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an american werewolf in london (1981)

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hypnotic spells, death spells.

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if she's talking head I know this must be the place 🥴

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Three trout from all the places I’ve called home

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twink peaks faggot walk with me

#laura said this to dale

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Women want a Midwest butch until she says bag or boat, or she wants to go to Kwik Trip for dinner, or she asks for help picking out a baseball cap to go with her button-up 😔

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Evening on the trail...

Montana

1911

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the soft animal of my body needs lesbian sex it told me i promise mary oliver i heard it

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It’s crazy that in 1993, the FBI had David Duchovny and trans David Duchovny working there at the same time

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journeys end in lovers meeting; i have spent an all but sleepless night, i have told lies and made a fool of myself, and the very air tastes like wine. i have been frightened half out of my foolish wits, but i have somehow earned this joy; i have been waiting for it for so long. btw. if you even care.

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I have to go I have to. Go to canvas.com

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#08 #09

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MY OWN PRIVATE IDAHO (1991) dir. Gus Van Sant

The centerpiece of River’s performance, and the film, is a campfire scene with Reeves. Scott Favor takes Mike Waters on a road trip (on a stolen motorcycle) to visit Mike’s brother. At night, sitting by a fire they’ve made, they discuss their respective childhoods: “If I had a normal family and a good upbringing, then I would have been a well-adjusted person,” Mike insists. What’s really on his mind: he’s in love with Scott, and he’s terrified of saying so.

 “I only have sex with a guy for money,” a reclining Scott tells him. “Two guys can’t love each other.”

 A miserable Mike says haltingly, “I could love someone even if I, you know, wasn’t paid for it. And I love you, and you don’t pay me.” Curling up in a ball, he tells Scott, “I really want to kiss you, man.” The scene ends with Scott gently holding Mike, stroking his hair.

“This is the best part in the film,” Van Sant said, “and was chosen by River to be his big scene.” At River’s request, Van Sant scheduled it for the last day of shooting. River rewrote it himself, making it more lyrical and making his love for Scott explicit (in Van Sant’s original script, the relationship was more ambiguous).

 “‘I love you, and you don’t have to pay me’—I’m so glad I wrote that line,” River said. “I think that in his private life, Mike was probably a virgin, so he only relates sex with work.” River had spent some time thinking about situational virginity, and the emotional consequences of having sex when you didn’t want to have it.

— Last Night at the Viper Room: River Phoenix and the Hollywood he left behind by Gavin Edwards

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gay sex wouldn't fix me. I still want it though

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I think theres something wonderful about high femmes and i dont mean high femme as the ppl who use it as the aesthetic, i use it as the stone term

High femmes, pillow princesses

I love them with all my heart theres just something so beautiful and selfless in the ways you trust others with pleasing you

You receive touch within your boundaries and through your pleasure let us tops feel good too

You dont need to reciprocate for it to be meaningful, your boundary is valid and there are many people out there who will respect it with no expectations of crossing that boundary.

We stone butches adore you and find safety and love in your boundary just as you find the same in ours

Dont settle for people who dont understand that being high femme is a boundary and instead think is a challenge or selfish

Theres many people out there who will thrive positively with your boundary and you will thrive in return off theirs

(this is okay to reblog)

#05

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sees a cigarette butt with lipstick on it on the sidewalk and gets so hard that i walk directly into a streetlamp