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’Cause we never gave in. And we’ll sing hallelujah, we sang hallelujah.

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am I feeling too much or is this an appropriate reaction

is my mood swinging or am I just responding to situations

#literally going back to therapy because I need someone to answer this

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These are the badges I was given to sell at the beach today, so... guess what I’ll be listening to 🐍🎶

#reputation #taylor swift

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Her voice broke at “you’ll get better soon” and evidently so did I

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me to you @taylorswift i love you <3

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Me when Taylor started playing soon you’ll get better

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Days since crying to Soon You’ll Get Better: 0

#taylor swift #swiftie #taylornation #soon you’ll get better #mom said oh theres a reason you skip this one in the car #god i love her

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I always forget how much I like Rainbow by Kacey Musgraves until I hear it. That was very beautiful.

#honestly almost cried

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taylor when she comes on screen today probably: hi i'm taylor

me, crying: yes you are

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so i know most of us dream of living somewhere abroad, but if you had to stay in your home country and could move anywhere within it — where would you go? i’d be packing for the pacific northwest immediately

#tennessee #mostly nashville #but anywhere that isnt New Jersey honestly

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Quarantine is wearing on me. I hate living at home normally and now I’m stuck here 24/7 and I can’t deal with the teasing with no emotional outlet. I lost my job (can’t collect unemployment, so paying loans with no income), I lost dance (the only thing I enjoy in a normal week), and I have online school (literally my last choice in terms of learning atmospheres).

I can feel my depression getting bad again, but no one cares and it’s exhausting keeping it together when I just want to lay in bed without moving

#quarantine #stress #depression

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someone: why do you read so much soulmate shit it’s cheesy 

me internally: uhh probably because i’m obsessed with the idea of unconditional love and someone who won’t abandon me. the idea that i am destined for love and therefore inherently lovable means more to me than i can express with words, and compounded with the idea of someone who will love me forever, the concept of soulmates truly appeal to the (large) part of me that makes me feel that i’m going to die alone

me aloud: i just think it’s neat

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Well I’m now laid off until the 30th... I’ve held a job (or been at school full time) since I was 15 and now I have to file for unemployment to keep my student loan bills paid and I have to drop to the minimum payment, so it’s going to take longer to pay off these loans... I shouldn’t complain because I think I have enough saved from working to keep up with my loans, but I had a whole plan and now it’s gone... and also I hate living at home

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I think everyone I know is tired of me complaining, but like I am so stressed... I got laid off for at least 2 weeks, so work isn’t an issue anymore (I still worry about the clients I care for, but it’s not constantly on my mind), but now school is picking up online and I’m doing so bad... I need good grades if I’m going to get into grad school, but I also have to teach myself 80% of the content (from books we were told we didn’t need at the start of the semester)

...well I’m off to go try and teach myself the entire respiratory and urinary systems and hopefully not fail my test tomorrow