swagtreehumanbandit

[swagtreehumanbandit]

eu estou em pânico, sinto que devo ter engordado quilos e quilos... não consigo fechar a boca... me sinto pesada, nojenta.... eu só quero colocar tudo pra fora... ficar dias sem comer... sem sentir nada cair no meu estômago....

#anorexik #ana #no eating

[swagtreehumanbandit]

how can someone feel so much and feel so empty at the same time?

[swagtreehumanbandit]

pareço normal, mas já pensei seriamente em usar drogas pra emagrecer

[swagtreehumanbandit]

Honestly I hope i fucking die

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rt

being suicidal is such a weird feeling, i don’t really wanna die, I just don’t want to exist anymore!

[swagtreehumanbandit]

as vezes eu odeio como a anorexia faz com que eu me sinta... aquela fragilidade toda que eu almejava apenas me destruindo aos poucos... a fraqueza me pegando de surpresa após um dia sem comer.... daí vem aquele momento em que eu sei que se eu não comer vou acabar morrendo, e isso me dá medo, mas, não medo de morrer, e sim das calorias que eu vou ter que consumir para que não aconteça... eu sinceramente as vezes acho que a anorexia tá me fodendo de vez... eu só queria melhorar, mas eu ñ tenho força pra isso... nem física nem psicológica... achei que meu pai ia ter que chamar uma ambulância hoje, pq eu n conseguia me mover, me senti fraca como um corpo em decomposição... enfim... tem certas coisas que a gente nunca sabe como lidar, e tipo, machuca né.... eu tô quebrada, fragilizada, e é a primeira vez que de fato decido desabafar aqui como a pessoa que eu sou.... tô escrevendo pra mim mesma provavelmente, mas acho que tô precisando de um lugar para desabafar e falar o que eu sinto.

#tw ana diary #eating disoder things #eating problems #depressing shit #ed relapse #not pro ana just for the hashtags #anorexia #anorexik #tw ana trigger #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressing stuff #idk man

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[swagtreehumanbandit]

someone: hi!

me: cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock cock

[swagtreehumanbandit]

Running into the arms of my Ed because at least that will always be there waiting for me. Because at least if I’m too starved to feel anything I won’t have to remember how alone I really am. Because the few friends I do have all have friends they like way more than me. Because no matter what I do or where I go, the only place I can ever call home is sickness.

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Hugging you isn't enough. I need to live inside of you.

[swagtreehumanbandit]

Wish I had someone rn. They could teach me how to give a blowjob. Want them to force my head down on their cock until I'm crying. Be rough with me, then cuddle me after. Smooth my hair and tell me I did good for Daddy.

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If you cum to me i want to be told <3

[swagtreehumanbandit]

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Caralho desde o início de dezembro ando mo fora do foco tenho de me concentrar mais

Hoje vou ficar de nf fds

[swagtreehumanbandit]

#love #love quotes #relatable quotes #heartbreak #heartbroken #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #loss #life quotes #life #quotes #a blog for the heartbroken #remanence-of-love #relatable #funny

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forgot to take my meds and had a massive mental breakdown LOL

I wanna sleep forever i’m just so tired of this bullshit

#bpd #actually borderline #schizoaffective #bpd vent

[swagtreehumanbandit]

you know what hurts?

thinking they’ll come back, because they’ll eventually miss you. you envision them texting you, so you check your phone instantly every time you get a text, but it’s never them.

then, time goes by, and you realize that while you were waiting for them to come back & doing everything you could to remember how they made you feel when you were in love, they spent that time forgetting about you & falling in love with someone else.

the moment that you see them with someone new is the most painful heartbreak a person can go through. you know they aren’t coming back, and you have to begin the process of letting them go. you spent all that time convincing yourself they were coming back, just to watch them live as if you never existed; as if they never loved you.

#heartbreak #i miss him #i miss u #heartache #love quotes #love letters #love letter: my true feelings #beautiful quote #letters #sad poem #him <3 #sad quotes #sadbeautifultragic #sadgirl #heart been broke so many times #my love #open heart #sad thoughts #you broke my heart #goodbye #this hit me hard #3 am shit #3 am posts #3 am writing #3 am thoughts #3 am feelings #he deserves more love #he deserves them #moving on

[swagtreehumanbandit]

she tired, really really tired.

#quotes #love #mine #tumblr #love quotes #in love #heartbreak #6 #feelings #a