, you didn't meant to make it sound like you were angry at him. it wasn't the case at all! he was your light, so why is he still saying sorry?

“and don't you dare to call yourself ugly! look at you, [name]. you're… you're beautiful. n-not only beautiful! you're the prettiest person i ever meet, i mean it. why would you ever though of yourself as less? you're not only cute, but also the only one who has been kind with me. please, even if you don't like yourself that much, at least remember that for me you're important.”

“u-ugh, you're an idiot chae yul! i- i thought you really didn't like me!” you hug him, this time, tightly.

“i know, i'm sorry.” he brushed your hair while he also felt like crying.

“i thought i'll never have a friend!”

“i'm sorry.”

“i thought i'll be alone for the rest of my life!”

“i'm really sorry.”

“everyone is so, so mean…! i re-really try to get them to like me, you know!”

“don't worry, it's okay now.”

“[name]!” you felt someone jumping on your back, knowing who's the voice, you smiled.

“yul! there you are!” you giggle at the man hanging on your back. he became so warm towards you. well, back when you two were younger, he did say he was going to try his best in order to have a better relationship with you.

“how was your day? did you eat the lunch i made for you? tell me, did you like it?” he keept clinging over you, not that you care. you loved it when he touched you. his affection was always welcome with open arms.

everything was so nice right now. even when you still where insecure about your looks, you had yul here. yul told you that he will always be there for you, he never lied to you, so how couldn't you believed him?

“ehem.”

“ah, yes, sorry! i got distracted.” almost forgot! you where with your most recent new friend before yul arrived. “yul, this is hyunee. she has some class with me. hyunee, he's yul chae. he's my…” you let yourself wonder a little, what was yul for you? since you two started university, you two lived together in the same department. he cooked you food most of the time so you don't have to eat the food in the cafeteria —he says it sucks, but you didn't tried it ever and you're pretty sure he also has never tried it— and you two went at the cinema or any place you two liked every weekend.

that's what friends do, right? even if one of them didn't want to be just friends?

“your boyfriend?” hyunee finish for you. “there's no need to hide it, you know. doesn't everyone know you two are dating? he's literally over you all the time. even before i know you i had hear about how lovely-dovey you two act even though we're at the uni.”

“W-WHAT?” you were about nothing to jump, but yul's hold was really strong for it to happen. “n-no! yul and i–”

“[name], we have to go! lunch will end in any second now and we have the next class together!” yul let you go, but quickly hold your hand and start walking.

“ah, you're right. goodbye hyu-! NO, ACTUALLY, WAIT! YUL, I DIDN'T–!”

hyunee did miss the way he was holding not only your hand, but also your waist. now, what hyunee didn't miss was the dirty look yul gave her.

«yikes», her whole body tense up for a whole minute. why do you have such a weird boyfriend?

“i don't like her.” he murmured under his teeth.

“haha, yul, you don't like nobody.”

“i like you.” his hand pressed a little harder your hand, not letting it go.

“pfft, that doesn't count. c'mon, we still have classes.” you changed the subject fast, hopping he didn't notices the big blush in your face.

he laughed, making obviously that he —indeed— did notice.

#yandere x reader #gender neutral reader #secret alliance x reader #yandere secret alliance #yandere secret alliance x reader #chae yul x reader #yandere chae yul x reader #is this even yandere at this point #secret alliance masterlist #i liked this one ngl #yul my beloved

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starfly-lumi · 2 years

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Hey!! If your asks are open- ignore if not, could I request Noel from Witch's Heart with an s/o who has a very heavy attachment to him?? to the point they'll even defend any kind of bad behavior from him? I think that'd be pretty interesting! Have a nice day and drink stay hydrated!!!!

my child is completely fine !! ♡ ⫶ SFW

˖꒰ sipnosis . . . noel is the sweetness person ever. everything he does and says is for your own good, and you know it. even if his last method wasn't… a normal one. ꒱♡

˖꒰ yan! noel levine x gender neutral! reader ꒱♡

˖꒰ warning(s) . . . delusional & obsessive behavior, delusional reader, unintentionally manipulation, dark content, blood, murder(?), established relationship & manipulation of memories ꒱♡

˖꒰ note . . . omg do you spy me??? i was just about to write something with a reader who doesn't mind having a yandere and is really casual about it, but i didn't know what characters i should use first. this is kinda like it?? i really liked this idea, thank you for requesting! I DIDN'T MEANT TO PUT MURDER HERE BTW BUT I JUST GET SO EXITED WITH THE IDEA AAAHHH. don't forget to also drink a lot of water and eat all your meals! also, sorry if you wanted any particularly gender for the reader. ꒱♡

˖꒰ masterlist . . . ꒱♡

if there's someone that loves you like anyone would, then that's definitely noel. he loved you just as much as you loved him. he was always there for you when you need him.

for you, noel was more like an angel. he was too good for this world, always trying hard for the people he love, always giving everything without expecting anything back, and you loved him.

it was perfect. he was always so kind, and he was your boyfriend. no, he was way more than just your boyfriend. you two were soulmates. made just for meet the other. you will always be thankful with the destiny to let you know he exist.

i mean, how could you not like him? even if he did the worst of the things, it surely was a lie or he had a good reason for doing it. please, he wouldn't hurt a fly.

"i wish i could see the stars with you forever… i can only hope we get the chance to see them the next night, and the night after that."

you always wonder yourself why he wouldn't be out of his room until the sun was no longer there, but you never asked. maybe he just wanted to sleep more than usual!

while you were okay with him not getting out of his room (but still mad because he skip his breakfast, witch was bad for him), sirius will usually says something about it. he may mean no harm, but it still make you mad.

sometimes, he'll have to vent. you were really okay with it, even actually pleased, because it reminded you how much he trust you.

he ends up begging you to not leave him alone, in the dark. it never fails to make you feel terrible sorry for him and all he had to go through in his childhood.

but he never told you everything. just some little things that are barely something, but still a lot more that what he will normally say to anyone. he was always too scared. but you understand, as always.

he loves you so much. he doesn't even know how he can take all this love! but he's so unsure of how to show you love.

he will always say how he loved everything about you, inside and out, and start talking about how he couldn't keep himself as happy as he is right now with you. he will do anything for you, you just have to name it.

all he needs from you is a little compliment, a "good job!". it really makes him feel better about himself. he's trying really hard to save you and claire from who is always trying to kill her.

but when things go wrong, he's really fast at saying sorry. he didn't want to show you anything that make you stay away from him. he hate it when he showed you the ugly parts of him.

"noel!" you run towards him as soon as you saw the blood in his clothes, thinking the worst. it was really late at night, and your boyfriend covered in blood wasn't your ideal night. "oh my god, a-are you okay? did something happen?! who did this?!"

he muted your name, shaking and almost crying.

"i am so, so, so sorry. pl-please, i'm sorry. i'm such a t-te-terrible lover. i'm sorry, my love, i'm sorry." he hugged you close, almost falling over you when you hold him.

"hey, no, no, no, no, no, no. you're no way a terrible lover! please, tell me if you're okay. you're covered in blood!" still hugging him, you try to look all over him to see where the blood was coming out. but when he holds you strong and careful to not hurt you, you realize that he can't be injured with this strong hold.

so, the blood isn't his.

you just stay there, like a stone, while you hear him crying.

you don't want to think anything bad about him, so you just hug him back. gently touching his hair.

it's okay, even now, he was still noel. your noel. he would never do anything bad without a reason.

it didn't matter anyways, and you knew it. when you less expect it, you will be back to your first day in the mansion. when you still thought he was nothing but a puppy who only wants you to like him.

#witch's heart x reader #yandere witch's heart #yandere witch's heart x reader #noel levine x reader #yandere noel levine x reader #yandere noel levine #yandere noel #yandere noel x reader #yandere x reader #gender neutral reader #male yandere x reader

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