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hi.

this is ben’s friend.

she committed suicide last last night and she wanted me to post this.

”I know you are reading my blog page, miss. I just want you to know that I wish you the best there is. You were the reason that made my suffering worth it. I love you, and it will always be true. I hope you find the greatest love out there.”

thank you.

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last letter to my sweetheart

you’re the best reason i can ever think of for staying a little longer than i should.

you kept me awake in my battles and for a while i thought i was in love. i’m not. you tried to save me, and i cling to anyone who tried to. i’m insecure. i wanted you so bad to tell me again you’re proud of me. and to ask me how i’m doing.

i tried to fight. believe me i did. i tried even tho everybody was choking me. i died before i even got to know you, you keeping me alive was not true. i was still dead.

now this is adios. your smile will be the last thing on my mind. thank you, grasean. thank you.

you are the best thing in space.

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it all hits me at 2 am

when i laugh it’s because i’m trying to hide the pain in my stomach of not eating the whole day. and it all hits me, when i cry at 2 am silently still. i have no one to tell cause i pushed everyone away.

i tried. i tried so hard.

i finished the letters. i’m just waiting for my chapstick to ran out.

thank you for reading all the poetry i wrote. this is all for you, grace.

#i love you all so much

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maybe this to-do list will fix me

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this is coming from someone who “dated” a teacher at 13, you wouldn’t want to be in that situation.

DO NOT, AND I REPEAT, DO NOT PUT YOURSELF IN THAT SITUATION.

im still on therapy right now and still healing 3 years later.

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i barely even knew you, but i adored you in ways i never thought i could.

#i love you so much my heart is bleeding

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anw happy teacher’s day !

as someone who was groomed for 2 years by a teacher and still has the nerve to write poems about a tc i must say that was very “i really need therapy“ of me

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i miss you.

today, i’ve waited for you to join the class.

every second felt like void cause i know how punctual you are. today, i’ve missed you. i’ve missed the laughter that filled the atmosphere and the silence of your smile. i’ve missed your eyes and how they always know how to shine. i’ve missed your voice and how you always know what to say. 

today, i’ve died.

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what if i don’t like you at all?

what if i was just fixated?

you were there in the first place.

you weren’t meant for me.

maybe i needed another reason to try again. to write again.

just happened you were there.

shining, smiling like your soul was pure honey

dripping,

and i tried dipping.

what if i don’t like you at all?

you were just there and i was just in a broken place.

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you are the death and the life of me, grasean.

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No one has ever known you as I know you.

Virginia Woolf (via quotemadness)

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my girl my girl my girl

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will it make me

a poet

if i write about how you drink coffee is majestic,

when it is?

will it make me 

a poet

if i write you as a poetry,

when you are?

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she was pretty enough to laugh and not worry about showing too much teeth.

i envy all the people she laughs with.

she looks a lot like the ocean,

she is wide and deep and calm.

she is the waves that sometimes hit you;

in the soul, under your heel.

i need to live again.

i need to live long enough to see all this.

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im sobbing

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tell em bestie

tbh i genuinely 100% couldn’t give any less of a shit regarding anyone’s Hot Opinion regarding hades/persephone. literally. put your energy to a better use. getting big mad over greek mythology as if it’s a huge, pressing, ever-present issue benefits no one and changes nothing. “OH BUT DEMETER-” i hate to break it out to you, but she isn’t real. no one’s dragging a real woman whose daughter had been kidnapped through mud. but also this whole movement against the modernization of greek mythology is. hejfksjfhfjslfh. holy shit. you guys are literally the funniest fucking people on this website. please shut up.

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she is kind and mean to me

i dont know why im telling this but im telling anw T-T

well our first quarter is ending this october and exams are fast approaching so we are finishing our tasks. c is my research teacher and she’s leaving on 2nd quarter so she is still our teacher now. my classmates are stressed about the task c gave us and told me to message her cause she’s not replying to any one of them. so i did, and damn she replied fast ?????? but the reply she gave me was kinda rude and idk if she is mad or idk pls 

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