âShe remembered thinking falling for him would be like falling in love with darkness, but now she imagined he was more like a starry night: the constellations were always there, constant, magnificent guides against the ever-present black.â
â Stephanie Garber, Caraval
(via the-book-diaries)
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I mean. Yeah. being thrust into this insane world / business at 18 irrevocably altered my brain chemistry. but I gotta say, I wake up everyday and make a coffee and sit with my son while we have breakfast and I think to myself âyou made it out relatively unscathed to this point, kid.â and for that I am grateful beyond measure. all it took was the exhaustion of waking up and self evaluating on a microscopic level for the past 5 years (which nearly killed me) BUT. Iâm here. And I have kept it pretty much together (best as I can) as of recent. which is more than 18 year old me would have ever given herself the faith to bet on. Growth and pain and peace on the horizon. You got this.
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when it rains it pours,
but how big must a puddle grow
before it is considered a pond?
when does a pond become a lake?
iâm drowning,
but i insist that iâm dry.
insist i couldnât die.
now every single day is overtime.
is extra credit.
is derealized.
iâm drowning but i
wring my clothes
and promise that iâm dry.
itâs good for the flowers, they say.
thatâs very good.
youâll need them soon.
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Grand Teton National Park by Kyle Sipple
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My therapist once told me, âYou are the guiltiest feeling person Iâve ever metâ and just to prove her right, I took it to heart. An astrologer said, âYou have so much water in your chart. What is it like to feel the emotions of every single person alive, everyday?â and I wept because I sensed he was displeased. A teacher told my parents âSheâs very sensitive. Far more than the other kids in her class.â I took my SATs at 9 years old, but they encouraged my mother to hold me back because of how my eyes glistened when I heard the word no. She told them to go to hell. So I cried my way through my education until high school when they said âYou take everything so personally, youâll never survive in a company environment. You wouldnât make a good employee.â So I employed myself (out of spite orâŠnecessity) and then later, I hired 200 people. A boyfriend told me âDonât be so dramatic, everything isnât a movie.â Fine, so itâll be an album then. The doctor said âThis shouldnât hurt a bit.â I tread daily on a minefield that leaves me classifying the variations in footsteps, the tonality in voice, a change in breath. âIs everything okay? You seem madâ is my pledge of allegiance to this tightly wound bundle of flesh. I am cut open, butterflied and flayed, with every single nerve exposed like live wires and, yes, they all hurt to touch. Each interaction is a litmus test of how well liked I am, and therefore how worthy to live. I wake up every morning and the moral barometer resets, T-minus 12 hours to prove to myself that I am not the bad person I believe I must be. Sleep, repeat. An amnesiac nightmare. Prometheus on a rock and the gull in my guts is myself. I once envied those with greater armor, but not anymore. âWhy do you care so much?â Guard yourself from the little grievances, but the shield does not differentiate. The space where I am vulnerable to the pain that passes through is an entry point for the microscopic good that others may miss. I live in technicolor torment. If I could do it over again and choose the comfortable grey, I would seize a knife and cut the little keyholes back into my every limb. So the light can get in.
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âMusic is, to me, proof of the existence of God. It is so extraordinarily full of magic, and in tough times of my life I can listen to music and it makes such a difference.â - Kurt Vonnegut
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âSunlight and tall trees and us dancing beneath them, all spotted with light.â
â Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson
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behind the scenes IICHLIWP film, Prague 2021.
By donslens of course.
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The cottage at night, Scilly  -  Kurt Jackson
British, b.1961 -
Acrylic on card , 15.5 x 17cm   6 1/8 x 6 11/16 in.
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âThe purpose of the poetry is not to dazzle us with an astonishing thought, but to make one moment of existence unforgettable and worthy of unbearable nostalgia.â
â Milan Kundera, Immortality
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âAfter much thought, I have come to the conclusion that there is nothing more difficult in this world than to surrender completely. This is one of manâs greatest sorrows.â
â Clarice Lispector, Selected CrĂŽnicas
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Santa Maria della Salute, Antonietta Brandeis (Czech, 1849-1926)
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@paperandcities | Instagram
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Finish each day & be done with it. You have done what you could. Learn from it; tomorrow is a new day. -Ralph Waldo Emerson
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New Zealand | photoadams
Location: Stirling Falls, Milford Sound, Southland, New Zealand
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