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susiezfuckdestjamz farewell

Hey all!

It shouldn't be a surprise to know that I've come to the conclusion that I won't be running this blog anymore. After this post is made, I'll no longer be attending to this blog.

My interest in DBD waned long ago, with only my love for Susie staying far longer than I expected, which is why I decided to pursue my dream of making an askblog for a character I felt truly connected to. I thought I'd ride the wave, go with the flow, see how long I could have fun for.

It feels like i've been here for at least a year because of how much activity this blog has seen - though I'm pretty sure I only started near the middle of 2021. But enough time has passed, and I've found my appreciation for Susie to have dwindled not too long ago. So I see no point maintaining this blog if I can't even be sure that I actually like her enough to keep going. I still love Susie, but for now I'd rather move on to other things.

Nothing bad has happened, don't worry! In fact, this blog has helped me connect with folks despite me not being all that social, and I'm glad. Every ask, like, comment, reblog, all of it, I treasure. I've not been here very long, but I'm happy I've made an impact on at least somebody out there. This was my first time in years actually maintaining an askblog, and despite how short my stay was, it was worth every minute.

I got the chance to be sincere, roleplay a little, step into another character's shoes, be a little "aesthetic", and show off my "style". I was able to shake off my fear of socialising a little, and in the process I found that people actually did care for my Susie and the care and effort I put into her. It was really fun, and I'll forever cherish the memories and experiences running this blog has allowed me to encounter.

You guys made it possible, and you guys entertained Susie and I's shenanigans, and for that I extend my sincerest heartfelt gratitude.

It's time for me to move on, and at least I know now that I can run an askblog and be more responsible than I thought I was.

If you so wish, you can find me on:

Instagram as feralatticbastard, the only social media out of the big few that I really use often.

Discord @ puppydoq#0088, or my server. I'm SUPER active on Discord, moreso than Instagram.

I prefer talking in my server/public spaces over DMs for personal reasons, and also because at the time of you reading this my username may have changed by then. Being in my server is pretty much the easiest way to be up to date of where I am, new art, username changes, etc.

Tumblr as feralatticbastard (i don't post these days, just rb things of interest or to look at stuff)

Twitter as feralattic (rts and rambling about whatever's on my mind, sometimes art)

Thank you to everybody who's participated, every ask and interaction helped me better understand my own version of Susie. And I've seen plenty of wonderful characters and users. I wish all the best for everybody!

#blog upkeep

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BLOG UPDATE [10/2/22]

Hello! Mun here. Haven't been updating at all huh?

I've been focusing on school for the most part, playing some apex here and there recently. I've also been working on myself, other personal things. Haven't had much time to draw really.

Truth be told, I just don't feel that strong of a connection to Susie anymore, and my liking for DBD waned a long, long time ago. I like her, but not quite enough.

I don't know if I'm going to be continuing this blog after my hiatus(March around there), or if I'll just stop altogether. I'll leave that for when I get all my work done and submitted for every module, I guess.

Maybe it's just that sort of thing where I lose interest for a bit, then suddenly regain it when the time is right. So I suppose patience is all I can afford and we'll see how it plays out.

Will come back fully(?) during march and hopefully i've decided by then, peace. <3

#blog upkeep #mun talks #(( my dad recovered just fine from covid as well :) #i've been managing okay

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BLOG UPDATE [ 16/1/22]

hello all! Mun has been very quiet on the blog the past few days mostly, but probably the past while too - time is incomprehensible to me - and i wanted to say this will likely continue.

i'm not sure for how long, but i can't guarantee i will be very active. especially not for the next week or so. something occurred in my personal life that i'm still reeling from, and my father has covid now, meaning I'm a high-risk/close-contact. No need for concern regarding my father though! He's doing as well as anybody with covid can reasonably be, considering he's had his two doses + booster. No biggie for me either, since I've gotten all my shots too. Just pray I don't get covid i suppose!

school is in session, and from the start i've made it clear I run this blog in my free time, so understandably things have and always were destined to be on the slow side. just that i've not been in any sort of drawing mood *at all* the past few days, and this likely will continue for a few more days. i haven't checked in on the blog at all recently either, except for today. mostly just to make this update post.

consider this a hiatus of sorts? who knows. poke me on my discord server if you really need me, because 1) I always change my discord tag out of indecisiveness and 2) You'll always find me in my server.

Stay safe y'all! Thanks for sticking with me, and hopefully I'll come back soon. Probably not too long!

#blog upkeep #mun talks #(( after almost 3 years of not getting covid at all this was rather unavoidable! #but luckily we're all vaxxed :o) #(( i rambled on here before about worrying about traction #but now i realise since i run this blog in my free time i really don't need to worry about that. #i just need to worry about having fun and producing content i like and think people might like too #and developing susie of course

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NO SPIN @ THE BVRN ALIVE EVENT

LIVE ON STAGE AT A CAMPFIRE NEAR YOU, STARTING NOW!

As of TONIGHT, the NO SPIN event is officially live! Summoned by forces uncertain to the survivors, the four (formerly) deceased members of k-pop sensation NO SPIN have arrived in the Fog. As they were headed to an interview anyways, they're ready to answer your questions and interact with fans while Yun-jin figures out what the hell is going on. She is, however, still available to take questions + roleplay in interactions related to and not related to the event!

The inbox is open for (from left to right on the final page) Sea [Park Seung-hyun), Kim Moon-soo, U-EON [Han Min-ho], and Ryu Yi-eun. And, for the love of everything, do not tell them about Ji-woon. Or do. Yun-jin would rather you didn’t.

|| OOC under the cut!

Beyond my eternal gratitude for everyone's support, love, and continued stream of interaction despite my needing a hiatus (you all are truly so wonderful), there are a few special thanks I have to give out. You know, like it's an award show. I was just so excited to start this event that I'm so overwhelmed with joy ;; Consider it my 2022 shoutouts as well to people who made my 2021 dear!

Beyond my eternal gratitude for everyone's support, love, and continued stream of interaction despite my needing a hiatus (you all are truly so wonderful), there are a few special thanks I have to give out. You know, like it's an award show. I was just so excited to start this event that I'm so overwhelmed with joy ;; Consider it my 2022 shoutouts as well to people who made my 2021 dear!

To V over at @idol-trickster: my dear affection and thanks for the friendship and crazy incredible all-kill conversations. Your direct and indirect motivation to work on this comic and keep my passion for the chapter and k-pop burning absolutely helped ensure that I finally posted this. V is such a behind-the-scenes staple of this blog and wonderful person that I cannot emphasize their contribution as an inspiration and companion enough. I hope you know how much I appreciate you, your muse, and having somebody as bonkers about these characters as I am to talk to ♡ thank you so much, hyungnim. love you loads!

To Quen at @adept-yui: THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME STEAL YOUR YUI FOR THIS! and in general thank you for being literally the funniest person and most efficient meme-maker I have EVER met. You are crazy talented and HILARIOUS and EVIL and you love torturing my little men GIRL HELP!! this event really does go out to you perhaps more than anyone else because you have kept me focused on it like only a wonderful friend and force for villainy could. it is in fact about drive it's about power we stay h

but for real, I love you, amami. that stupid no spin lightstick edit and I knew was in this crazy ask blog friendship for (no spin's) life. thank you for everything, there are no words for how happy you make me.

To Poyo at @drowsy-dreamwalker: worstie !!! as one of the most consistent forces of encouragement behind my NO SPIN and the first person I ever opened up about them to, I owe you a huge thank you and lots of love! Joking around with you and having you in my corner has been loads of fun and a force of encouragement to improve my art and get this done. Thank you for being there, for being my friend, and for being an incredible artist. :bewm: ♡ Your support has been invaluable.

And to Kasu and Birb from @peacock-trickster and @susiezfuckdestjamz: your continued, insanely positive support and humor... has actually made me melt. On twitter for Kasu and tumblr for Birb, you both have genuinely almost brought me to tears for consistently interacting and being so damn sweet. You all were part of that vc and are 100% part of MY no spin of people mentioned here, my group of beloveds, I would not be posting this without the pure euphoria your support and pure delightfulness has offered me when I was unsure. You have pieces of my heart and all of my thanks. ♡ Nothing has gone unnoticed or unappreciated. Stay talented and stay gold.

Here's to a wonderful 2022 from mun Grey and muse Yun-jin at the MOMLee blog! Stay gold and one last deep thank you for sticking around. This year, I promise I'll pay it all back to you.

#rb #boost #(( LESGOOOOOOOOOOOOO BANGER POST BANGER EVENT #THANK YOU!!! I SAW THE OOC NOTES I'M HDJFHSJS I'M GLAD I WAS ABLE TO MAKE UR 2021 SWAGALICIOUS #IN SOME WAY!!! #Wait let me tag accordingly #dbd #dead by daylight #no spin #dbd no spin #dbd Yun jin #dbd yun jin lee #(( I'M SO TOUCHED..... I barely talk anymore but that vc was wild..... remember it like it was just yesterday #♥️♥️♥️💚💚💚💛💛🦦🦦 I'm so glad I could help in some way just by being my swagalicious funny little clown self #whip nae naes #NOW GO CHECK OUT THEIR BLOG AND EVENT OR PERISH

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Regarding the "Max is too into guys to be bi" statement, there is such a thing as a preference. Bisexuality is being NOT exclusively attracted to one gender(unlike hetero- and homosexuality), and Max is still bi even if he displays preference for men.

I suppose the term for Anon's statement is "bi erasure" or something of that sort on here. I know Anon is just stating their observation, but as a bi(pan? questioning?) person who's at the very least spent quite a few years identifying as bisexual, it sort of rubs me the wrong way just a tad. Max may be fictional, but he doesn't have to prove himself in order to be considered bisexual. If OP says their own character is bisexual, then so be it.

Hey so like, not to be saying it anything bad or trying to point fingers: but Max be hitting on guys a bit too much to be Bi. Like he tries with the Huntress I know but I’m seeing more of a trend with who he’s been hitting on lately. Like I said, not a bad thing or tryin to make a got you moment.

Well.. he’s got a type. It’s a very broad type but still.. And some people only seem to be interested in befriending Max.

Hes still Bi, that isn’t changing or being argued. But if he finds more guys in the realms attractive, then that’s him. Max would date (mostly) anyone in the realms at this point. It’s just a matter of who would return the affection you know.

#not susie #rb #mun talks #sometimes some things just don't need to be said anon #sometimes you don't intend to but your actions and words still have an impact anon #just letting you know

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#⁠—mischief list #⁠—etched ruler #gif

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#⁠—mischief list #⁠—etched ruler

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70′s/80′s/90′s Local Television New Year’s Station IDs/Bumpers Part 2 1. WGN-TV, Chigaco, Illinois, 1979 2. WPIX-TV, New York City, New York, 1989 3. KOLN-TV/KGIN-TV, Lincoln/Grand Island, Nebraska, 80′s 4. WXIA-TV, Atlanta, Georgia, 1979 5. WJW-TV, Cleveland, Ohio, 80′s 6. WWTV-TV/WWUP-TV, Cadillac, Traverse City, Sault Ste Marie, Michigan, 90′s 7. WJKS-TV, Jacksonville, Florida, 1992 8. WPIX-TV, New York City, New York, 1982 9. KIMA-TV, Yakima, Washington, 1988 10. KARE-TV, Minneapolis, Minnesota, 1998 Part 1 (x)

#⁠—mischief list #⁠—etched ruler

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oh—a heart is a heavy burden

rainer maria rilke / rita dove / my heart is that eternal rose (1989) by patrick tam / mary oliver / george seferis / federico garcía lorca / zarina situmorang / cameron awkward-rich / sylvia plath / jenny slate

#⁠—mischief list #⁠—stolen sketchbook #—webweaving

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I’ve wanted to do this ever since I can remember

#⁠—mischief list #⁠—stolen sketchbook

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also! on the topic of discord, friendly reminder that mun has a discord server!

>> https://discord.gg/Ujt6mDa <<

not dbd-only nor susie-only content, just a neat little community server for my art and just existing in general, in the neverending space that is our interwebs! i fear i may be stepping out of line promoting a non-fandom blog on my very-fandom blog, but then again i am not one for normality or sticking to convention!

if you're interested in knowing mun outside of blog hours or just, y'know, hanging out in some random small community without the stress of a one-on-one talk, feel free 2 join!

#mun talks #(( i sound like a cult leader! #the only cult i have is being shit at games though /j #(( the invite is on almost every socmed i have anyway what's the difference adding it to another blog i run #i am very bad with one-on-one convos as far as i'm aware so having a server helps me with communicating without being stressed out #now i shall scurry back to my nasty little bastard cave and continue my k-movie binge

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ah yes. thank you tumblr once again for the 1703849th time fucking up the order of my tags for no apparent reason!

#mun talks #(( i am still irritated by this! #insanely irritated!!!! #why does this keep happening!!!! #i know putting double apostrophes fucks up your tag order FOR SURE and puts it at the front of the tags #through some god unknown incomprehensible tumbly wumbly magic #but by GOD if it isn't sending me straight ot hell every time it happens

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why did my cringey little oc x canon post get 10 likes thats genuinely fascinating

/pos

#not susie #(( people always say rbs are good but #frankly i'm surprised i even got likes on that at all #somehow it feels just as good as getting rbs #(( eternally grateful of course! just surprised #i have been dead silent for a few days because i've been thinking things through #initially i wanted to either announce a hiatus or me dropping this blog altogether #because i feel inadequate and the whole thing thats been plaguing me #for much of my artistic journey as a hobby and sometimes career to some extent #but i also acknowledge i'm likely saying those out of impulse and only because i'm mentally unstable in those moments #i'm sticking around! i guess i just have to make peace with the blog growing slowly compared to others #because i'm not social nor do i have the energy to do weekly art posts #(( but you know. as i write this i think about how i've genuinely impacted people with this blog. and it makes me happy #it makes me wanna keep doing this. and i think that's what i needed to remember yknow? #i never expected to make an impact on *anybody* but to impact even one person out there with my art #with my stories and my characterization #that's astonishing. i'm glad #mun talks #i suppose i am resigned to assuming i will never get much fo a following bc of my lack of consistent updates #but i also suppose thats not that bad is it? #too many followers would stress me out and i guess its better to takei t slow

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Rest Energy - Marina Abramović and Ulay / The Archer - TS 

#⁠—etched ruler #⁠—stolen sketchbook #—mural sketch

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Reblog if you RP using Discord

#rb #(( hehe :^) #well actually i've never RP'd with anything except Syn #(( because my attachment and interest is only strongest w/ syn #and i have to really trust someone to actually roleplay #even if i wanted to roleplay with Susie i'd have to be comfortable with them #but this post said rb if u use discord 2 rp so obligatory rb babey! #(( i dont think i will ever ship my ocs or susie with anybody but that's also on a case-by-case basis #my brain is just wonky like that </3

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the weird thing about growing apart from friends is that you can never fully be rid of them. i don't think once about the girl i promised to never lose contact with for weeks at a time but whenever i see a certain book series i'll think about how much she loved it. i haven't talked to my old friends from camp in months but i'll never not like their pictures when they come up on my feed, and i'll never not like the friends themselves either. and it stings a bit when a boy i used to talk to for hours doesn't say hi to me when i see him in the cafeteria but whenever i see a supermarket cake i'll remember the time in middle school when i brought one to school for his birthday and he ate three slices and told me it was the best cake he'd ever had. you can pull away from friends but never fully break apart. the process of growing apart has a beginning but never an end

#⁠—mischief list #⁠—stolen sketchbook

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Jennifer S. Cheng, So We Must Meet Apart; “August 24, 2018”

#⁠—mischief list #⁠—stolen sketchbook