always should be someone you really love! âż | r.l.
*:~>#%<~:*
remus lupin x reader (set in the 90s)
warnings: underage drinking, smoking, cussing, making out
sweaty and drunk teenagers filled the room, screaming and dancing their hearts out.
feeling the liquor burn itâs way down my throat, of course this being a sign that i needed to drink more for the burning to go away.
remus was laughing his ass off telling some incoherent story, i was laughing as well because i was so fucking out of it.
âREMUS!!! STOP TALKING!!â i said as i put my hand over his mouth to listen to the song that was playing âTHIS IS GIRLS AND BOYS!! BY BLUR!!! GOD DAMON ALBARN IS SO FIT!!! LETS DANCE!!â
i grabbed remusâ arm and dragged him to the dance floor
âstreets like a jungle, so call the policeâ
âfollowing the herd down to greeceâ
we were dancing like it was the last thing weâd do, âfOollOwing the hErddSss dOwwnwn to gReEceeâ remus was singing, god his singing was terrible.
âon holiday, love in the nineties, is paranoidâ
âHOLIDAYY NUNUNUNU NINETIES NANANAN PARANOID!!!â âTHIS SONG IS SOO GOODâ i screamed âISNâT THAT RIGHT REM??â âTOTALLYYâ he screamed back, as if we werenât facing each other
we kept stupidly dancing until the chorus came on
âgirls who want boys who like boys to be girls who do boys like they're girls who do girls like they're boysâ
âalways should be someone you really loveâ
âALWAYS SHOULD BE SOMEONE U REALLY LOOOVEEEEâ we said in between laughs
âhey rem, you know what would be so funny?â
âyeah y/n/n?â
âif we made out!â
âhell yeah!! letâs do itâ
and with that his tongue was down my throat and my fingers were tangled in his hair. this went on for a little longer than iâd like to admit.
when we were finally sobering up i took a cigarette from his pocked and asked him to light me.
âDUDEEE. REM DID YOU MAKE OUT WITH Y/Nâ james came screaming into the room, âwell fuck me!! i probably did⌠why?â
âeveryoneâs talking about it man!â james replied with a laugh
âoh godâ remus took the cigarette out of my hand and put it on his lips.
âremus!! song 2 by blur!! letâs dance!!â i said as i heard the drums of the song âiâm tired y/nâ âcâmoonnn man pleaseeeâ i whined. âfineâ he gave in, âhurry jamie, itâs starting!!â
âwoohoo!!!â
we all screamed along to the song
âwoohoo!!!â
âhey rem, you know what wound be coolâ i said
âyeah?â he replied
âif we made out again!â
âyou know what, fuck itâ he said and smashed his lips into mine
âgod damn, zero respect for the people around you it seemsâ james said as he walked away
âwhen i hear heavy metalâ
âand iâm pins and iâm needlesâ
âgod y/n, seems like blur makes you hornyâ remus laughed as i pulled away.
âalways manâ
god this night was crazyâŚ
âââ
HELLO??? DID YOU MISS ME??? i apologize for disappearing like that omf. iâm kinda rusty in writing fanfic so this kinda sucks. i fell in love with blur when i was away, also i kissed a bunch of people!! go me!! iâm so gonna be writing fics about many other people and many other universes. my life has changed a bunch since the last time i posted!! i hope i can get back into regularly posting again, lots of love -syd
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remus lupin headcannons:
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warnings: smoking (iâm sorry i canât help myself i love writing about smoking but donât really love doing it), smut, not proofread bc i refuse to for some reason, and i think thatâs it?lemme know if i missed anything :)
read me: the use of âgood girlâ is used one time, she/her pronouns not implied tho <3
a/n: i love writing headcannons so much omg. they leave so much space for creativity and so easy to work with, anyway enjoy <33
this boy is such a tease
as innocent as our remmy may seem, he knows how to rile you up
from when he wears those crop tops he knows you like
or when he throws his head back
or runs his fingers through his hair
he knows what you like
youâre his and he makes sure you know
heâs sweet in sex, but when you disobey him, iâm sorry baby youâre in for hell
because as he says, âonly good girls get to cumâ
honestly i kinda feel like heâd want to maintain the sub/dom routine outside of the bedroom sometimes, especially when youâre feeling subby.
he knows you so well, he knows exactly how youâre feeling all the time
he loves when you put eyeliner on him, or paint his nails, it makes him feel pretty.
you kinda have a bad smoking problem, so remus tries his best to get you to stop
and honestly itâs worked
every now and then both of u smoke tho
he loves reading with you, or helps him find peace
you were on of the first people he told about him being a werewolf, in terror of you leaving him
he was suprised to find out you were nothing but supportive
he loves music, and he loves when you show him music
i feel like he likes the smiths (fuck morrissey tho)
he loves playing with your hair
and you with his
and speaking of love
he loves đźoralđź
i donât think iâll go into detail
but at the end of the day
he loves you more than anything
and he wants you to know it
and this is the writer ending this bc they donât know what else to write
<3
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traitor | s.b.
not my gif!!!
SOUR masterlist
warnings: angst, break up, cussing, self harm, i wrote this based off of my experience with self harm. reader discretion advised.
not proofread cause booooriiiiinngggggđđđ also moony write a happy fanfic challenge <//3
read me: guys, iâm so sorry for not writing in so long. god, days have really flown. i was in an intense writers block, but yesterday i saw an interesting stranger whom without a word spoken already had my heart. i really hope i see them again soon, it sucks and it hurts to not even know their name, itâs frustrating that i canât do anything about it. theyâre perfect, i hope we meet again soon. i wrote a song about them because i felt things too strong to keep inside. iâm glad i started writing again, i missed it. now, traitor, a sirius black story:
(lyrics in purple)
brown guilty eyes and little white lies
yeah, i played dumb but I always knew
that you'd talk to her,
maybe did even worse, i kept quiet so I could keep you
guilty eyes with unspoken words looking back at me, making me feel small and stupid for acting like i never knew.
you talked to her behind my back, at first i just thought it was your friend since you clearly had no trouble in making them, but i didnât believe you did even worse.
of course, like a child in love for the first time, which was what i was at the time, kept quiet.
i couldnât lose you.
and ain't it funny
how you ran to her
the second that we called it quits?
isnât it funny? how when i finally got the courage to confront you about it, it ended in a big fight, you blaming me for not trusting you.
when you we called it quits, the person who brought you comfort was her. not your friends, clearly not me, her.
and ain't it funny
how you said you were friends?
now it sure as hell donât look like it.
when i even thought about bringing it up, or stared too long, you said you were friends. yet every time i asked you how your day was, or what was on your mind, you brought her up.
the way you have your arm around her, or the loving look you have on your face when sheâs around. i donât blame you, how couldnât you? her dark brown eyes, her smooth dark skin, her long fluffy hair, there was nothing not to love.
you betrayed me
and i know that you'll never feel sorry
for the way i hurt
i wonder if you remember our promise, we would be together through thick and thin, together forever. that went to shit.
the way you love her will never make you feel sorry for all the restless nights i spent, or the cuts scattered on my thighs, the eye bags that became something normal for me to have. you never payed it any mind.
loved you at your worst
but that didn't matter
when you needed someone, i was always there. dropped anything, important or not, so you could have a shoulder to cry on. did the impossible to make you feel alright.
but none of the mattered.
it took you two weeks
to go off and date her
guess you didn't cheat
but you're still a traitor
it only only took two weeks to hear everywhere how you were with her.
how much you loved her.
and almost nothing to see you guys attached to the hip, like we once were.
you didnât cheat, you stayed there with me but in the end were never really present.
but you still betrayed me, told me cheap lies to which i was too in love to not believe.
now you bring her around
just to shut me down
show her off like she's a new trophy
itâs like everywhere i go, youâre magically there, with her.
so many days ruined and nights spent crying because of your new trophy.
and i know if you were true
there's no damn way that you
could fall in love with somebody that quickly
all the âi love youâs and âiâll never leave youâ went to shit.
if you loved me as much as you told me the night you broke my heart, thereâs no way or explanation on how you lover her so much. itâs been two weeks, sirius, two weeks.
ain't it funny
all the twisted games
all the questions you used to avoid?
so all the âbaby, sheâs nobodyâ âdonât worry about it hunâ âdonât say thatâ âi love you, not herâ were all lies, love really blinded me and fucked me up this time.
âsiri, whoâs that girl youâre always hanging out with?â
âsheâs nobodyâ
âohâ
âwhatâs her name?â
âit doesnât matter y/n! iâm tired. iâm gonna sleep.â
really? she doesnât seem like a nobody now.
remember i brought her up
and you told me i was paranoid
ây/n! youâre just paranoid. just because youâve had shitty partners doesnât mean i am. stop being paranoid, itâs annoying.â that hit low. he was so cruel weeks prior to the breakup, how didnât i see it coming.
god, i wish that you had thought this through
before i went and fell in love with you
the red lines on my thigh appear from the night before. being just a reminder of how i canât feel anything, my favorite things go unnoticed now. you broke me. i wish you had thought it through before you let me fall in love with you
don't you dare forget about the way
you betrayed me
you really fucked me up. i let a bunch of things and red flags go âunnoticedâ. Iâve tried my best to be as supportive for you.
one thing i promised myself because of the shred of dignity i have left, is how i swear to god i wont let you forget about how you betrayed me.
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a/n: i hope you guys find this story to your liking, itâs the first thing iâve wrote in a while and i donât know how to feel about it. if you could, please tell me what you thought about it. thank you :) -moony<3
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hiiiii was just wondering when the next SOUR fic is coming bc iâm obsessed with that concept lol
Soon!!! Iâve been all over the place lately and I havenât really had time to write but I already have all of the ideas planned out for the rest of the series, Iâm going on a trip on Tuesday so while on the road Iâll have a bunch of time to write :) Iâm gonna keep try to post one today tho <333
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tewkesbury headcannons
hello everybody here are some headcannons for my favorite boy
not my gif!!
a/n: this is kinda gonna be set in a modern a/u bc itâs easier to work with and i am lazyđđ
warnings: smoking!!!
okay, first things first, letâs get it out of the way, heâs so stylish.
he would def ask you to paint his nails and put makeup on him just to get a rise out of his grandma
he always gives you flowers because, tewkesbury is tewkesbury.
he loves, loves, LOVES. being called a pretty boy. especially when you add a âmyâ before it. he melts.
he met you through enola and he thought you guys were dating at first so he was upset for a long time.
he loves jewelry, nothing fancy, cute little handmade bracelets and wire rings.
he loves music, and plays guitar.
you play drums so always talk about making a band.
heâs not really the jealous type, but when he is he usually just makes fun of the guy subtly. âdid you get dressed in the dark?â and then he feels bad because, say it with me, tewkesbury is tewkesbury.
he loves going to rooftops and smoke, itâs relaxing to him.
he once invited you and it became your thing.
he once saw you braid your hair and he begged you to teach him, no arguing.
his favorite songs are love my way by the psychedelic furs, just like heaven by the cure, and under my thumb by the rolling stones.
why? because i said so?
he loves writing, so finding miscellaneous love letters is normal.
when heâs anxious he loves having you read to him
all he wants to be is the best boyfriend for you, nothing more
he really liked sour by olivia rodrigo, he cried to it even though he had never been heartbroken
he thinks youâre the most beautiful being to ever exist. and he makes sure you know it.
his kisses are so soft and tender, so so cute.
he loves how you mutually teach each other things.
he ânever cared for his hairâ, but you did. you loved it. could never keep your hands off of it.
he moves around a lot when you guys sleep, so waking up with no blanket on you isnât strange.
heâs a little bratty toddler sometimes, but youâve learned to live with it
at the end of the day, you guys are absolutely the cutest couple.
and heâs proud of it
he loves you
and you love him
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enough for you ll / r.l.
not my gif!!
SOUR masterlist | enough for you, part one
warnings: angst, remus realizing things, not proof read.
(also a few t.A.T.u lyrics lol)
a/n: this ones kinda short bc thereâs not rlly a lot of ways to end this lol, iâm sorryđ
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âloved you more than iâd ever loved myself. i gave up everything. but you seem to have loved her.â
is this really how they felt? fuck, i never meant to hurt them. iâve looked everywhere, everywhere. even the special tree they went to when they had to think or just cry. i went to their dorm and there was nothing there. i lost them.
i mean, itâs almost the end of the year right? maybe they went home early? no, they wouldnât. hogwarts has always been their escape, right??
all the things she said, running through my head, theyâre running through my head. nothing comes up. i wish i could apologize.
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have i lost my mind? i always imagine them, imagine them walking around, i miss you y/n. please come back.
*time skip bc i donât feel like writing abt his summer lol*
Iâm at the train station. i broke up with my girlfriend because i just canât bare the thought of y/n being upset. iâm gonna make things right. theyâre my everything.
i saw a notebook fall in front of me, i picked it up and went to give it back to its owner. i was too wrapped up in my own thoughts that i didnât even see a figure in front of me, talking to somebody.
âhey is this yours? it fell.â
they turn around, they look different. longer hair, and it had little purple streaks in it. it looked charming.
ây/n..â i saw them shift uncomfortably âoh, thanks.â
they started speed walking away and i tried to stop them, saying ây/n can we please talk? i want to apologizeâ âyou donât have to, iâm over it. have a good day remusâ that tone was like a shot to the heart.
i spent months, months. trying to get them back. they moved on. thereâs nothing i can do about it, i lost them.
ââââââââââââââââââââââââââ
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@ashlovesthemarauders hi bff so the second part for enough for u is gonna be from remusâ pov but do u want me to make another story for Deja vu?? I feel bad :(
my i request a second part to enough for u, but with the song deja vu? THANK U TALENTED ICON
WAIT OH MY GOD THIS IS A RLLY GOOD IDEA. ILL TAG YOU WHEN ITS READY
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my i request a second part to enough for u, but with the song deja vu? THANK U TALENTED ICON
WAIT OH MY GOD THIS IS A RLLY GOOD IDEA. ILL TAG YOU WHEN ITS READY
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i have no clue how asks or submits work but if u want to request a one shot or something pls do đđ i saw one person make like some type of reply on my blog but iâm not sure how they work lolll
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this isnât really an ask but UR SO FUCKING TALENT OH MY GOODNESS THE REMUS FIC BROKE MY HEART
I LOVE YOU THANK YOU SO MUCH BAEâĽď¸âĽď¸âĽď¸
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enough for you | r.l.
not my gif!!!
SOUR masterlist | part two
warnings: angst, breakup, remus moving on, smoking,
(lyrics in purple)
ďżź
i wore makeup when we dated
cause i thought youâd like me more
if i looked like the other prom queens
i know that you loved before
dear remus,
i still love you
my first love, the boy i wouldâve given the sun and moon for, youâre sitting there with your arms wrapped around your new girl. while your friends laughed at one of your lame jokes you took the chance to place a kiss in the girlsâ beautiful blonde hair.
it made me think think of all of the times i went out of my way to put on makeup before seeing you, or changing my style in clothes just to make it more like likable for you. i shouldâve known, knowing all of the prom queen worthy girls you had wrapped around your fingers in the past, you could have anyone you want.
and i knew how you took your coffee
and your favorite songs by heart
i read all of your self-help books
so youâd think that i was smart
stupid, emotional, obsessive, little me
i knew from the start this is exactly how youâd leave
and all of the times i went out of my way to pick up some coffee for you, black with one sugar, everyday. i knew that order like the back of my hands.
i learned your favorite songs on the guitar just to impress you, i went out of my way to listen to all of the artist you liked just so youâd like me more.
i read all the books you liked so we had something to talk about. i made notes on them and lost sleep just so i could keep up with you.
you found someone better, and you left. i always knew it would happen but it was a surprise it happened so soon.
you found someone more exciting
the next second, you were gone
and you left me there cryin', wonderin' what I did wrong
and you always say i'm never satisfied
but i don't think that's true
'cause all i ever wanted was to be enough for you
sheâs so much more talented and prettier than me, no flaws, pretty green eyes, kindness, so talented, i couldnât compete.
couldnât you even tell me what i did wrong? was it too much to ask for a reason you decided to leave? and my best friend?
the two people i loved and trusted most stabbed me in the back.
all i ever wanted was to be enough for you. i quit smoking and tried my best to make you happy and not make you regret being with me. i just wanted to make you happy, thatâs all.
and maybe i'm just not as interesting
as the girls you had before
but god, you couldn't have cared less
about someone who loved you more
were your standards too high? or was i just not enough?
i remember when you helped me quit smoking, it made me realize you cared. now iâm smoking more than ever. i feel so alone.
come back to me.
now i don't want your sympathy
i just want myself back
when you saw me smoking and crying you held me and told me to stop, i donât want your sympathy. if you decided to leave me at my worst then thatâs on you.
what hurts most is that i know iâm never getting myself back. and itâs all because of you.
don't you think i loved you too much to be used and discarded?
don't you think I loved you too much to think I deserve nothing?
donât you think itâs shitty that you left the person that loved you most in the world for someone who you talked to once or twice before?
i loved you more than iâd ever loved myself. i gave up everything. but you seem to have loved her.
-yours forever , y/n
i left the note on his doorstep and left,
i left everything behind.
my family, my friends, remus.
i cant live like this anymore.
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SOUR masterlist:
not my gif!
(marauders)
brutal- james potter
traitor- sirius black
drivers silence (au)- remus lupin
1 step forward, 3 steps back- james potter
deja vu- remus lupin
good 4 u- sirius black
enough for you- remus lupin
happier (au)- remus lupin
jealousy, jealousy- sirius black
favorite crime- james potter
hope ur ok- remus lupin
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