Everything is just so fucking hard right now.. Everything hurts so much.. In a way it never done before.
I do EVERYTHING to not think about how bad everything actually hurts but nothing seems to work anymore.. I think I'm going insane.. I can 't take anything seriously anymore..
Instead of crying when I cut myself as I used to do, I laugh..? Who even does that..?
I feel so much, all the time but at the same time I feel so fucking empty. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do.. No one understands me.. No one understands how much pain I’m in.. It feels like I literally have been torn into pieces..
I’m screaming on the inside but on the outside I’m quiet. I'm terrified of myself.. I get blackouts all too often nowadays.. I'm so scared that I might kill myself without thinking.. Without even realizing what I'm actually doing..
Please help!
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