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i shall make the springtime of my life bloom in splendor [ happy birthday souma kanzaki! you will always never fail to delight me with your murderous charm and wonderful diligence. i will post even more souma because im not kidding when i say i have7 more clip files open of him. listen to seishin keppuroku ]

#sy.reb #enstars #souma kanzaki #so pretty!!! i love the coloring of this it’s sooooo….

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liberal zionists while the rest of the world is viewing images of mass graves and miles of completely destroyed infrastructure in one of the world's most densely populated areas

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instead of continuously over-donating to ao3 when those running the site are racist zionist sympathisers who shut down support of palestine from its volunteers 1 / 2 (among myriad other issues that u should NOT be funding) please direct your attention to these incomplete fundraisers for people in gaza and various tangible operations doing work. this is a call that if u have donated even a cent to ao3 to a) match that in your donations to palestinians/causes and b) stop donating so uncritically and unconditionally to ao3, pressure them. id like to direct u to @end-otw-racism

fundraiser masterpost by @el-shab-hussein

mona

care for gaza

help gaza's children

operation olive branch

the palestinian children's relief fund

unrwa

the palestinian red crescent society

buy an e-sim / donate for mass buying

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I tried asking my grandma for something when i was having a Psychosis Moment and thank FUCK she thought i was just rambling / sounding weird again because my speech was so disorganized 💔 humiliating.

#sy.txt #schizospec

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glad to see the punctuation For Emphasis has only 0.7% of votes. we’re all dramatic down here in, uhm. tumblrville.

(Note: like last time, 'delulu’ and 'neurospicy' etc are not included on here because they're just Always Bad!)

Don’t forget to reblog for bigger sample size!

#sy.reb #polls #girl (math; dinner; etc. using ; in place of commas because i can’t use them)

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LOL

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FYI, y'all have my blanket permission to spam me with as many boops as you need to get those cute badges :3

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I have mono

update on the throat infection if anybody cares… i MIGHT have mono. we went to urgent care yesterday and if it doesn’t get better in a few days then mono will be considered… they’ll have to take my blood for a test… aaagghh!!! my hands are bruised from my last blood draw, but more is in demand… they want my blood so bad you guys

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i mean no offense towards the concept of course but i feel like ‘cannibalism as a metaphor for love’ is getting too sanitized. i just feel that there isn’t much point for me unless it’s visceral. it will lead to horrible infection. it MUST be grotesque, how would it not be when the body and brain reject with everything they have. it should not be done, it goes against something quite innate, but because it can be, it will be. i will act on this larger-than-life, primordial feeling even if i break my jaw so i may fit my someone in maw. move aside gentle lovers, and Behold Voracity.

#sy.txt #cannibalism as a metaphor for love #ask to tag

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hello everyone today is so beautiful, peace and love and light and happiness forever. They are putting me on antipsychotics. so if im less unique and special and one of a kind all of a sudden. you know why

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Please tell me in the tags who's in the pfps and what you picked! If it's the same person/character think of one as a clone. What would they do to themselves?

#sy.reb #polls #i cant see them fighting…. they have a positive relationship after all..!!! other than that it depends on who it is thats fighting #if its just tori vs mika….. i cant see them fighting idk they both slip and fall on identical banana peels instantly knocking themselves out #as for mika vs yuzuru? #_(:3 」∠)_ it’s so over… #since yzr is yzr i think he is winning IF they fight… normally i think theyd be friends though. no fighting!….?

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asserting my dominance by crying in front of the reason for my emotional distress

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love ppl online being like "ur literally 30" like do u think thats not gonna happen to you??

#sy.reb #everyone is sooo full of self importance until the passage of time comes .for them #i love you time (deeply afraid but it’s natural…… it’s good……..) (like trying to convince a kid to get a shot)

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in late 2021 i would wake up and check the soushin tag on ao3 almost every day. every time there was a new piece published under it (because there was, like… 30 or something. maybe somewhere in the 40s?) i would take at least several good bites of it, and usually ate the whole thing and licked my plate clean metaphorically etc etc.

this october i will have been soushinning for three (3) years! 🙏

#sy.txt #soushin

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I ate it off of the ground like a fucking animal

Popcorn spilled all over the goddamn carpeted floor i hope the next thing that spills is my blood and liters of it

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Popcorn spilled all over the goddamn carpeted floor i hope the next thing that spills is my blood and liters of it

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