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she feels pity for dredgens, but only the ones that went in thinking they could use the dark to save the world for there was something still redeemable in that hope. those of them that sought power and found themselves consumed, she finds it an amusing and just punishment. to ask the dark for power under the idea you’ll still keep your own self intact? that’s just pathetic.

#❪ about. / from seraph skies‚ you’re now chaos bound. ❫

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‘ i deserve to hurt. i deserve to bleed. ’

‘ growling suggestion ’

status: accepting. ↳ @shtrsn.

     you have to hurt, you have to bleed but no guardian deserves these punishments. the gift the traveler gave, it’s payment was blood: it’s debt was your flesh and in turn they had made gods of mortals and machines. the term god-slayers is more apt. this power was an act of mercy, but it also bred an amalgamation of problems that people never really tried to acknowledge. stress and anxiety disorders, lack of self-respect, lack of self control ‘cause after all  -  self destructive tendencies didn’t matter when you could just be revived. aurelia had once been on that spiral before. (  more  than  once,  if  she’s  honest.  ) ❛  just  because  they  happen  to  you  doesn’t  mean  you  deserve  them,  sunbreaker.  ❜ her words are soft like honey as her eyes glance to the titan in question, it’s not her job to provide counsel for she’s no vanguard leader but she was around before the last city was even a city. when it was just a couple of huts bound together by a handful of families. her gloved hand, delicate and gentle moves to rest on the other’s back. her touch is soft and her head bows in respect.      ❛  the  traveler  didn’t  create  you  to  suffer,  you  deserve  so  much  more  than      the  pain  you’ve  settled  for.  ❜

#shtrsn #❪ asks. / some questions weren’t meant to be answered. ❫

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#❪ mirror. / you’re the sun that burns at night. ❫

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starter  call,  while  i  make  icons !!

#❪ ooc. / oh no. ❫

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       thanatonauts, during the dark age they were called deathspeakers. visions were shared between guardians and things were learned. they learned about themselves, their world, and what was to come. none aurelia remembered more than morgana, the thanatonaut that took her own eyes so that she might see in waking dreams the world the traveler meant for earth to be. like a nightstalker this feeling was addictive, she prayed angela wouldn’t fall into these same vices. even still, spotting her here in the edz isn’t as surprising as the warlock might’ve made it out to be. she laughs to herself, she remembers the village that was here before. she remembered a child sitting on the very stone angela was on now. they made a sword out of a stick. it’s a reminder of how fleeting life is.        ❛  there’s  a  former  kell  house  across  the  river.  they  were  lost  to  the  dark  age,  but  you  might  find  something.  ❜  //  @herdiligence: sc.

#herdiligence #❪ i. / living in the night 'neath heavens torn asunder. ❫

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based on this suggestions blog.  warning:  these are pretty dark/angry  &  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding!!

‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  &  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me?  ’ ‘  all i want is to be soft  &  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  &  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’ ‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’ ‘  burning it all to the ground  &  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’ ‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own?  ’ ‘  do you trust me enough?  do you trust me at all?  ’ ‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’ ‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’ ‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’ ‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’ ‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  &  i touch  &  i touch  &  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop?  ’ ‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  &  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  &  my eyes are still stretched wide  &  terrified.  ’ ‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for?  ’ ‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’ ‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’ ‘  i am aching to hold you  &  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’ ‘  i am divine  &  you will bow before me.  ’ ‘  i am fucking divine.  ’ ‘  i am in control  &  i listen to no one.  ’ ‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’ ‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’ ‘  i am not worth saving  &  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’ ‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’ ‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’ ‘  i bow to no man.  ’ ‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  &  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’ ‘  i can give you your wings back  &  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’ ‘  i cannot be saved.  ’ ‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’ ‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’ ‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’ ‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’ ‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’ ‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’ ‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’ ‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’ ‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’ ‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’ ‘  i have fallen  &  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’ ‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’ ‘  i have no home anymore.  ’ ‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  &  then i remember nothing.  ’ ‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’ ‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’ ‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’ ‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’ ‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’ ‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  &  maybe someday it will be true.  ’ ‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’ ‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’ ‘  is it my fault?  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’ ‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right?  ’ ‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  &  suffocating on sadness.  ’ ‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’ ‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’ ‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’ ‘  i’m so cold  &  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’ ‘  i’m so tired all the time  &  i just want to be awake again.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’ ‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’ ‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’ ‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’ ‘  loneliness is a disease  &  it leaves me empty  &  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  &  bounces back.  ’ ‘  made of starlight  &  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’ ‘  my anger is righteous  &  my actions are pure.  ’ ‘  my chest aches  &  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  all i need is some comfort  &  understanding.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’ ‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  &  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’ ‘  pull me apart  &  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’ ‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  &  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’ ‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’ ‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’ ‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  &  plead for help?  fuck off.  ’ ‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’ ‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  &  you better remember that.  ’ ‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’ ‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’ ‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’ ‘  voices whisper from the shadows  &  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’ ‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved?  ’ ‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it?  ’ ‘  who the fuck do you think you are?  ’ ‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying?  ’ ‘  with a new year comes new tests  &  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’ ‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once?  ’ ‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  &  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’ ‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’ ‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’ ‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’ ‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’ ‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’ ‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’ ‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’ ‘  you touch me  &  my skin burns  &  it burns for you,  always you.  ’

#❪ memes. / now and then everyone needs a break. ❫

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      the light wanted an army, that much was clear. aurelia saw the kind of people that were resurrected. for every mother yearning to protect, there were two warlords craving a title of god-kings. light in the wrong hands was more powerful than the darkness that had culled a exuberant amount of species. with the speaker alone, aurelia found herself intrigued, would he cling to his blind faith like a guardian to a favored gun  -  or would he be honest?         ❛  what  does  the  light  want ?  ❜  //  @lightvoices: sc.

#lightvoices #❪ i. / living in the night 'neath heavens torn asunder. ❫

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headcanon  //  aurelia had a husband and a daughter, she wrote about them extensively in her journals and during the two months she was dead they left with mara’s offer. while she feels no familial bond, when reading the journals she does feel a longing for something she can’t truly remember. it’s made her a more fierce maternal figure, as she’s adopted the kids of the lost city, she runs several homes for orphaned youth in organization with a faction called the ‘lost souls’. she’s a devout opponent of executor hideo and the new monarchy.

#❪ about. / from seraph skies‚ you’re now chaos bound. ❫

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Times may be dark - but we are Earth’s greatest hope. Look around you. A gathering of noble guardians, new and old. Our home was attacked. I was there - fought against the endless onslaught. Despite the sacrifice of many brave guardians, we lost everything. The tower, the City - our home. Today we know our enemy, and his name is Ghaul. I know you look to me in the times of peril, but this is not my battle alone. It is time to avenge this injustice - for that is the duty of all guardians. So I ask you, who will stand with me?

#❪ vanguard. / searching your eyes for a saint is an act of futility. ❫

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      aurelia remembers her first dawning in the last city and how there was lights everywhere, abilities of the arisen were used like fireworks in the night. it’s changed now, it’s more kitschy. she supposes it’s easier now, it’s easier without the fear of another annihilation. it still has the hefty weight of loss, though. cayde may have been gone, but the wound was healing slowly. white eyes watch the warlock’s vanguard watching the lanterns lift, the designs that hang in the air.  ❛ hello  old  friend,  ❜  she breathes with a smile, voice light as the air as she stands beside her,  ❛  i  should’ve  come  sooner,  and  for  that  i’m  sorry.  ❜  //  @luxdelumin: sc.

#luxdelumin #❪ i. / living in the night 'neath heavens torn asunder. ❫

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                                                 there’s a humming in the air, and it’s practically deafening. the whir of hydraulic systems and heavy machinery moving: the walls protecting the city are very much alive. in truth it’s comforting. it’s a feeling of not being truly alone. surrounded by books, aurelia is a caricature of every warlock stereotype, but these aren’t anthologies or essays; they’re journals. her own journals, specifically, covering from the moment she woke in the distributary to her last night alive. sometimes aurelia wonders if romulus and minerva went back to the reef, and part of her hopes they did. her thoughts are shattered with heavy footsteps,  ❛  how  may  i  assist  you ?  ❜  //  @deathsdeserters: sc.

#deathsdeserters #❪ i. / living in the night 'neath heavens torn asunder. ❫

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Chiaroscuro–the use of light and dark to achieve a heightened sense of depth  |  Defiance

#❪ mirror. / you’re the sun that burns at night. ❫

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#❪ ooc. / oh no. ❫

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❪  wishlist.  /  it  might  as  well  have  been  a  dream.  ❫ ❪  ooc.  /  oh  no.  ❫ ❪  self promo.  /  yikes‚  it’s  me.  ❫ ❪  blog recs.  /  they’re  amaaaaaazing.  ❫ ❪  psa.  /  listen  up.  ❫

#❪ wishlist. / it might as well have been a dream. ❫ #❪ ooc. / oh no. ❫ #❪ self promo. / yikes‚ it’s me. ❫ #❪ blog recs. / they’re amaaaaaazing. ❫ #❪ psa. / listen up. ❫

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❪  cayde.  /  his  life  is  a  gamble‚  and  he’s  got  an  ace  up  his  sleeve.  ❫ ❪  zavala.  /  everybody  wants  a  hero‚  and  he  wears  the  burden  well.  ❫ ❪  uldren.  /  death  isn’t  the  end‚  it’s  the  beginning.  ❫ ❪  iron lords.  /  even  heroes  can  die.  ❫ ❪  young wolf.  /  when  all  is  in  flames‚  you’ll  still  be  standing.  ❫ ❪  drifter.  /  no  rest  when  you  sleep  in  the  shadows.  ❫ ❪  music.  /  psalms  from  a  forgotten  world.  ❫ ❪  memes.  /  now  and  then  everyone  needs  a  break.  ❫ ❪  asks.  /  some  questions  weren’t  meant  to  be  answered.  ❫ ❪  desires.  /  let  it  go  and  unleash  all  of  your  feelings.  ❫

#❪ cayde. / his life is a gamble‚ and he’s got an ace up his sleeve. ❫ #❪ zavala. / everybody wants a hero‚ and he wears the burden well. ❫ #❪ uldren. / death isn’t the end‚ it’s the beginning. ❫ #❪ iron lords. / even heroes can die. ❫ #❪ young wolf. / when all is in flames‚ you’ll still be standing. ❫ #❪ drifter. / no rest when you sleep in the shadows. ❫ #❪ music. / psalms from a forgotten world. ❫ #❪ memes. / now and then everyone needs a break. ❫ #❪ asks. / some questions weren’t meant to be answered. ❫ #❪ desires. / let it go and unleash all of your feelings. ❫

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❪  i.  /  living  in  the  night  'neath  heavens  torn  asunder.  ❫ ❪  mirror.  /  you’re  the  sun  that  burns  at  night.  ❫ ❪  aes.  /  one  day  the  stars  will  set  you  on  fire.  ❫ ❪  isms.  /  you  fuel  the  fire  burning  through  the  breeze.  ❫ ❪  about.  /  from  seraph  skies‚  you’re  now  chaos  bound.  ❫ ❪  mindset.  /  you  wear  your  independence  like  a  crown.  ❫ ❪  thoughts.  /  you  were  made  to  walk  through  fire.  ❫ ❪  vanguard.  /  searching  your  eyes  for  a  saint  is  an  act  of  futility.  ❫ ❪  guardians.  /  we  dive  like  crows  towards  anything  glittering.  ❫ ❪  ikora rey.  /  you  were  never  an  island.  ❫

#❪ i. / living in the night 'neath heavens torn asunder. ❫ #❪ mirror. / you’re the sun that burns at night. ❫ #❪ aes. / one day the stars will set you on fire. ❫ #❪ isms. / you fuel the fire burning through the breeze. ❫ #❪ about. / from seraph skies‚ you’re now chaos bound. ❫ #❪ mindset. / you wear your independence like a crown. ❫ #❪ thoughts. / you were made to walk through fire. ❫ #❪ vanguard. / searching your eyes for a saint is an act of futility. ❫ #❪ guardians. / we dive like crows towards anything glittering. ❫ #❪ ikora rey. / you were never an island. ❫