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i honestly cant believe i let myself go this far, it’s embarrassing. i’m embarrassed to wear anything even oversized clothes because my arms fill them out

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portion control.

portion control is the key to success. counting cals is not always reliable and just keeps you paranoid. portion control allows you to eat cute tiny meals without calculating every calorie. it allows you to still have 3 meals a day. portion control is the key. buy tiny dishes and baby spoons with cute designs! makes you look forward to the meals without being paranoid about cals. makes everything easier!

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being in yr 20s is abt experiencing the worst thing you can imagine & then having to go to the grocery store

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slow progress is still progress

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to avoid disappointment, expect nothing from nobody.

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It’s been a long time since I’ve been on here. :/

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I want people to worry about me, but I also want to get so bad while nobody notices and just slowly rot away

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i don't wanna look "normal". why they can not understand?? i wanna be skinny. normal isn't enough for me

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small portion>>>>>>

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in theory, loosing weight is so easy, you just have to skip meals and wait. But i have a brain with a survival modus and thats the whole problem -_-

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anyone else decaying. is anyone else simply rotting

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the older i get, the more i need time & personal space to be as boring as possible

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you relapse

as a teen, ana was easy

a few days without eating was a walk in the park

the kg’s would fall off you in a matter of days

reaching goal weights left, right and centre.

as an adult, ana is a full time job

without the money perks and bonuses.

it consumes every moment of your day

the weight is so stubborn,

and it won’t shift.

you cry and you scream

restrict, restrict, restrict.

all you want is your teenage body back

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Am I the only one who sees thinspo and thinks “that’s not thin enough” like if I don’t see bones it doesn’t work. I want my hip bones ti be showing. My ribs. My spine. I wanna be able to wrap my hand around my upper arm and still have space. I want to be able yo wrap both hands all the way around my thigh. I wanna be skin and bones.

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Sweat is your fat crying

Hunger pains is your fat dying