#/negative

[pinetreevillain]

I am so stoked that DoM is continuing! I am batshit for clown aesthestics and you write Ross is such a disturbing way and it's delightful! Can you tell us more about Ross and Constance(? The guy with the red glasses)

Constance is the name of the demon! Sol is the name of the guy with red goggles.

I don’t have much to share (some of it DOES have to stay secret) but! I can say that Sol is a Satanist, and he “”indoctrinated”” Ross by possessing him with a demon called Constance so that Ross would be his enforcer and protector.

You’re probably not gonna see them again until next halloween tho lmaaaaooo thank you for your kind words!!!! It means a lot :,)

#soulsavepoint #ask box #my art #death of me #constance #father ross #sol #character lineup #original characters #character ref #they also make out a lot #and hold hands #/negative #/gay

[jarognieva]

Parents be like "yes I support you with your autism uwu" and after this they're mad because of your autistic traits

#autism #asd #/negative #kind of personal

[shellxrls]

GUYS ITS A CROSSOVER OH MY GOD

#two most influential white men in my life #/negative #jj and john b don’t count they’re too tan #this is actually insane for me

[allgoldenelite]

i realized this talking about it with somebody the other day, but wrestling interviews tend to be extremely frustrating for me.

every time i read an interview by a promotion or a major content mill wrestling site it just makes me realize we still haven't shaken the MMA curse. we're still in the times where a major article on a character worker has to be like "mmmmmaybe wrestling....is art??????!!! BUT ONLY MAYBE" because they don't wanna offend the oldheads who think this "shit goes so hard" and that it has nothing else to say. like those dreadful articles about sukeban by artnet and vogue just proved that yet again. wrestling has such a high glass ceiling and it's still seen as a dumb sports where ppl hit each other until one of them can't get up anymore, despite the literal near fatal efforts by all kinds of wrestlers all around the globe to make the mainstream see that it is a legit art medium with stories that go deeper than "i don't like you" or "you beat me in the last tournament" (it's received heavy praise from fans due to the supposed """right direction""" it will shift the company in, but if i personally ever see the phrase SpOrTs BaSeD pReSENtatIOn again i might throw up). don't even get me started on how little attention joshi stories receive.

interviews are just one victim of the curse. the questions are boring. they just are. western interviews are almost all shoot-ish interviews and in 99.99% of cases there will be 2 maybe 3 lore based questions that ACTUALLY ask about the character and the stories they are in (shoot interviews are cool dgmw. it's cool getting fluff and tidbits about your fav! but if it's all there is it's literally so unsatisfying). japanese interviews are shackled by the kinda sorta taboo of discussing shoot topics (unless you are kaminoge, god bless em), which can actually be rewarding and fun if you fully dive into kayfabe and corner the characters but even weekly pro with their stiff adherence don't seem to understand what that means. like there are so many things that a character worker will do or that will happen in a story, and nobody asks about them. nobody even thinks about bringing them up despite them being immensely lore relevant. there is only so many times i can read "what are your plans for the future?" before i keel over.

which is why i'm so happy every time i see an interview that actually does care about the characters and the art of it. an interview or q&a that has respect for the performers beyond their accolades. it takes time and effort to do that and swim against the stream, so those types of efforts will always at the very least have my interest and support.

#/long #/joesays #rasslin #/negative #incidentally you can see the MMA curse in how many promotions used to shoot their matches #just absolutely dreadful #made everything look so fucking boring

[galactia]

Some talk of event changes from the stream:

So. They are changing Windtrace to be even more pvp and I am so disappointed. :( I know I should hold judgement until I play it, but as a pvp game player, I just want to play genshin cooperatively and not... pvp. Hide-and-seek was fun, and I know they'll do a survey to get feedback, but I am weeping for the old version of Windtrace.

#genshin spoilers #/negative

[katyspersonal]

^ The "based blue anon" from July is back!!!!!! :D I shared with him what a terrible mess BB fandom has been for past two years, minus a few recent months where things started to slowly improve and I hope it continues, and I am surprised how well he gets it holy shit. "They reject reality, substitute for their reality, and reject you if you reject their reality" and "they use a proposal to agree to disagree not to stop arguing but to devalue your arguements even if yours have real substance and theirs don't" is absolutely the description of Gehrman haters. To some extent fans that don't know masculine and/or battle-capable bi women exist, apparently.

It really is just about control, and always has been- And yes, I wasn't realizing how twisted the term "fanon" was. I am discouraged from fumbling with semantics too hard because it is exactly what those control freaks do to silence those that think for themselves, but sone words MATTER. I am totally going to stop using it and opt out for words that expose how individual and unnecessary to agree with ideas by fans are. "Fanon" implies there is an interpretation fandom (or rather, "community uwu") agreed with and you are bad for not complying. They might not SAY it and even pretend that they do respect different interpretations, but in secret they resent you and trash talk you in Discord servers.

#fandomry rambles #/negative #I keep asking this person to make a Tumblr but... he is right to avoid social media #truthfully. #sorry lol #I've been negative recently because I am dealing with quite a crisis cognitively #I just can't wait for it to be over and go back to rambling and drawing #but I figured keeping it inside is bad for my health so I just speak as it goes #if I make you uncomfortable now but you still like my other posts I advice to- #-unfollow until March and then follow back #January and February are always the darkest months for me even when nothing happens #seasonal stuff is a bitch

[yaoi-ifier]

Who even cares about anything anymore

#Clone high trailer #clone high #/negative

[doors-worstenemy]

Oh that's a proshipper in the stinky dragon tag. I love it here.

#/negative

[inh-the-void]

I've been so sick the passed couple of days and existence hurts rn

#talking inh the void #/negative

[hellodahliah]

my mum is having a surgery tomorrow and i am just feeling a mix of every kind of all sorts of emotions at the same time.i know the surgeons have prepared well for everything and they are experienced in that sort of surgery. my mom is also a real fighter, so i know rationally everything will turn out alright. but i am still terrified of everything that might go wrong and all the risks. I won't go into much details, but this year has really been weighing heavy on my parents. it is like things become even worse for our family everytime we hope the bad news will end and that things could finally be a bit better. when we finally become hopeful for something more positive, another thing happens. I apologize for everyone that reads this, i just really needed to let things off my chest.

#nonsims #tbd #tw surgery #/surgery #/negative

[nixfeathers]

Feeling like all my problems would be solved if I had wings, an exciting life, and passion.

But here I am, stuck, feeling like every time I leave my imagination I'm shoved right back into realising that it will never ever be that way.

I'm not who I'm supposed to be, I'm not free nor even motivated to achieve excitement. Everything is just mundane, predictable, and ordinary.

Sometimes it's a blessing sometimes it's a curse.

#aviankin #birdkin #wingkin #Nix's Coos #/negative

[jarognieva]

It seems October is going to be the hardest month I ever had in this job... I know myself and I know that the hours I've got are going to fucking kill me. Instead of enjoying the best month of year - October, I will be only working and sleeping

I have no idea what kind of new job I should looking for. Because it turned out I can't work in loud places, I can't work in the places where it's a lot of people, I can't work in customer service because I'm not only anxious but also my brain process any information too slow and it tooks me too long to guess what in fact do they want from me. It seems there's no job for people like me ;/

#today I literally run away from my work because I was almost crying #apparently tuestays are the most calm but I don't need a lot of people to feel terrible #there is always so loud here... #and when I saw work schedule for Oct it literally led me to cry... #and being home isn't escape for me because of my family problems #I can't even move out because I'm too poor and I'm afraid of changes like this #I can't find any positive thing in my life #only my bloodborne hyperfixation (and my dog lol) keep me alive #/negative #I'm on the edge of fucking mental breakdown

[masked-and-doomed]

Kill me kill me please please please I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't

#negative #/negative #truly i cannot. handle anything anymore. I'm fulfilling my little self fulfilling prophecy. hahhhahaha. ahahah. #just let me have a heart attack in my sleep or something let me rest let me rest i dont want to be here anymore

[wordmojiworld]

[ID: a set of the letters "Neg" and the word "Negative", they are purple with a light outline, the following iterations are shown: Neg, Neg?, Neg!, /Neg, /Neg?, /Neg!, Negative, Negative?, Negative!, /Negative, /Negative?, /Negative! End ID]

#emoji #discord emoji #word emoji #wordmoji #tonetag #tone tag #color: purple #neg #/neg #negative #/negative

[born-in-hell]

im gonna be toxic here and say im HOPING bolas loses bc i want the eggs to live welcome to my tedtalk

#qsmp purgatory #qsmp soulfire #/negative #this is just a toxic ass post ok #negative #/neg

[katyspersonal]

Tumblr sorta needs a 'Mute' feature in my opinion. Like what if I don't want to block this user, what if I don't want to become enemies and in some days I'd like to interact. But also most of the time seeing how they avidly encourage everyone else whereas I get the passive-aggressive 'oh yeah very uhh... interesting... (please leave me alone I don't like your art lol)' makes me want to unfollow every single fan of these characters and never draw them again.

I remember two years ago the exact same thing happened when someone liked the same character and the same ship and I swear I was the only person in the fandom they bluntly left out and could not spare a single good word for. I can't even blame this on my art being "ugly" because this type of user always aggressively praises all art styles and all levels of skill, it feels more like 'a personal thing except we never fought a single time'. And now my toxic trait of needing approval from [cool person name] is back to haunt me years later! Add the unability to "abandon" this character/ship/whatever despite wanting to after facing so much unspoken passive spite, because I am a contrarian and the best way to trap me into doing something is to try to exclude me from it. I didn't face attempts to very aggressively bully me out of the yard/class/community/etc, sometimes with physical violence included, only to let something mid like passive aggression online finally do it.

I am really stupid and naive person despite my age, but in like 5% of the cases I will still understand the hint and understand what is going on. Yet I have to pretend to be clueless even in rare situations when I know someone hates me, because since they never admitted it, quitting will be perceived as me being "paranoid". But dear goooood, it hurts sometimes. I hope that one day I will be numbed to being treated as a tumor on an otherwise healthy body of society that someone is dying to amputate- and always a person whose approval I want, of all people. Knowing that this day will come is one of the things that keep me going as both a person and a creator. Things like viruses and diseases still try their best to persist, so even if I am actually one, I should persist. It doesn't matter whether I actually rot everything around me or this is just my self-depreciating delusion upon focusing on people that mistreated me and not people that loved me. What matters is persisting, I just still feel angry that it hurts. I can't respond spite with spite or passive aggression with passive aggression, I can't do the 'smug asshole' when I become aware that someone tries to starve me until I "die". I can just fall over and cry about it like a kicked dog, despite being so old, especially when it is a person I didn't have anything against.

And really.. It is as simple as turning the internet off, so I don't see The Person and can focus on doing stuff that I like, as if they never existed and can't crash my self-esteem. It is just annoying to keep doing this, a feature to not see them unless I am in the mood would be better. Like.. blocking is not an option. Not only it implies being enemies which is not my intention, but also it will be like an "evidence" that I was "crazy". They didn't do anything, right? Well, they know what they did, but it was never verbal, so it is my fault I "imagined things", right?

#/vent #/negative #/HEAVILY negative #fandomry rambles #like I started crying typing this do not read it unless you already know #it is just stupid how I don't even need any sort of drama to *just* annoy people to THIS severe point #like I said even before everything there was a very similar situation #I just evoke some primal hatred in specific type of people #it is probably what happened with maasanox but they apologized and moreover felt bad vibes from the stalker bully idiot #it is more like that meme from Lilo and Stitch #'ah yeah all artists and other creative fans deserve knowing they are liked and talented and supported...' #*katya walks in* 'EXCEPT THAT ONE!!!!!!!' #the punchline is that the two years ago guy and todays guy are fans of the same character #I swear the fictional bastard has abnormal ability to reveal the ugliest truths and bring out the worst in people #like the last time someone kinned the twink every single person here showed their true face and that was painful #not a single person got spared of showing what they were made of and me lacking spine was the LEAST of the sins brought up for judgement #you see this is why truth hurts. because people are terrible. truth is always ugly because WE are always ugly #I kinda love him for that but seriously can he stop making the worst things surface for FIVE minutes lol #in my excuse I am TRYING to kill my 'inner child' because these problems are too stupid but it seems impossible #I am a kicked dog with rabies in the past today and always