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the way i SWOON every single time i hear ben fankhauser singing "a regular beat for our star reporter!" in king of new york.

SOMEBODY SEDATE ME

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me when random men smile at me on the street: 😡🙄🫥👿🏃🏼‍♀️

me when random women smile at me on the street: 🥰🫶🏻💞👼🏼😍

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why are people so invested in the lives of people we don't know?

what is the draw to the kardashian family?

why do we all have opinions on musicians and actors divorcing or cheating or whatever when we don't know the details, or them personally?

i'm guilty of this too but i was just wondering why we all do this

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date idea: we watch any production of les mis and scream every time enjolras and grantaire acknowledge each other’s existence

(and then we kiss)

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there’s absolutely no point being horrified by the top price theatre tickets, there are rich people who will buy these. it’s the cheap seats we should be shouting about. les mis just a few years ago sold their restricted view slip seats for £25 and that price has now TRIPLED.

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because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

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Sister Michael: An Icon DERRY GIRLS (2018 - 2022)

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colinisaac u mean the world to me and i miss you </3

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hc that jan deliberately hides items up high because he knows richard and colin can’t reach them and it amuses him (and it’s definitely not because when richard leans up to get whatever jan has put out of his reach, his shirt rides up slightly). colin says jan’s being homophobic and richard just smirks because what they did that morning in richard’s kitchen was definitely NOT homophobic

HOW DID I NEVER NOTICE THAT COLIN AND RICHARD HAD TO STAND UP ON THE BENCH TO REACH THEIR CUBBIES OH MY GOD

#ted lasso #richard montlaur #jan maas #colin hughes #richmond himbos

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consider this: they’re gay AND european

gay or european but it could be about any of the richmond himbos

#ted lasso #afc richmond

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i remember when my friend met fra and asked him to say this line and he got so into it he recreated the whole moment on a train platform

once again time to remind you all that we do in fact need as much furniture as you can throw down

#fra fee #courfeyrac #les miserables

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me watching ted lasso: it’s a love story! between a bunch of different people in a bunch of different ways! The world is full of beauty and joy and kindness, you just have look for it and help contribute to it in return! life is meant to be lived earnestly and passionately!

me trying to describe ted lasso and get someone to watch it: it’s like about an American who goes to England and coaches soccer. But it’s also about friendship? Idk I swear it’s better than it sounds.

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"james potter bullied snape!" and i've never been prouder of him. took one for the team, really.

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Local Oncologist awarded title of gayest man on earth