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not a day goes by where i don’t think about killing myself

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Tracy K. Smith, “Don’t You Wonder, Sometimes?”

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I miss this =)

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I wish my thighs would social distance

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I’m so stupid... I hate myself

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I’m a piggy

oh my god i’m not even hungry STOP EATING jesus fuck

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This feeling kills me every day

I hate myself when I eat, because when I start eating I don't stop

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when I eat too much it makes my stomach hurt.

when I eat too much I lose my progress.

when I eat too much I gain weight.

when I eat too much I am not in control.

when I eat too much I am unproductive.

when I eat too much I look bloated.

when I eat too much I hurt at practice.

when I eat too much I am not perfect.

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I’m not suffering from an eating disorder. I love feeling empty, I love seeing the number on the scale go down, I love buying smaller clothes, I love that people call me ‘skinny’ and if not eating is what it takes, then I’ll continue doing so.